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Kels

@kellzcrafts.bsky.social

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ttRPG Enthusiast \\ Infrequent Artist \\ Serial Post-Liker 30+, she/they, Queer

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nauma 🧡 @naumin.bsky.social · 07/09/2025

(1/2) my autobio comic for noah's ark IV "I'm not allowed to draw this!"

title: nauma in "I can't draw this!" for noah's ark IV
Narration: It was really hard for me to think of what to draw for this theme because I'm at a place in my career where I'll draw anything for a biscuit.
Panel shows a hand holding a biscuit emerging from a curtain saying "6 nipples, 21 toes, 14 cocks, 7 heads..." I impatiently draw at a tablet saying "YA just leave the money on the table!!!"

Narration: But when I really think about what I'm embarrassed to show anyone... I guess... it's like... pretty... girls... in dresses...
Panel shows a girl tucking her hair behind her ear. I'm starting to blush.

Narration: and they get fucked??? (usually by men...) I...
Panel shows a beautiful girl with curly hair in lingerie tied in ropes while a hand burns her thighs with a cigarette. I look dismayed.

Page 2. Narration: I... isn't this so HETERONORMATIVE and BORING? I used to be so smug about my niche tastes, and now I'm nothing special!!! But it was a big deal for me to get here.

Flashback to a few years ago where I'm sobbing in front of a mirror, my hair short. I think "GOD I really treat myself like SHIT! I don't treat myself like a person let alone a girl. I just treat myself like some THING! (I was so cute with short hair tho.)

I had received plenty of this growing up, but now as an adult I found myself alone holding the whip. (Where did everyone go?) And I wanted out.

In images of beautiful girls I saw a personhood not afforded to me. I hated them, but I wanted to be them. Like Prometheus, I wanted to poach that divine flame. Panels show grainy classical images of girls with long hair, pretty dresses, skinny limbs, etc.

Page 3. So I made new stories. I drew up these women that didn't exist outside of me. They existed because of me. Drawing is kinda based in this way. From your hand to the line and back into your brain, it becomes possible to craft a new relationship with yourself. (drawing porn especially is really good for this)

Page 4. To be clear, it would be wrong to say I uncovered some primal truth or became emancipated from the social order and history which stripped me of my personhood in the first place. Any wounds I've endured are alive and well within me. And I want to ask: why heal at all? (And heal into what?) Panel shows Botticelli's venus with a gash in her stomach.

Ultimately what I did was decide to show an interest in myself. To become instrumental in my pleasure as well as my misery. Panel shows me walking home on my street.

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Sophie Labelle @assignedmale.bsky.social · 04/06/2025

RIP Jonathan Joss (December 22nd 1965 - June 1st 2025).

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Cybershell @cybershell.bsky.social · 10/01/2025

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Kels @kellzcrafts.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

Art of Zozo by the wonderful @artcher.bsky.social 💖

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Kels @kellzcrafts.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

This is where I post from

Extremely bit-crushed abandoned and boarded up gas station

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Kels @kellzcrafts.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

I know people are doing the 'algorithm' list posts, but this is much more my speed, and i might adapt it for other hobbies. My top 5 #TTRPG picks: (In no particular order) ✮ Shadowrun ✮ Stars Without Number ✮ Blades in the Dark ✮ Powered by the Apocalypse Systems ✮ MausRitter

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Kels @kellzcrafts.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

I've never been good at posting in the twtr way of shouting into the void. I keep everything too close to the chest. But it might be time to try breaking out of my shell a bit, so we'll see how it goes.

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