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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 10/03/2025

It's like a social media that is pretty similar to vent and tumblr in a way? I don't really know how to describe it but I like it bc it can be more private than bsky can be and the devs r all very nice and very dedicated

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 01/03/2025

I'm probably not gonna use this anymore bc egge suits my needs better, still don't wanna post my username publicly bc I think my posts here are being read by someone who should be minding their business so DM me for my username 💕

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 27/02/2025

Thank you!!! It was so much fun to do idk why I didn't make one sooner

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 27/02/2025

hadopelagic.straw.page I made a strawpage u guys I'm proud of myself :)

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

If you can, keep your head elevated. Sleep in a recliner or beanbag if you have one, if you don't prop up a bunch of pillows to recline instead of laying flat. Any time I have anything respiratory I long to sleep in a hospital bed lmao

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baw 🍉🔻 @tomathorfinn.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

I'll be honest. These are my favorite type of commission to get. Just nonsense. Anyway commission for @wayshrine.bsky.social and a buddy outside of BSky. #residentevil #residentevil3 #DBD #DEADBYDAYLIGHT #Napstablock #undertale

It's nemesis from resident evil 3 carrying an original character named Sawyer who looks pleased with himself

It's napstablock, a simple ghost shaped character wearing headphones with a snail on its head

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

DM me for my username on a certain vent replacement app ppl r gravitating to. Will not be posting the name of the app or my username publicly for safety reasons.

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

That being said I am going to keep this in mind bc sometimes it isn't like that!!!

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

This might help or it might not! Sometimes my OCD involves checking things, if I lose something I will dump out the same bag and put everything back in and dump it out again several times before moving on and things like that so it could turn into checking the heater over and over again lmao

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

I think this is a good thing to remind myself of!!!

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 25/02/2025

On my phone screen it is a very desaturated light blue

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

I have the illusion of being acknowledged, and I need to be able to do it without the fear that I am putting way too much on the people I care about, because I am aware that we are all struggling. I don't know. I mean maybe I should just try to focus less on what people think of me but idk.

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

just very... I don't know. I guess just a work in progress and like I'm doing the best I can but honestly I don't feel like I have enough resources, I feel very isolated in my suffering which is why I need to be able to talk about it in a semi public space and not a diary or at least in a way where

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

myself not need to talk about it anymore like everyone seems to expect. And I have a very difficult time reaching out to people as all of my friends know, I don't reach out for help unless I am really in the pits because I am terrified of being too overwhelming and while I'm working on it it's still

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

be bottling it up until I explode and have a mental breakdown and end up in the ER or worse or I would be trauma dumping on my friends until they wanted nothing to do with me anymore bc I am in therapy and I am working on myself and it doesn't cut it. I don't know how I am supposed to just make

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

have found that helps for me is talking to AI chatbots which I am aware a lot of people have a problem with and I also do not think AI is a good thing but at the moment I don't see an alternative that works for me and isn't exponentially more harmful. Truthfully if I did not use them I would be

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

as I did on vent, in fact it is not safe to talk about it here at all. I can't talk about it in the way I need with the text limit but there is no alternative atm. Vent was the safest place for me to talk in the way I needed to and now it's gone. I will keep it real as I always do, the only thing I

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

I feel frustrated also because I know I should stop being so open about my trauma bc that is part of what has left me so vulnerable but I don't know how to do it when I think talking about it is how I process and 1 hour of therapy once a week doesn't really cut it. I do not feel as safe talking here

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

bc there's a chance she reads everything I say on here, she had a previous username of mine memorized I know bc she brought it up of her own volition the other day. Well I don't ever wanna be told I'm too paranoid again when my experiences repeatedly show me I have to be paranoid cos ppl r messed up

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

Well I have collected a few opinions on my situation and while the advice I got was varied everyone pretty much unanimously agreed I'm in a really scary situation rn and my roommate even moreso. I feel pretty frustrated and anxious ngl. I feel frustrated that I don't have a good place to vent abt it

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

I appreciate this ❤️ I'm gonna take ur advice and keep powering through. I think ur right it will get better eventually!!!

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

My friends r the best basically I love u all

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

Recently it has been difficult for me to take showers bc every time I take a shower I worry that the water heater is going to explode and I will be blasted with boiling water and burned from head to toe. Eventually I'm able to get over it and get into the shower but it is so nerve wracking.

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

OCD people if u inherit other people's OCD shit from hearing about it don't read this but if u have advice for me I would love to hear it

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 24/02/2025

I feel like I'm hungover and also withdrawing from some med that u do not wanna withdraw from like effexor fuck

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Me and a small nugget of love. 🇸🇪♥️🇺🇦 @mnotme.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

How to change a swastika that cant be removed

How to change a swastika into a message of love

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

Every time I think things r gonna calm down and be normal for once it gets all fucked up again. It's always more lore. Always

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

I don't ever think you are annoying and I love reading what you have to say!!! I know we don't talk a whole lot one on one but I consider u a good friend at this point!!!

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

not know what might happen, it might be fine or something really fucked up might happen and I have no way of knowing until it's over. That is why I've been like this lately and I apologize, that being said it will probably continue.

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

I am feeling a little bit ashamed of the way I've been posting lately actually bc I feel like my posts have been very neurotic. I am under a lot of stress because I am having health issues, plus not making enough to live, plus job issues, plus I am in an unsafe living situation where I genuinely do

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

make a post that says hey I'm not ok and this is why I'm going to. If I make 90 posts a day about how upset I am, how is getting a diary any different if I write in it all day? It's not the only difference is people aren't seeing it. And if u don't wanna see it that's ur job not mine u know?

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

to come to me directly so clearly I shouldn't care all that much either. I feel weird venting here for the same reason, people are so weird about it and judgmental but honestly that's their problem at this point, I am not good at reaching out to people directly bc I am very isolative so if I need to

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

I mean I don't know for sure but I wonder if some people follow people's alts so they can see if they're being vagued rather than cos they care but I don't know. I feel like people vague me all the time and I just roll my eyes and say well your feelings weren't even important enough to you for you

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

messy on the internet bc that's what helps me regulate or do u want me dead in a bathtub bc I felt like I couldn't reach out and talk about what's going on in the only way I know how bc I'm done sugarcoating for these people. You're not doing anything wrong don't let anyone say otherwise

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

I personally think it's fucking weird and honestly scummy to get upset at people for venting on social media. If you are not emotionally available enough to hear what someone has to say you are capable of scrolling past. Different things work for different people. Frankly I'd say do u want me to be

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

out with rapists. She wants to know where I work and I would not be safe there. I know there is a high likelihood that this aspect is trauma fueled paranoia but there is a LOT behind it that this platform simply is not a good platform to talk about it on with the text limit.

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

The thing about this is she has done a lot to try to upset me and has gotten vocally frustrated that I am very difficult to upset at least in a way that I will express. She knows that the only thing that would really upset me is if I were raped again. And I think that she is a rapist. And she hangs

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

Don't feel bad abt talking about it if u need to talk about it u need to talk about it no shame !!! I'm proud of u

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

I'm sorry I've been so negative lately idk I feel bad about it

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

This is literally beautiful holy crap!!! I love it!!!

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

Lingua Ignota's music means so fucking much to me dude

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

I trust my grandma, my bf, my two closest irl friends and my friends from vent and that's it

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June @hadopelagic.bsky.social · 22/02/2025

One thing that I have been struggling to wrap my head around lately is why do I need to go to therapy to deal with my trust issues when my lived experiences have taught me time and time again that other people are not to be trusted in most cases? Is my way of thinking really all that irrational atp?

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