sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 03/10/2026i look nothing like myself and it's been a little upsetting lately.. i feel so brittle and everything hurts, sitting hurts, laying hurts, even using a cushion hurts, i look so gross and sharp i just want to feel better :(((((( hopefully after my bloodwork comes back i'll have some answers.. 3120
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 27/09/2026sorry for inactivity.. health has been so awful lately but i'm hoping i can feel better soon..! 7230
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 30/08/2026i picked flowers and blackberries with my partner at a farm today for my birthday.. i'm so happy, one of the best days of my life ever. i'm so grateful for the joys i can experience because i chose to keep trying.. 4561
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 28/08/2026i'm showing my partner the tv shows i used to watch i'm successfully indoctrinating them hehe 0150
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 20/08/2026i'm really proud of how much better i've gotten at cooking!!! i think a big motivator for me was that i love cooking for my partner, they seriously enjoy everything i make (plus it helps take my mind off of things that make me sad) so i want to continue making good food forever!!!!!! 5240
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 10/08/2026today i'm going to try and clean my desk and make some art for myself. i've been neglecting my work area for so long i've decided i'm going to make it nice again!!! 2170
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 01/08/2026whenever i go out, i feel like i'm skinwalking as myself if that makes any sense. i have to act like myself because i forget how to do anything when i'm around a lot of people and i feel like people know i'm not myself and i feel really bad because i'm not purposely trying to be awkward or weird 4150
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 14/07/2026i was on my way home and this guy kept following me around and wouldn't leave me alone.. i had to run into a restaurant and get help because he wouldn't leave me alone.. going out is already hard for me why does this have to happen too.. 6180
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 13/07/2026i hope everyone is taking good care of themselves, you deserve the best for yourself!!! 5201
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 11/07/2026whenever i think about what i want to eat, the texture and taste of the food is important but the most important aspect is how it'll sit in my stomach if that makes sense? like will it sit lightly, heavily, will it be solid, liquid, etc. i think that contributes to my pickiness when it comes to food 3160
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 21/06/2026i attended my first pride parade today!!!! it was so much fun and i'm so happy i finally built up the courage to go out to such a big event like this ^^ 7360
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 18/06/2026i was baking cookies and i kept eating small bits of the dough because i couldn't help myself but i think it added up because my tummy hurts ;_; 6140
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 16/06/2026there is such beauty in mundanity, sunlight streaming through a window, the smell of the dirt after it rains, leftover plates in the sink, drying paint on my palette, it's all so wonderful and i never want it to end 2200
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 16/06/2026i want to live life not being anything particularly special 1160
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 24/05/2026thinking about going back to a bob for the summer, but a longer messier bob 2160
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 11/05/2026i'm going to try and make a strictly art related account on some other socials, my classmates kept asking if i had any art socials and i really don't have any at all ;_; 4331
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 11/05/2026i'm probably going to have to get braces again.. not excited.. 2130
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 04/05/2026from my painting i've learnt that i no longer treat the canvas violently. i want to treat my art gently and kindly, i want to spend time with it and cherish the time i have with it. i think it was a gradual change but it suddenly became apparent to me 3222
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 29/04/2026my goal is to try painting on a large scale again. i think there's something about my larger paintings that i can't quite replicate with my smaller ones that i would love to tap into again 4200
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 13/04/2026sorry i disappeared for a while, i've been feeling very physically unwell and i haven't had the energy to go to school or do much in general. trying my best to recover ;_; 9190
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 25/03/2026today was extremely hard for me, but i'm happy that it worked out 6150
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 20/03/2026i keep seeing uzi fa with gir and it confuses me because uzi is so zim and n is so gir. have they not watched the show.. 4150
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 19/03/2026i think i'm ready to experiment with my gender identity again, i like being feminine but i also miss being masculine as well 5170
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 17/03/2026i was barely wearing any makeup and didn't even have my bangs down and a girl in my class said i looked really pretty..! that really made my day because i've been too depressed to really do my makeup or dress up lately.. people can be so sweet ;_; 6222
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 12/03/2026i tried to record a video but it didn't feel right, i'll try again sometime and if that doesn't work the next video will be during the summer 3180
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 05/03/20262 hour bus ride for precious moments i love them so i think it was worth it 7140
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 02/03/2026when i was younger, 13-15, i used to think i had to be masculine to attract feminine girls and it made me have really bad gender dysphoria until i realized i can still be feminine and feminine girls would still like me. fem4fem 4eva 3160
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 17/02/2026when i went out in the sun today it felt nice and warm.. i can't wait for spring >< 3130
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 10/02/2026obligatory monthly statement that i like girls because guys just can't accept that i don't like them for some reason.. 2130
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 09/02/2026successfully caught up on all the work i missed after surgery, yay!!!! 3110
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 09/02/2026i'm going to try and finish all my homework tonight!!! and do some chores!!!! 2110
sardine @itocantsleep.bsky.social · 07/02/2026card i made for a friend because she hasn't been feeling well, i hope it helps even a little bit >< 4240
