iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 04/05/2025

desiderium mortis et silentii. sanguis Iesu, serva me. sacrificia non frustra facta. altana nos protege.

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 24/04/2025

wataa and it’s just the sexiest water bottle you’ve ever seen

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 23/04/2025

most people want to be remembered forever i want you to forget i exist right now

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 23/04/2025

there was really only one reason for me to be here but now that reason feels kind of silly

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

asking myself why i feel like shit mentally while simultaneously dying from lack of sleep, nourishment, connection, and touch

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

any girls out there care more about fonts and type setting than video games? no? just me?

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

rare selfie, not sure why i bother anymore though

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 28/03/2025

how are y’all holdin’ up over here, is this place infected too?

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 13/03/2025

i released a garage tape over the weekend that's available on all streaming platforms, if you even care tidal.com/browse/album...

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

today was my birthday i’m officially almost 40

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

today was my birthday i’m officially almost 40

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 10/02/2025

despite the struggle, i can still fake a smile

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

a story in 3 parts: 3 sessions, 24 hours, no tap outs

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

no tap outs

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 12/01/2025

part 1

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 04/01/2025

my body is not sexually suggestive

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 31/12/2024

if you ever try flirting with me my knee jerk reaction will be to just send you music because i dunno how to flirt

soundcloud.com

LΛYLØШ®

Ploom is now @noaliae - we;ll see you on the other side

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 29/12/2024

i dunno how to flirt with people at all and so trauma bonding is all i really know but subsequent trauma has led to that becoming a red flag in and of itself

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 29/12/2024

as someone who is asexual and carries a lot of trauma, i so desperately want to live in a world where dating someone does not mean you’re fucking them

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 28/12/2024

genuinely what makes people happy, how do people fill their brain space with things other than thoughts of suicide, i am struggling so bad i just want it to stop, i want to feel normal and sane

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

logging off until i feel like life has meaning

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

perhaps the strangest part about not having a family anymore is that they still exist, they will still die one day, and i will grieve for them, which is maybe partially why my subconscious is so fixated on dying first, just a thought/realization i had coming out of a dream

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

i wonder why no one talks to me and then i remember that being perpetually suicidal and talking about it openly is not a very attractive quality so i try to bottle it up and then the ideation gets exponentially worse

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

been crying a lot lately, i know why but i’m not entirely sure that it matters, i feel really awful about everything all the time and there’s never really any relief from that, i spend every night wondering if it’s even worth it to keep going, i’m not convinced but i push on anyway

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 23/12/2024

i hope next year i’m able to separate my sense of self worth from the amount of selfies i take for likes, i’m really fucking tired of wasting so much time and energy on that shit

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 22/12/2024

i’ll like your tweets but i won’t say what i’m thinking when i do

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 22/12/2024

call me asexual the way nothing makes me hornier than typesetting

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

realizing that i wasn’t scared of or attracted to cis women, but envious of them, and then realizing that i wasn’t attracted to boys either, but rather girls who used to be boys, was easily one of the most intense breakthroughs of my life

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ESCHA (๑ˊ͈ ^ˋ͈) @escha.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

one of the saddest parts about transitioning later in life is that all of my past design and art work is hidden away behind googling my deadname

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