fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 26/07/2026probably not at all but its eating me up brother even though its so silly in the grand scheme but ive just been taking so much psychic damage my last straw was a thin one 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 26/07/2026how can i vocalize my upset about this situation without feeling entitled: 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 22/03/2026you would never catch me admitting this on main but im currently craving a man to worship me like a pregnant lady is craving nutella pickles. i might be ovulating 030
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 22/03/2026stop i legit clicked on it bc i was like who tf is planetm3rcury. my bad 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 13/03/2026[][][] HURRYYYYY OMFG PLEASE HURRY I NEED [][][] TO [] RN 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 10/03/2026im not ehen gonna lie depression is beating my ass 020
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 01/03/2026i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder: 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/02/2026PLS ERASE AUGUST 2023-DECEMBER 2024 FROM MY MINDDDDD 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 23/02/2026im in a period where i dont wake up to a message from my artists every day and i feel so empty without updates. SHOW ME HER 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/01/2026and i still have to pay for him oh lord it never stops it never fucking stops 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/01/2026lethal dose locked and loaded bro. but no. bobbert just got here. i cant leave him alone. well my mama would probably care for him but like hes still so scared of everything and im his safe space i dont want to stress him out after he just accepted that he cane home 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/01/2026if it wasnt for this cat id have killed myself today 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/01/2026i wish there was a button thats like "you die but everyine in your life that you cherish will prosper" i would press that so fast 020
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/01/2026im in such a bad mood and im so sad all the time and i hate my life so fucking much and nothing is fun anymore and i just want to fucking die man 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025when i remember that i wont turn 27media.tenor.coma close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed .ALT: a close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed . 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025whatever i hope i never wake up again merry christmas or whatever 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025i should genuinel kill myself i ruin everything i touch i should never get anything that makes me happy becasze i will break it 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 23/12/2025hugging u. but also if you hide yourself youre doing yourself a disservice. even if your actions affect your friends lives you shouldnt have to pretend. real friends stick around. even if its negative its a an honor to be influenced by someone you care about . we thug it out together 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 15/12/2025genuinely tweaking out over my pedicurist getting me a christmas present like genuinely im so moved that someone random likes me enough to do that. i always feel like i can never open up to strangers because of my insane walls so for someone to like me regardless :(( enough to do this. im emo 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/12/2025the amt of shit ppl assume abt what i think is lowkey insane why are you writing fanfic rn where are you 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/12/2025people gotta stop headcanoning shit onto me LMAO it gets to a point. i cannot be experiencing the mischaracterization of fandom as a real person (this isnt abt my vt*ber persona this is about me like me the person me the oomf you all know) 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/12/2025its not even poor impulse control like im actively choosing to go balls to wall so i can go out with a bang. when i make it on the news at least my model will look cute. ppl will watch my vods like wow nice design 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/12/2025every time i start to feel bad that im spendinh so much money on vtubing life throws an insane curveball on me and makes me want to kill myswlf so hard that im like i might aswell blow all my money on this cos ill be gone by the time the consequences catch up to me 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 27/11/2025pls dont say damn if i have a burnout meltdown soon ok 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 25/11/2025yeah brother unless my preexisting friends wanna pick up streaming im keeping this shit a solo gig only. i wont be opposed to friendships but its transactional first and foremost. if we break out of that then chill but omfg 020
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 09/11/2025i have to talk to my therapist that happiness=death so for the past year i havent even uttered that word until today and see where that landed me 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 08/11/2025instead of kms in december i will reward myself by adding an arm toggle to my model auftrag 110
