iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Kamijo was amazing btw. He’s always amazing. 💜

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The moment i sat down in the car all my nerves just melted away Its good to be home where i can die in peace

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I need to cry i wanna be home so bad

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God I just wanna feel secure and calm for once

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This is so stupid but I’m on the train my dad took home from work and it always sends me into a spiral. I miss him so much.

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Train to my hometown is delayed while I’m having another anxiety attack. It’s been so bad. I wanna be home. I wanna feel safe.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Being unable to eat in Köln because the kidney stone is acting up and looking in the mirror and going hello skinny queen are two situations that can coexist. I’ll see a doctor when I’m back in Belgium

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Demanifesting demanifesting demanifesting demanifesting

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I’ve definitely developed a new brand of anxiety. Being away from home on my own makes me feel like a neurotic prey animal now.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Me, apparently passing a kidney stone: idk I didn’t feel good yesterday. Was kinda desperate. My mom: you feel desperate real quick Me, apparently passing a KIDNEY STONE: yeah……

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

So update about my pain It was a kidney stone 🎉 I kinda felt like that’s what it could be? But I was very unsure.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Sorry for yesterday guys. Kinda reached my limit. Lets get up and see how my tummy is today. I quit the supplements because I wasn’t functioning kfkekdkd

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I promise I’m not normally this miserable I’m going through Things

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Fuck I might as well just use this godforsaken account as a space to vent. Website’s dead anyway. Nobody’s reading all this shit anymore. Whatever.

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Cried a little and the physical discomfort immediately lessened. I wouldn’t be surprised if part of this is induced by all the stress and anxiety I’ve been dealing with.

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I want a friend. I just want a friend. And for my whole tummy to settle. And help with the move. Please. I’m so sick and so stressed out.

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I’m still stubbornly assuming it’s iron supplement side effects but I feel uncomfortable and in pain and unwell and I’m about to cry. If I didn’t have all these things coming up that I was looking forward to I wouldn’t mind all that much but this stomach bullshit has been going on for too long.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Cry for help cry for help cry for help cry for help

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God i missed having a friend who makes me feel appreciated and who doesn’t partake in one sided conversation bullshit If only we didn’t live far-ish apart

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

If I don’t shower tonight I’m setting myself up for an awful morning tomorrow which will affect the entire rest of the day GET UP BITCH GET UP

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Executive dysfunction absolutely shit today. This shit traps me in my own body. Let me DO STUFF? I wasted so much time just sitting around today. Fuck me.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

I installed the Her dating app and I’m shockingly more comfortable on there than I am on Boo and Bumble lol However the amount of cis het men on there once I got close to the border with France was alarming. Go away I am actively trying to avoid you!!!

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I wish I was on meds because I want my motivation and attention span back. I adore the concept of rich vampire royals waltzing inhumanly fast and I just imagined FELIHARU in a deadly whirlwindy dance again and I’m on fire.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

I’m standing in my emptier bedroom looking at all the memories of people who I was once important to. Memories of good days. I feel alone now. I survived the hardest time of my life in this house. Leaving it feels bad. It was a space where I could grieve safely and in peace.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Finally had a good night and no wanting to cry 🫠 Shit sucks! I’m okay during the day but when I get in bed I crash so hard.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I’m sick of these grief filled nights and this anxiety and being afraid for my future. I’m scared and I feel alone and vulnerable and uncertain. I’m excited to move into the new house but it’s fucking me over mentally so so bad.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Got really into path to nowhere and I am a Zoya fucker now don’t look at me

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Need to get shit off my chest but i dont know where

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

Sorry guys bsky is ventsky now. And book liveblogsky sure

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I feel like im going insane again

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

People on dating apps are too entitled. You’ve known me for all of a day. “That suddenly got quiet 😅” yeah because i’m juggling declining mental health, house move related paperwork complications (that almost cost us 38000 euros), MOVING, and weird health issues. Shut UP.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

🩸 Book who shall not be named 🩸 - a liveblogging? thread

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

See I can’t do dating apps because someone sent me a dm asking what my favorite music genre is. You know. A thing that I mentioned in my bio. If you don’t wanna read just move on

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

Woke up to 12 notifs and on the app it was just one. Wtf bsky

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My weird on off health issues are really fucking with my emetophobia. I feel off for the second time today and god, what I wouldn’t give for a hug and reassurance from someone who I trust right now. I’m tired of being alone and freaking out.

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It’s so nice to know I’m going to have a wholeass FRIEND to enjoy Kamijo in Cologne with. This is crazy. I really thought I was gonna be there on my lonesome. It’s great to belong to a community.

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New friend texted me all through her honeymoon about vkei and honmei and life stuff. I enjoy our yapping so much we do not shut up. I have literally no friends to talk about vkei with this is so refreshing.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

Hypmi drb blu ray is shoving my notp down my throat (good for the fans enjoy the food guys genuinely) but I do wish I could stop getting that ******** clip on my fyp

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Every group setting needs to have that one person that pisses me off to no end. I feel like what he just said to me was completely irredeemable lol

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

Good to know piercings are undesirable. May just get more.

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Sofi 🍓 @ichigosofi.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

I hope I’m not gonna be touched all over today because I don’t fucking feel like it.

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Can you tell i haven’t been in a great place mentally [gestures at all the whining]

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People who reply with “rip” or “oof” when you genuinely complain or vent about something peeve me out so bad. Like gee thanks you care so much you bring tears to my eyes

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Was taken to a festival we go to everyday year but today’s lineup is so fucking ass in my opinion and I’m bored as hellll Could’ve gone without me and saved money :/ Can’t wait for the night to be overrr

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