trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025*any little thing goes wrong* me: i’m such a failure 000
Reposted by trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪sapphic 🖤 @sesbianlex404.bsky.social · 10/05/2025i feel like crap physically. ugh 011
Reposted by trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪YTJF. @thewayoftheid.bsky.social · 10/05/2025Yeeeeah time to explore the possibility of leaving this raggedy ass country 81285
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025venting helped, i feel a bit okay now…i just want my mom to be okay too 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025my mom has always been an avid reader and she loves tv shows and movies (because she likes to escape her reality) so i think i’ll get her a barnes & noble giftcard and her favorite ice cream when i go visit tomorrow 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025flowers are cheap, but she hates those because they always die. she used to love plants, but with her hip issues and other body aches, she can’t tend to them like she used to 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025she often stresses about money a lot too…so even if i did get her something, it wouldn’t really make her happy anyways 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025i wish she’d answer the phone. i left a voicemail…but the last thing she said was she’s not worth it…that she doesn’t deserve anything on mother’s day 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025while i try to be perfect to prevent extra stress on my mom’s shoulders…i also have to be perfect or else my dad will outwardly berate, insult, and ridicule me 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025alcoholism…multiple baby moms…lack of empathy…stubbornness that borders on insanity…being super judgmental towards me…etc. 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025my father has some good qualities about him, but the bad parts outweigh the good 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025how do you tell your daughter with a straight face that you hope she keeps her last name when she eventually marries…even though the qualities you’ve shown her throughout life aren’t much to be desired 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025now, she didn’t get down on one knee or get her own ring, but there was no romantic event with a proposal. she just casually brought it up since were living together and found out she was pregnant. and it just came across like if my mom didn’t mention marriage, my dad wouldn’t have “proposed” 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025because my parents got married after my mom found out she was pregnant with me. and what’s worse…she proposed… 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025sometimes i wonder, if i was never born, or if she never got pregnant at all, would she have had the strength to leave him…was it me that solidified their relationship, as toxic as it is? 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025my mom has told me multiple times how she doesn’t believe in divorce…but to me that sounds ludicrous given her situation 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025why would you choose to build a life with someone that hurts your feelings or argues with you all the time? 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025my mom shuts down when she gets sad/overwhelmed. and my dad is super subborn and doesn’t know how to empathize because he thinks he’s never wrong. 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025why marry someone who doesn’t engage in effective communication with you? 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025but the choices they made and continue to make still bother me deeply 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025i don’t blame my parents for their imperfections. they’re human. this is their first time on earth, just as it is mine. 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025i would never wish depression or anything negative on another person, which is why i try to make sure i’m never the cause of it, like how my parents are the cause of mine 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025and i only have it because i care about others more than myself 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025but this comes at a cost. because randomly i blow up, breaking down into major bouts of depression, where i run away and isolate myself, to avoid bothering others with my problems 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025as a result, i’m super hard on myself. i feel like i can never truly relax. and i’m a master at bottling up my own problems for the sake of others. 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025because if i caused any issues, it would just add to the stress and sadness my mom was already suffering from 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025growing up, i always felt like i had to be perfect. 110
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025today it’s because i feel like if i never existed, it could’ve possibly helped my mother be happier 000
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025there are many reasons why i sometimes wish i was never born 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025and while i know i can’t solve my parents’ issues…it still sucks when i’m essentially powerless to really do anything about it 110
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025this also isn’t surprising because they’ve had a rocky relationship all my life 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025she ended our phone call in tears because of an unknown issue she had with my father 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025this is nothing new. something i’ve had to deal with all my life. but it’s hard. 100
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025mother’s day is tomorrow but she’s depressed and idk what to do 110
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 10/05/2025backtracked to bluesky because i don’t want to support elon 000
Reposted by trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪Osiris Jones 🍉 @zmandretti.blacksky.app · 17/01/2025I wish I had a *** ****** on my ***** rn 011
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 17/01/2025i know which states i’ll never live in www.statista.com/statistics/1... 030
trina 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @immitrina.bsky.social · 11/01/2025i’ve decided i won’t eat out this year unless it’s a date 110
