iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Kamijo was amazing btw. He’s always amazing. 💜

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The moment i sat down in the car all my nerves just melted away Its good to be home where i can die in peace

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I need to cry i wanna be home so bad

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God I just wanna feel secure and calm for once

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This is so stupid but I’m on the train my dad took home from work and it always sends me into a spiral. I miss him so much.

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Train to my hometown is delayed while I’m having another anxiety attack. It’s been so bad. I wanna be home. I wanna feel safe.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Being unable to eat in Köln because the kidney stone is acting up and looking in the mirror and going hello skinny queen are two situations that can coexist. I’ll see a doctor when I’m back in Belgium

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Demanifesting demanifesting demanifesting demanifesting

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Doesn’t help that I don’t know if my second kidney stone is out or not. I don’t know if and when I can expect to be in a lot of pain.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I hope I can relax in Köln. 🫠

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I’ve definitely developed a new brand of anxiety. Being away from home on my own makes me feel like a neurotic prey animal now.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Me, apparently passing a kidney stone: idk I didn’t feel good yesterday. Was kinda desperate. My mom: you feel desperate real quick Me, apparently passing a KIDNEY STONE: yeah……

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

So update about my pain It was a kidney stone 🎉 I kinda felt like that’s what it could be? But I was very unsure.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Sorry for yesterday guys. Kinda reached my limit. Lets get up and see how my tummy is today. I quit the supplements because I wasn’t functioning kfkekdkd

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I promise I’m not normally this miserable I’m going through Things

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Fuck I might as well just use this godforsaken account as a space to vent. Website’s dead anyway. Nobody’s reading all this shit anymore. Whatever.

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Cried a little and the physical discomfort immediately lessened. I wouldn’t be surprised if part of this is induced by all the stress and anxiety I’ve been dealing with.

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I want a friend. I just want a friend. And for my whole tummy to settle. And help with the move. Please. I’m so sick and so stressed out.

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I feel QUEASY. My emetophobia is acting up. I’ve been massively anxious and dreading almost EVERYTHING about my future. I want it to END.

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I think I’ve isolated too hard because no one is fucking talking to me anymore no one’s reaching out I’ve been dropped by *someone* completely because I have boundaries I don’t exist anymore while I’m going through my second hardest time in the span of 5 years.

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I wish I could make myself throw up. I’m not even nauseous but I’m tired of the bloat and the reflux and the cramps. This nagging pain in my side is scaring me. I want to eat like a normal person. I’ve been counting calories too for a month now and I’m losing weight but I’m also so hungry non stop.

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I’m still stubbornly assuming it’s iron supplement side effects but I feel uncomfortable and in pain and unwell and I’m about to cry. If I didn’t have all these things coming up that I was looking forward to I wouldn’t mind all that much but this stomach bullshit has been going on for too long.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Cry for help cry for help cry for help cry for help

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God i missed having a friend who makes me feel appreciated and who doesn’t partake in one sided conversation bullshit If only we didn’t live far-ish apart

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

If I don’t shower tonight I’m setting myself up for an awful morning tomorrow which will affect the entire rest of the day GET UP BITCH GET UP

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Executive dysfunction absolutely shit today. This shit traps me in my own body. Let me DO STUFF? I wasted so much time just sitting around today. Fuck me.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

The one convo I have going isn’t draining and with a person who feels entitled to my time it’s sooo refreshing.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I installed the Her dating app and I’m shockingly more comfortable on there than I am on Boo and Bumble lol However the amount of cis het men on there once I got close to the border with France was alarming. Go away I am actively trying to avoid you!!!

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I’d picture my yumeship (FELIX x human) dancing like this all the fucking time. But her being human means FELIX just kinda throws her around, her feet off the floor and full trust in him (and definitely sick to her stomach). Euthanise me. Now.

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And don’t get me started about HARU leading the waltz in a different scenario. DON’T. Slams my head against the nearest surface.

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I need to draw HARU in that spin. Her dress looking like a blooming rose when she twirls. FELIX in just the most flamboyant frilly outfit guiding her. I need this scene OUT OF MY HEAD AND IN AN IMAGE.

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