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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I don’t get in here as much as I used to. How is everyone? #everyone

Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

“All of the myths of mankind are nothing but show business.” ~Thomas Ligotti, Teatro Grottesco #pessimism #horror #thomasligotti #philosophicalpessimism #horrorliterature

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

"Objection to scientific knowledge: this world doesn't deserve to be known." ~Emil Cioran #philosophicalpessimism #pessimism #philosophy

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

"The shit you're in is deeper than you can imagine." ~from the movie, "They Will Kill You" #quotes #pessimism #moviequotes

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

I’m a dancing marionette being tortured by the puppet-master. One of the worst things about having my disease is that it causes seriously insane restless legs at night. I can’t sleep with my legs moving constantly. WTH #puppet #restlesslegs #bodyhorror

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

There’s a world I have to build in order that I may breath. #breathing #worldbuilding #wakingsleep #sleep

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

~Thomas Ligotti (Screenshot quote from The Conspiracy Against the Human Race. See ALT text to copy quote.) #thomasligotti #pessimism #philosophicalpessimism #puppets #puppettheater #ArthurSchopenhauer #schopenhauer

“Schopenhauer’s is a great pessimism, not least because it reveals a signature motif of the pessimistic imagination. As indicated, Schopenhauer’s insights are yoked to a philosophical superstructure centered on the Will, or the Will-to-live—a blind, deaf, and dumb force that rouses human beings to their detriment. While Schopenhauer’s system of thought is as impossible to swallow as that of any other systematic philosopher, no intelligent person can fail to see that every living thing behaves exactly in conformity with his philosophy in its liberal articulation. Wound up like toys by some force—call it Will, élan vital, anima mundi, physiological or psychological processes, nature, or whatever—organisms go on running as they are bidden until they run down. In pessimistic philosophies only the force is real, not the things activated by it. They are only puppets, and if they have consciousness may mistakenly believe they are self-winding persons who are making a go of it on their own.”

~Thomas Ligotti, TCATHR

(Screenshot of a quote from The Conspiracy Against the Human Race with a section high lighted, "In pessimistic philosophies only the force is real, not the things activated by it.")

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Sometimes I just don't know about the fedi-verse. How long will an instance stay afloat? It depends only on one person. Sometimes, my profile just isn't available. #fediverse #nervous

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

I think I found a way to sleep while awake. #wakingsleep #sleeping

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Working on music every night I have insomnia. The results are strange. The music is very hypnotic, sleep inducing. Working on an album of these sounds. #sleep #music #experimentalmusic #dronemusic

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

No hope. Zero sleep. Took me years to abandon my hope last night. #nohope #imissyousleep

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Sleep is the best hope for Homo sapiens. #sleep #hope

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

“We are not nihilistic towards life - it is life that is nihilistic towards us. It is life that denies us, expels us, and kills us. Do we not want to live intensely and forever? Are we the ones denying life? Is it not life that denies us day by day?” ~Julio Cabrera #philosophy #pessimism

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Just being dragged along in this nightmare world. Hoping to find rest. I’m just a puppet of this hateful body. #nightmare #bodyhorror

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

I am so tired. Sleep, where are you?

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

Existence is such a hopeless pile.

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

Sleep is the best. Sleep fixes everything. Imagine how much better the world could is of be if everyone slept 300% more hours. #solutions #sleep #sleepnow #youshouldsleep

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

“We are forced to struggle, to compete and to win, and we are obliged not to mind living in a society maintained by the slave-like labor of most people. To go on living, we must learn to cultivate a certain degree of moral insensitivity.” ~Julio Cabrera #PhilosophicalPessimism #JulioCabrera

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

im so tired of news I just read comics now make art and music will all be destroyed one way or the other so make art and music #makethings #tootired

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

Damn kidney! Hurting so much today. Pain takes over your mind. #pain #lifeisterrible

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

I woke from a dream early today. The transition from sleep to waking seemed seamless. The dream was much like life and life was much like the dream. It’s as if I woke into a dream from another dream. #dreams #dreaming #sleep #sleepisbest #sleeping

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

Just had an amazing donut that changed my life. I’m now an optimist! Life is beautiful! Must have children so they too can have amazing donuts. #sarcasm #pessimism

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

"Waiting At The Doctor's Office" (Colored pencil and india ink, 2026) #art #drawings #color #artists #artwork #traditionalart

Color pencil drawing. Pink puppet figure, who looks exhausted, waits in a corner of a green room. Sits by a window. Waiting for the doctor to arrive. In the left corner is the corner of a table with two pair of scissors on it. Above the scene is a bear light bulb, the light is black. Outside the window is a city in the distance and a moon with black stars in the sky.

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

"It is life that ruins us from the very beginning. Our love for life is an unrequited love." ~Julio Cabrera #PhilosophicalPessimism #JulioCabrera #philosophy

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

Been reading a lot of Julio Cabrera and PTSD Radio together for a couple of weeks. Highly recommend. #horrorcomics #horrormanga #philosophy #philosophicalpessimism #pessimism

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 25/04/2026

It's time for a mutilating of sounds.

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

I am now on dialysis. My kidney has finally broken down. How long will I last on dialysis? Just a bit longer I suppose.

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 29/12/2025

Next week I start dialysis clinics. #adventure

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 05/12/2025

I never really recovered from those impossibly bright colors of very early video games. Donkey Kong and Q-Bert come to mind. The pinks and cyan and yellows. All thankfully unnatural. #videogames #arcadegames #retrogaming

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 01/12/2025

"Two minimal yet haunting longform voyages. Chilling, bizarre, sinister sound. Eerie & intriguingly weird. Terrifying yet unmissable." My most recent album. #soundcollage #musiqueconcrète #musiqueconcrete #ambientindustrial #darkambient

loudsilencedigital.bandcamp.com

Moved From Without, by Drawn By Divine Strings

2 track album

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Willard @formfading.bsky.social · 22/11/2025

I hate my art. I've got to do something different.

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