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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- “Embry…” Saying his name a plea for forgiveness laced within. could I say it aloud? I had to, there was no other way. He deserved this, he deserved so much more. “I’m so tired…” The sound of my tormented voice cracking on the last word.

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- When his glance lifted to find me stood before him, I took in a sharp breath clasping the bundle in my hands so close to my chest I could feel it digging into my skin through my wet shirt. Because it was like the final missing piece of me had returned. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- The spirits knew where I could find Embry and here, I stood watching him sitting on the porch with is head held in his hands. The pain digging into my chest radiating from him. “Embry...” Finally, I came to a stop waiting for him to look up as I drowned in the rain washing my soul. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- one in which two people I cared for resided within. I paused across the road. Before I could change my mind, slowly my feet moved up the pathway towards him, the hole in my chest which had been open for months now healing with each footstep I took. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- I ran as though there was a world lost to me, that I needed to find, as though there was a soul calling me to join it, that significant part of me which had been lost… “Is now found...” The last three words came out of my lips as I came to a stop. I’d arrived at a home I knew so well,-

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- the hole in my chest burnt deeply with another gust of pain and this time it wasn’t coming from behind me, I faced the direction in which it was calling from. “Embry…” As his name left my lips, I found my footing to stand again and I ran. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- 𝘛𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘣𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘶𝘯𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘥. 𝘞𝘦'𝘳𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘏𝘦𝘳𝘦” Then on a loop she repeated, “𝘞𝘦'𝘳𝘦 𝘚𝘵𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘏𝘦𝘳𝘦” Embry was still there; he was still waiting for me to find my way back to him. I fell to my knees as the spirits cried. They were in turmoil once again, -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- So… I ask you again… Why are you allowing this love you feel for this boy to die?’ “I’m too late… He…” This time she was the one to answer. Not with her own words. She used his…. “𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘯 𝘶𝘴, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥. 𝘋𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘥 𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴.

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- ‘If something is going to die, it’s going to die no matter what you do to save it. But…. If you are killing that something, just because someday it may die…. You’re the killer now with the blood on your hands, the pain on your doorstep, and you are the reason for all those broken hearts. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- What are you waiting for?’ I could feel him circling me as I stood here. ‘Your twin soul is waiting for his missing half. He is waiting for the Love he deserves.’ Love! That word had been something I ran from, because anyone I loved… dyed… “It’s too late.” Whispering my fear into the dark night.

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- This small box felt as though it could become my salvation. I couldn’t let the elements of this night destroy it. Holding it to my chest, as I heaved in lungs full of air. I closed my eyes lifting my face letting the rain wash away the tears I could feel making themselves known. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- Granddaughter of Peter Clearwater, child of my blood… What more do you need to see?’ Lightening cracked above me, the sky parted as sheets of rain came crashing down. I stopped to shrug off my jacket to safely wrap the box to protect it. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- mother, is proof of it. The fact that the boy left it with your father, is proof. The fact that you were with your father... is proof. The fact that you heard your Ma and brother lift the mask you are wearing is proof too. So, I ask you Leah Angeni Clearwater, daughter of Harry Clearwater, -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- ‘It’s not too late.’ He was running beside me, when I thought I was all alone. ‘He’s never let you go, just as in your heart and soul you haven’t let him go.’ The Great Wolf shifted the wind, making my feet move in a different direction. ‘The wooden box in your hand which belongs to his -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- And that everything I’d been fighting to keep hidden hadn’t been just a dream. It was true. Embry had been a lifeline for me, and to some extent I’d been one for him too? And I’d walked away from it… From Him… “What Have I done?” dropping my head back, I screamed up into the sky. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- The way her heart was breaking too. My legs were trying to give out from beneath me as the realisation hit me of how my mother had been seeing me for the last year without me knowing. That the Kid and she had spoken of the changes they witnessed not just in me, but in Embry too. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- to my kid’s heartbreaking. I’d been moments away from rushing into the house, to beg for his forgiveness, to tell him that I would do better, hide better, to… to… to… To stop my life from impacting his. That was until I heard my Ma’s voice. Hearing what she’d seen, what she was thinking. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- 𝙈𝙮 𝙗𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙞𝙨 𝙝𝙪𝙧𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜! Little did I know that nothing happened without the hand of the spirits guiding. I had to arrive unseen, without sound, even the air changed the direction it blew as Ma’s house had come into site. All so that I could stand in the darkness before my childhood home to listen -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

-from beside my Da on two feet carrying the box in my hands. I couldn’t leave it there with the sky threatening to unleash down upon the earth. Which meant I couldn’t shift onto four legs, I should have climbed onto the back of my baby, but I only had one thought ringing in my head. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

- way that I’d only felt once before. The day we had lost our matriarch; the fear and emotions of my family and the world of the spirits had paralysed me in such a way that I couldn’t help those I cared for. That day had been the deepest sin I carried, so when I felt that pain tonight, I ran -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

I ran like the wind was carrying me away from the pain, just as fast as it had brought me to my Ma’s home. At the time I’d felt my heart breaking like a mirror into a million shards, and each of those pieces were digging deep into my soul. It came out of nowhere, intense, and all-consuming in a -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

Faith isn’t easy for some, but with you Dimples.. I know. music.youtube.com/watch?v=Uxuy...

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In My Arms

YouTube video by Billy Raffoul - Topic

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

Haven’t had the time to stop or to look back… it’s been a ride that’s for sure… a ride either of us even wanted to jump on… youtube.com/watch?v=v4iV...

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Kiss Me

YouTube video by STELLA LEFTY - Topic

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Embry Call @badboyembrycall.bsky.social · 29/04/2026

This day six years ago, on the platform that shall not be named, two characters that were determined to remain untethered and unclaimed allowed themselves freedom to break away from their self-enforced solitude and follow the bond and chemistry that was intense, fiery… sarcastic, sweet, >

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- ‘That Leah shows people she loves them… she doesn’t tell them… Spirits Ma… I messed up…. I really messed up, didn’t I? I ruined my sister’s happiness.’ He sobbed letting it all out. “Baby…” I was not going to excuse his actions, because the truth was… he had.

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- ‘Love?’ He asked softly. ‘Do you think they love one another? But Leah doesn’t like that word.’ “Hmm… But what do her actions tell you baby? She may not tell you or use those words… but her actions….” ‘Embry said that…’ he said after a while. “What did he say?” I asked -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- We love you and your sister, however even you could not step into the space we had for each other. It doesn’t lessen our love for you... it’s just a different kind of love.” Seth cried into my shoulder, bending down in a way that couldn’t be comfortable for him. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- mean she does not love you. It is how things are.” Bringing his forehead down so I could kiss it. “I love your father so much, and he loves me too. There was a part of us that no one else got to witness, it was a part of us that only belonged to the other. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- sister. That can feel invasive, even if he cannot articulate it. It disrupts his sense of order. My mind had not found a real reason to my son’s actions yet. Until now… “Oh baby…” Pulling him close I hugged him the best I could. “Just because she showed Embry this side of her does not -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- two clean boxes: As a brother his role means protector, someone who is an insider, while Friend would equal, peer… But Embry is more than that. If Leah dated his friend, those boxes collapse. Suddenly his friend becomes… something else. His friend has emotional and physical access to his -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- I love Embry… I do… But it hurts, Ma… It hurts to know that there is this part of sis that she chose not to give me… this part of her she did not trust to show me… this part of her… that he got so easily.’ So… it was loss of control and role confusion. Seth’s mind was thinking he exists in -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- I did not want to hurt him; however, I needed to know what he had been thinking for all this time. He began again, ‘Why is he allowed to have a part of her that she has not given me? I am her brother… her baby… her Kid… But why hasn’t she shown me the side of her that he has gotten to see? -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- not reacting… Ironically this was something his sister had taught him over the years. ‘Why?’ he stopped to search for words, his eyes sparkling with tears threatening to fall again after he had wiped them away. Taking a slow deep breath as my hand rubbed the back of his arm. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- behave when women are not around. So, in his mind, he is not rejecting the idea of Leah dating… he is rejecting those specific men. But hadn’t I brought my son up better than that? Our chests moved heavily as silence took hold once again. He was thinking… -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- layer of protectiveness… At its core, a lot of brothers carry this quiet responsibility. “I know how men think, so I don’t trust them with you.” It’s not always fair, and it can be wildly hypocritical, but it comes from exposure. He has seen his friends at their worst, how they talk, how they-

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- step up when their children fall off the right track. “I’m not trying to make this difficult… I just want to understand… Why…” A brother refusing to let his sister date his friends is not about one clean reason, it is usually a mix of instincts, beliefs, and sometimes… ego. There is a -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- to be your brother in arms… but not to love Leah?” Shaking my head “Or… My heart breaks to ask… but baby… Is it your ego? Do you feel less than adequate if she is happy?” No mother would want to ask these questions, but every mother should have the willpower to -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- “Why did you do this Seth? What have you achieved by blowing up the little happiness Embry and Leah found for themselves? Are there your Insecurities, or are you afraid? If so, what of? Is it that you think Embry isn’t good enough? In which case I’d ask why? Because he is good enough -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- So… Seth… I ask you… While you are going to your pack brothers to feel their love… Why did you take the one man who my daughter allowed in to love her? Why is it that everyone in this tribe has the right to happiness, but my Usdi does not?” Tears flowed down both our cheeks now. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- This time my voice cracked a little with the emotions I’ve been holding back for so long. “And don’t make me point out how this village has been gossiping about her again. How Rachel has been treating my daughter… How Jake has given her space so that she felt lost and alone once again… -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- her trust in her home… her sanctuary. She has been relegated and pushed out of her own pack once again… and again it’s due to the actions of a man… even if he is her brother… She is working shifts all hours of the day and night to make it up to you… She… Is… making… it … up... to… you!” -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- her baby brother blew her private world up for all to see.” My voice did not go up, there was no anger here. Only facts. “Shall I point out to you how my daughter’s life has changed?” Again, I did not wait for a reply. “She sleeps on the ground in her living room because her brother broke -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- occurred in the time that those two were together, trying to make something good for themselves. Never in all her life has my daughter been selfish, when we know she deserves it. She deserves to think about herself first… But the one time she dared to do so… -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- Didn’t you point out to me how Embry had become calmer in the best way, the way he was wanting more from life, how he was not seeing himself as an outsider in his own world and village? Since this all blew up, have you taken a moment to consider those things all -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- the impact your actions have on him at all? How about on your sister?” His eyes did not come to meet mine. “Hadn’t you been the one who told me how open Leah has become? How happier she was, she was joining in more, not staying on the outskirts of life. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- “Nothing. You are still living as you were. You have no changes in your pack, you are working the way you were before, you even showed up to Embry’s home tonight of all nights with no considerations on how he may need his friends, home and support tonight too. But have you thought about -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- correctly you haven’t given it to him…” ‘I did, Ma… It’s bee__ ’ Holding my finger up, placing them on my lips. “I listened to you. It’s now time you listen.” He sat back dropping his head again. “What has changed for you since you did all this?” I asked, not expecting an answer. -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- because of Tiffany; we both thought the three of you would work this out. That you would see the truth, and they would step up… But here we are.” Sitting up I reached out, setting my cup down. “Embry asked you for space, he told you what he needed, and yet if I hear it -

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ᒪEᗩᕼ ᑕᒪEᗩᖇᗯᗩTEᖇ @hotheadshewolf.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

- holding the cup. I took in another deep slowing breath before speaking. “He is right…” Are the first words that came out in a faint voice. Seth’s head shot up as though I had slapped him. ‘Ma? No!’ He looked heartbroken. “I am not going to lie to you, my son. I have kept quiet all this time -

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