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Different topic. I've been saying that I'm done with people, done trying, since June, Vancouver, and I have got to say that telling the mimics that force themselves upon me to fuck off instead of humoring their bullshit has been one of my greatest joys.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Hour almost up. Running out of time.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

I think one of the reasons I really am not at all receptive or serious about this is that the times I've tried, at one point giving clear instructions, "have a passport ready", and nothing... There's never anything... It's just so much bullshit.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Like I'm not going to have to stay there, am I? lol 2 days and we're good? What is it? lol

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Say, I do run off to Portland, or LA/SD, Montreal, or any of the other places you've told me to. Say you actually do something other than harassment campaigns. What then? That isekai bullshit I've never even pretended to be receptive towards? Let me be me.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

So this is what the questions are about. So when you tell me to run off somewhere, is this just some, I don't know, metaphor or what have you? A symbolic gesture? Like I very much feel as though I'm just running off to be homeless there, and then why fuckin bother? If I'm happy here?

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Refusing to run away, no matter what you're saying, and still telling you to do the thing. So there's a clear pattern here, but let's ignore that because pretending it's nothing is easier for you all. And I don't really push it, as a fault of my own.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Ignoring your medial advice. Basically refusing to go to doctors until UHC. (Literally hunger striking over this and have mentioned it before...) Choosing less food/money consumed over working out. Choosing homelessness over dealing with assholes associated with assholes I want nothing to do with.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Onto things you've imagined. "I'm worried about my health." "I fear for my safety." "I care about my wellbeing." Et cetera, et cetera. And let's look at the tiebreaker, my actions...

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

I don't remember how I said it at the time, but there was at least one time when I implored you to kill me thinking it would not only end my suffering, but also thinking it would end all these bullshit games as well.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

And again, this was always me talking about me. Me being the person writing this. And no one else.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

So some things I've said. "I want to die." "I feel like I've lost the right to live." "I don't care what happens to me, just do the right thing." "I'm trying to get myself killed." "Suicide tour." "Let me take the hit." All this and probably plenty I'm forgetting I've said about this topic.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

The point is I've always been pretty open about this topic. You all just always choose to interpret it in different ways. I've never talked about it in any other way than voicing my own emotions, and you always taking it elsewhere is an abuse mechanism.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

I remember maybe close to 2 years ago, saying how much this is a living hel for me and how I wanted to die. And the response from a streamer was "fuck you" and I wasn't upset, I was confused. That eventually led me to realize the walrus song bullshit.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Yeah, I think I'm going to post just the life and death part.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

Maybe I should post, just to ask some questions of my own...

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 15h

The gist of it is I'm fuckin done with that asshole unless he actually does something useful, which has yet to fuckin happen, so yeah, fuck him. And that I really don't care what that means for me. With quotes of things I've actually said, done or haven't done, and things you make up basically.

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4fuxake @blueheartedly1.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Impeach his ass too 👇

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 16h

Paraphrased this. After the election... 🤔 A failure.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 16h

Orange fuck getting impeached or worse either way.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 16h

I wrote a long ramble mostly about this but also clarifying what I meant yesterday. I don't know if I should bother to post it.

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4fuxake @blueheartedly1.bsky.social · 21h

I approve this message 👇

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Mark Hamill @markhamillofficial.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Nothing to see here...just the President of the United States inviting the country he illegally declared war on to "take out" 2 major American cities. If that's not treason, what is? 🤬 Law enforcement won't hold him accountable, but we WILL! The beginning of the end is on November 3rd. #VOTE-BLUE 🌊

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

I will not intentionally void this ever. The *only* thing I can fathom changing anything is if maybe that asshole finishes all 4 issues mentioned, we're excluding and ignoring the 5th, before January. He needs to do that shit on his own. I'm not siding with him over it unless it's all done.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

And to make things clear. This is a transaction, not a subscription program. You're paying for services rendered over time. You're getting my loyalty on this *one issue*, not the entirety of life. And we're getting one issue I mentioned resolved, and maybe actually help improve my situation.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

So what I'm saying is, perhaps you all actually are racist, decide the glass house they're throwing from, I don't think you would do any worse than what they're currently doing. But look, I don't really fuck with you. You probably don't really fuck with me. But we both don't fuck with that asshole.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

But I'm going to get to the point. I'm sick of those weird assholes. I'm sick of awful things happening. I want to actually improve people's lives for once.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

So yesterday. I'm not going into specifics. But there's a group that every once in a while decide to send people to accuse me of being racist. It worked for a while. Would send a guttural repulsion through me. But once I realized who and what and why... it really falls flat.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

They've burnt my dreams for their warmth.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

14 years of my life.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Just to watch some assholes I've never welcomed in your life do the exact opposite. And knowing that it's probably my fault. And wondering whether anything will ever get better. If maybe someday that something better will replace it. Hoping in the dismay. But never having that reason for hope.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Some rambling coming. Tempted to have a storytime or two about yesterday. But that's always a bad idea, it seems. So first, I want to say that I don't think you all realize how weathering it is earnestly, or accidentally, say with hope "I hope this (good thing) happens!"

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

Probably just ignoring everything and going about my own business is the only correct course of action. It's frustrating the extent I need to suffer just trying to do that.

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

Is it possible to talk about life and death and/or health without it being horribly and deliberately misinterpreted? Should I bother?

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I'm still kind of absorbing recent implications.

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H☮PE @a-r-tforpeace.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

💛🧡❤️ Good morning dear friends, happy Saturday ! #Corse #Corsica

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rw @gdi69.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

And if you want me dead, then why are you even fuckin here in the first place? Go away. You don't need to play along with the bullshit game you created. Unlike myself who has never had any fuckin choice on the matter.

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