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Whole day with no bids 🥲 it's usually starting very quickly. So now I'm like what am I gonna do if there's no commissions qwq

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

I'm getting closer and closer to the idea of starting walking 10k a day.. I wanna lose more weight, but I don't wanna eat less. So the only thing I can do is to move more 😩 I watched someone doing 20k daily, that feels a bit extreme 😵‍💫 Idk, but it feels like something I need.

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Just remembered I have an anon acc and can draw stuff without a fear of being judged 🥴 heh 🌝

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

New passion unlocked: landscape design 🤪 We'll have a small garden and in no world I'm just having a lawn! I really hope the soil is somewhat acceptable over there and things will grow 😩

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Tfw "I'm almost done!" but then "oh I gotta draw alternate versions" 😩 I forgor and now I'm not even close 😔

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Dude idk what I was doing but it's 7pm already 😭 didn't even play or anything. Did the embroidery for a bit, but then...what... Q_Q

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Now I feel like I wanna throw up every time I hear my neighbors...👌I can't wait to move out. How fun it is to just sit here being nauseous for the whole weekend.

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Talked to girls for hours today 🙃 well I'm pleased to report I'm not really exhausted by it. I just felt like a mashed potato the whole day because I slept till 12:30pm x_x It was also nice because it wasn't in a group chat! Personal interactions are so much better, why are we stuck in group chats 😭

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Why don't they advertise cereal as an emergency snack? It's happened again, you've been laying in bed for hours, and now you can't fall asleep because you're hungry... Super-cereal is here for you! Just add some warm milk, ready in 1 minute in the microwave! And don't worry that you brushed your

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

The more I'm thinking about it the more angry I get, and I'm supposed to be sleeping now q_q And I do miss my parents, I haven't seen them since 2018, but things like this make me feel so grateful we live in different countries, what a blessing fr 🫠 I'm glad it's how it is

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Idk what others think of when drawing, I was drawing today while being very angry with my parents 🫠 They "don't believe in therapy" bruh, therapy is the only reason you still have a daughter! Fucking unreal. I'm glad I've found this anger, because what the actual fuck is that?

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I'm still upset my art didn't get picked for the artbook, I'm upset people won't see it, because it is absolutely one of my best works 🥲 And I don't think algo will show it to anyone. I don't know if I'll post it or try to reuse it for some other project in the future. It really was so heartbreaking

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I feel bad when I'm saying that I'm not happy with my work because I feel like my customers will be like "well I better not commission you then" 🤪 I wanna add something like "guys, I'm an artist, being unhappy is an essential part of it!" 🫠 It's what's making me moving forward and learning things 🥹

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I think I'm gonna make a free oc for everyone, I don't know how I'm gonna make money for living, but I'm getting less and less happy with what I'm doing right now, ychs and commishes qwq I don't really know where to take all this. So the idea is it's a succubus living in a pocket dimension.

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I've had 4 pole days in a row and it's crazy how body just gives up at some point 🫠 Going tomorrow again, and for 2 hours 😩 idk man, I'm so tired 🥹

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

It must be pms again, I can't fucking draw :c Still not done with the commission, and I'm just trying for 2 days now, squeezing out 1-2 hours of it and it's all just bleh 😩

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I literally cannot believe how slow it's going 🥹

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Ngl I hoped it'd be easier 🥲🥲🥲 30% sewing 70% trying to untie fucking knots on the thread!😩

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Starting with these two qwq I have planned 4 of them, I hope I can do it 🫠 Just gonna sit a bit here cus my back is fucking deadge from all this prep work 😩

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I want a few aeroponic towers. I'll have space for 1 probably... It's not really worth it tho, is it? Slowly accepting the idea that I won't have any food growing in my garden 🫠

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Uhhhhh can't wait to finish this commission cus I wanna do some embroidery again :c

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I hate my neighbors 😔 trying to be horny here and all I hear is KAHAKKJDJDNBSHSGSHKHEKHEHHKGGHOO behind the wall 😩 fuck off already omg!

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Telling my grandma we're getting a mortgage for the house. - Yes, you need your own house and a daughter ...🥹 I don't even have time to play games anymore bruh whattt 😩 Imagine also not having time to draw and go to pole 😩😩😩 and these are necessities, not even hobbies really!

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Can you imagine getting up at 7:30am and starting working right away? That's me today 🥰 So much easier to do when there's somebody else in voice chat 🥲 but now I'm alone again qwq

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Ye I'm not going vegetarian because I made such a nice pork roast 🫠

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

That house was ok, probably worth its price, but the garden was expectations/reality 🤪 I thought it'd be 2-3 times bigger from the pictures! These agents not only wasting their time by making it look way better than it is, but they're wasting my time by luring me to come and see it with these pics!

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

So we looked into the area around the house we're buying, people complaining there's water cuts, power cuts, internet cuts as well... It's quite upsetting ngl. Still I like this house more than any other q_q We're gonna see another house today, it's the very first one I wanted to see, but they

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I forgot how food with no meat is just so light 🥹 I don't think imma go vegetarian again, don't wanna set any limits for myself. But I'm kinda excited to have no meat in majority of my meals xD I guess I ate too much tuna and chicken to a point of almost hating it 🥹 Happened literally overnight x_x

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Well tomorrow I'm getting out of bed for sure 🫠 it's been 5 days

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

5th day in bed because people can't learn to not go to work when they're sick so they won't make their clients or coworkers sick as well. Videocalls are a thing now! Why do we need to sit in front of each other to talk 😵‍💫

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I feel like I don't wanna eat meat anymore ._. I still have a lot of chicken left, the smell is just.. so yucky 😵‍💫 I mean it's a normal chicken smell, but I can't stand it now 🫠 This might be also a part of healing lol, because I used to be a vegetarian/vegan for like 5 years, but then

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I just... CALLED to the dentist to move the appointment... And it didn't shake me to the core 😭 And I didn't fall apart and didn't stutter or anything! Wow I never thought it would be possible 🥹

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

Oh wait.... So I can make an undead in wowf and have that face straps mask and it will look good again?🥺

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Been watching some animation tutorials 🥲 some 9y old YouTube video, damn we LOST that Internet 😭 no bullshit, no integrated ads, no clickbaits, no shit, just pure information that's not watered down and not cut and not spreaded into 10 videos. Pure goodness q_q 💔 What we have now is fucking sad

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

There's a new neighbor that moved in downstairs. He's also... COUGHING 🤪 Feeling bad for the next tenant in this apartment. You only have 2 neighbors here, and now they're both disgusting 🫠 I've been blowing my nose whole day today, feeling like I'm having my sweet revenge 😌

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

"The distance you're making between you and other people wasn't caused by good life experiences" 🥲

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Ok I feel a bit better now 🥹

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Really greatful to this sickness for making me so weak I actually had to notice that I'm being taken care of and supported 🫠 And to my therapist that unexpectedly cried last session because she can't hug and support me as we're in different countries. And to my trainer that remembered I wanted

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I guess you can be kind but also not deeply caring at the same time 😔 Just can't believe this is what I've been doing for so long

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Having a mental breakdown cus I realized I've been such an asshole to everyone around me 😭😭😭 Omg I treat people as functions and don't even look deeper, and at the same time I demand they notice me and understand me. And when they notice me I just dismiss it as something of no value 😭😭😭💔

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I really hope I feel better tomorrow 😔

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Been scrolling Instagram for 2 days pretty much. Why is all of it "proving strangers in the comments wrong"?🫠 I mean I get it that's how you get engagement, still kinda stupid af when every video you make has this one scenario. I got bored in 2 days, idk how people consume it all the time

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Y'all lucky I'm not an animator, cus what I have would be too powerful. Once again I'm considering doing it 🤪

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Tfw you finally have a phone with a big storage, but now you can't be bothered to sort 3000 pictures you took 😩

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Being sick sucks! Everything hurts, I'm freezing, then I'm hot, constantly hungry because I can't eat like I usually do 😩 Fucking...

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Operating the whole day on 1 banana and 1 slice of bread with chocolate spread 😩 and a little sweetie with tea. I need to make chicken soup but I'm so weak 😔 Ughhh honestly... I gotta make sure to vaccinate in time for the flu this year.

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hydra.irl @hydra-irl.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Made my therapist cry today 🥲 Still in a surviving mode apparently, no place for feelings, just for tears. Feels extra hard having a session when you're sick q_q With all that was and all I have, and what's left of me, I think I'm thriving actually 🥹

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