fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 26/07/2026how can i vocalize my upset about this situation without feeling entitled: 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 22/03/2026you would never catch me admitting this on main but im currently craving a man to worship me like a pregnant lady is craving nutella pickles. i might be ovulating 030
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 10/03/2026im not ehen gonna lie depression is beating my ass 020
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 01/03/2026i havent had my period since i stopped taking the pill like at the beginning of january so. while im like yay yippe no bleeding im also a little bit put off bc thats exactly how my health problems with my adrenal gland started last time :ponder: 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 23/02/2026im in a period where i dont wake up to a message from my artists every day and i feel so empty without updates. SHOW ME HER 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/01/2026if it wasnt for this cat id have killed myself today 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/01/2026im in such a bad mood and im so sad all the time and i hate my life so fucking much and nothing is fun anymore and i just want to fucking die man 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025when i remember that i wont turn 27media.tenor.coma close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed .ALT: a close up of a brown dog 's face with its eyes closed . 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025whatever i hope i never wake up again merry christmas or whatever 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 24/12/2025i should genuinel kill myself i ruin everything i touch i should never get anything that makes me happy becasze i will break it 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 15/12/2025genuinely tweaking out over my pedicurist getting me a christmas present like genuinely im so moved that someone random likes me enough to do that. i always feel like i can never open up to strangers because of my insane walls so for someone to like me regardless :(( enough to do this. im emo 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/12/2025people gotta stop headcanoning shit onto me LMAO it gets to a point. i cannot be experiencing the mischaracterization of fandom as a real person (this isnt abt my vt*ber persona this is about me like me the person me the oomf you all know) 100
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 04/12/2025every time i start to feel bad that im spendinh so much money on vtubing life throws an insane curveball on me and makes me want to kill myswlf so hard that im like i might aswell blow all my money on this cos ill be gone by the time the consequences catch up to me 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 27/11/2025pls dont say damn if i have a burnout meltdown soon ok 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 25/11/2025yeah brother unless my preexisting friends wanna pick up streaming im keeping this shit a solo gig only. i wont be opposed to friendships but its transactional first and foremost. if we break out of that then chill but omfg 020
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 09/11/2025i have to talk to my therapist that happiness=death so for the past year i havent even uttered that word until today and see where that landed me 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 08/11/2025instead of kms in december i will reward myself by adding an arm toggle to my model auftrag 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 02/11/2025i think i let my depression fuck up this apartment and now i dont know where to start cleaning. or how. man im overwhelmed 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 02/11/2025no way its pms time again i just got done with the last one not too long ago 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 29/10/2025how do i scream from the rooftops that im doing bad without being an attention seeker. like as a psa. fyi. caution sign. slippery floor 110
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 29/10/2025depression stunlocking me from doing anything that i want to do but on the bright side my therapist said i could get disability points 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 27/10/2025the people you guys make famous on the internet is concerning 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 23/10/2025whats it called when you dissociate on purpose and not like spacing out but like "i know im going to go through something horrifically uncomfortable soon but its ok bc i can just dissociate my way through it" like that 000
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 18/10/2025i like to be alone because i literally dont know how to act normal around people 90% of the time i get super anxious and feel left out quickly and become increasingly desperate and the only cure i found so far is to just keep to myself 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 16/10/2025this closecto developing an ed its crowning. sigh 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 14/10/2025no nuance november in october lest i get publicly stoned but seeing some streamers makes me realize it rlly is 99% luck 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 13/10/2025permamuting oomf lmk when they break up with their bf so i can unmute 220
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 12/10/2025crying over feeling lonely and left out again yep its time for my period i think 120
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 08/10/2025dont listen to me lm hokng insane from my perios but i miss being skinny.. 010
fan with envy @hildapedia.bsky.social · 03/10/2025i think... im doing well with this whole streaming thing 110
