iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

not being able to describe your issue without paragraphs is the worst feeling god fuckkk

athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

but all of the content has to be made by me and thats. so so much effort and im just not built for that and i dont feel like im built for anything atp

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

-for people to care, which takes so much effort i end up giving up and its just worthless. if any game existed where it was easy enough to make pokemon ocs or other ocs ir whatever and just. Use Them it would be so so much easier

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

its so frustrating i just cant do anything alone, im just incapable of and i dont particularly know people with the same hyper specific passions for very certain things because they are hyper specific so the only way i can feel like i can make it work is by making a scenario that makes it easy-

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

i get in this mood to where i want to be creative and do something but i never know how exactly to go about it. i want someone to tell me, i want someone to care about the same thing or someone to just help

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 05/07/2026

whenever i try drawing it reminds me of every flaw i have for some reason and its fucking Painful; i think of everything im bad at as soon as something goes remotely wrong

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

a primary care doctor would fix me 💭

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

in unrelated news ive become determined to learn the sweet little bumble bee dance to improve my mental health

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

getting to a point to where your actions annoy me is truly a wondrous feat, but it is very plainly achievable.

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 28/02/2026

its like fake fomo, all im missing out on is friend time

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 28/02/2026

i do not like the feeling of being left out left out, like when it is specifically a group activity i rlly just Cannot join but all my friends are yknow? like the worst part about it is when it gets to that its litwerally no ones fault. i cant help im not interested and they cant help they are

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 25/02/2026

everything testing my patience

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 28/01/2026

i need to get medicated so bad

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 28/01/2026

i genuinely hate like feeling such a useless and pathetic human being

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

wanting private accounts is a weak mindset just be evil publically

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

i anger myself at my lack of commitment to finishing what i start

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

the goals were doable i just literally suck as at living for myself and then i get sad when im not where i want to be in my life

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

really really frustrating. i feel like being in school locks me into being mediocre at everything i do, but sometimes i blame myself for that

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 20/01/2026

i did the classic ‘give up on your resolutions less than 20 days in’ because i lack motivation ofr self improvement

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 16/01/2026

odd feelings about having hooves. so odd.

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 15/01/2026

videos of people wearing hoof shoes fucks with the perception i have of my own gender hut im in uni so i dont got time for dat rn

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𖦹˚₊‧WHIMSY‧₊˚𖦹 @loveslegacy.etheirys.social · 05/01/2026

do u guys Also watch thomas the tank engine with ur voice chats

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 30/12/2025

i think this is up there for the most traction art of mine has ever gotten which is insane

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 30/12/2025

i hate to be a numbers girl but it id insane thst i KNOW the halmy art i posted last night wouldve gotten max 20 likes on twitter BUT ON BLUESKY??

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 24/12/2025

i just genuinely know i am a presence that isnt cared for here

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 24/12/2025

my family would personally be better off if i wasnt here and im fully aware of that. then instead of ignoring a cousin they think is gay they can hate gay people with no repercussions. i cherish my friends and i am not suicidal in the slightest,

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

id be dissapointed in myself if i could bring myself to care about myself at all. i genuinely dont know whats wrong either me or why im like this

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

i just genuinely dont know how im alive. im 22 years old and feel like ive got nothing ahead of me. all the years other people spend parcticing things when theyre young i spent doing absolutely nothing. i have Nothing to show for 22 years on thisplanet

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

ill probably just stop in a week. honestly apart of the reason i say i just dont play games is because havingto learn any new game makes me so upset because i cant handle failure. i stopped indulging in a hobby just because i couldnt even do that correctly

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 15/12/2025

as much as i smile and fumble through life i just. do nothing for myself. if anything i make everything worse for myself. and i genuinely never see myself getting the drive to change anything for myself anymore. im too fucking lazy and need 1 million pushes and different incentives and even then

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

i want to create so bad i just cant. im unable

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

i wish i was just able to offer something meaningful

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 18/09/2025

ive come to accept that my current space and how i go about my own emotions is not the best, but i also accept that it never will be. I am doing my best to be my best self, and my best self will always simply be ‘better than how i was’; constant improvement and acknowledgment your faults is the way

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 03/09/2025

its frustrating being so average or below at everything i do

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 29/08/2025

they dont know how to talk to me, they dont know how to talk ABOUT me, they genuinely understand nothing about me and i dont think any of them really respect me aside from maybe my sister

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 29/08/2025

kinda just accepted i’ll never have a close relationship with my family despite them wanting that. i try, i really do, but j dont see a future where they are in my life and impacting my emotional state positively

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athena’s alt @halmablunt.bsky.social · 10/08/2025

i cant sleep when i need to and i sleep when i dont want to

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