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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 04/09/2026

Well I just got dinged my a surprise £400 bill out of no where this morning. This might be the first time I may need to ask for help, trouble is I have no idea how I should do it or what site to use. This isn't a good feeling :/

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 24/08/2026

Recovery is basically at the point where I am mostly fine. I can move around and do things, look after myself and generally do whatever on my own. My limitation now is stamina. Can’t move quick or over long distance without running out of breathe. That should be sorted next month. Can’t wait.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 17/08/2026

I have just been cleared to shower after everything. Almost two months since I first went in and now I’m allowed to shower. I am so so excited.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 13/08/2026

Life has taken me into a position the last few months where I feel like I should reach out to others for help. But then I also feel like my situation _pales_ in comparison to others/friends around me. My medical bills won’t crush me, I won’t be homeless, I just can’t get work. Is so small fry.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 06/08/2026

Another dressing change today and they still won’t let me shower. God please it’s all I can think about.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 02/08/2026

Banana Bullectomy. Yup I love it.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 02/08/2026

Listening to doctors argue about how long I’ll live kinda put everything into a strange perspective for me. It made me realise I take so much and so many for granted, things I promised myself ain’t important because I can get to them, people or events ‘later’ in life. Now I realise I can’t.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 02/08/2026

As more and more of my daily life returns to normal, I’ve been thinking about something that a friend said to me in VRC; That my time clock has essentialy restarted. That I ran my last life down and I’ve been given a second chance with ‘bonus’ time. And it makes me wonder what I’ll do different.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 02/08/2026

I use Bluesky and am a fan of pretty much every mecha ever. It’s one of the things I’m kinda known for. Maybe you need to find a better community? Sounds more to me you want to reframe the anime style vs western style for reasons I can’t figure out but it also sounds like you know shit people.

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Cynra Aexara @cynra.gay · 01/08/2026

TODAY!!! So excited to play @theneonsymphony.bsky.social this evening - y’all should definitely pull up when the event starts, two hours before my set, the whole lineup is gonna be incredible!

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 31/07/2026

I’ve owned a triangle pillow for all of about 7 minutes and it’s my most favourite possession ever.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 30/07/2026

Oof, worse than yesterday! I wonder if I went too hard?

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 26/07/2026

Getting much better though. Pain is mostly a dull throb, ache or itching which I am told is normal. Stitchings come out soon and are about 90% of the remaining discomfort and breathing is almost painless again. Just at the very very max capacity of my lung so I get pain. Still sleeping lots though.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 26/07/2026

Made the very silly mistake of just stopping Codine intake yesterday after a month of 4x 60mg a day. Yeah that was a mistake. First time experiencing withdrawal to medication and holy bejesus never again. Let’s try that again but tempered this time.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 22/07/2026

I did manage to get from my bed, to the bathroom and back again without getting out of breathe for the first time though so we’re getting there. Pain is also far less debilitating now.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 22/07/2026

Playing Resident Evil 2 remake while recovering is an experience. Dodging Mr X while wheezing in panic because I can’t yelp does kinda make his impact a little funnier, if no less terrifying.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 20/07/2026

My chest is … bigger, now one side is inflated again. I’m more barrel chested than I ever realised. God damn.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 19/07/2026

It really shouldn’t taste that good tbh. Maybe flavour it to be icky.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 19/07/2026

Im about to have so much morphine inside of me.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 18/07/2026

The pain is unreal from this surgery. I need multiple sets of painkillers and morphine just to function. Oh man this is … this is rough.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 17/07/2026

Comfort much better, pain hugely reduced. Who’d have thought a foot and a half of quarter inch thick rubber tubing entering your lower back and snaking around your lung cavity would be uncomfortable. I wouldn’t wish all of this on my worst enemy. The psychological healing from this alone is nuts.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 16/07/2026

My pain is locked at a 10/10. I’m bordering on delirious and I’m absolutely loaded up on painkillers. One. More. Day. I leave tomorrow.

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e(Ag)le 🦅 @silvereagle.dev · 15/07/2026

Please keep my fellow bird and dear friend @gillburd.online in your thoughts this morning. He's headed in for surgery on his lungs to treat bullous emphysema, which has put him in some really life-threatening scenarios in the last few weeks. We all love and care for ya, Gill. 💙

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 13/07/2026

I just signed the final consent form for potential surgery tomorrow. My death risk is down to less than 1% but it’s still there so I need to say that I love you all. I’m very sure I’ll be fine but all the same you’ve all made my life wonderful and brought me joy. I’ll pull through though.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 13/07/2026

Tha was still extremely funny just in a different way!

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 12/07/2026

Just recovery from then on. 8 weeks recovery time though so I’ll be out of action for a long time ;.;

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 12/07/2026

I am in so much pain. My chest is doing an owie. Least I’m in the specialist hospital now. Surgery will be Wednesday at the latest and assuming all goes well discharge will be Friday or Saturday

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 10/07/2026

Back in hospital. Left lung has fully collapsed, right lung is now doing 100% if the work. I also need a pee.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 08/07/2026

My chest feels like there is a strap or something around it today. The deepest breathe feels like I’m getting to about 50% full. This is horrible.

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Brett "Solidarity 2026" Banditelli @banditelli.org · 08/07/2026

WAIT FOR IT WAIT. FOR. IT! 🪶 🐣

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

Back home now, already collapsed into bed and just feeing so… empty. I think I’m going to get a bit more sleep and just have a little cry for a bit.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

I did get to see my CR scan though and man, 80% of my left side lung is just black empty space ;.; Pretty cool to see though.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

And xray done and talk done. Lung has re-collapsed on one side. Going for a CT scan on Friday and interview being arranged with surgeons. I have multiple air pockets and bulleas. Probably decades of popping and healing around each other has created a minefield of air pockets. Everyone is stumped.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

You’re correct yes, I’m back in because I have to be. I have to admit though I don’t _feel_ better at the moment ;.;

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

I hope it’s not surgery so soon as I thought it was consultation. I wasn’t told to be Nip by Mouth either so I doubt that. But soon. Really soon. ;.;

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 07/07/2026

Sent back to the hospital and already in radiology waiting for an Xray. Is that a good sign? D:

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 06/07/2026

Man taking meds and painkillers is so much harder without a nurse appearing by my bed like clockwork every few hours. Boy it hurts sometimes. ;.;

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 04/07/2026

Last update for this little saga: I have been released for now. That was very scary and made me realise I have to make some big changes and that I take far too much for granted. Flew a little too close to the sun that time.

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 04/07/2026

Update for the 4th Jul 2026: waiting on a chest xray. Assuming my condition hasn’t worsened overnight with the drain removed, I’ll be allowed to leave at some point today. I’ll reappear on the Tuesday to talk about future surgery. Fwingers and talons crossed <3

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 03/07/2026

I shall loan you my beak <3

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Gill Eadesseo @gillburd.online · 03/07/2026

The go in and essentially remove the useless part of the lung to free up the space for good lung to use

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