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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 4h

Happy National Coming Out Day. No matter what stage you are on in your journey, your identity and experiences are valid. 🩵🫂

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 5h

I never felt safe enough to be myself. I never felt like anyone in my life actually knew me. When I eventually came out to myself and the people I felt safest around, it felt like I finally got a chance to live. I've been hurt a lot since then, but I've also found true love.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

So grateful to have finally finished the re-learning phase for Jak and Daxter 100% runs. Now it is time for individual level runs and drill practice for common mistakes. I'm so much closer to running again. Thank you to the people who stopped by and raided. I appreciate y'all.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

For a while, I thought I needed a specific environment to enjoy speedrunning. Proving to myself that my passion for what I do matters most has been liberating. Back on the grind and focused on making steady progress. I'm looking forward to streaming today.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

My intersectional identity is a core part of who I am and how I experience the world. People who approach that with compassion tend to stay in my life. People who assume they know more about my experience than I do, rarely do. It’s a truth I’ve come to accept.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Talking about learning disabilities and neurodivergence with my partner made me realize just how much our overlapping experiences shape the way we navigate the world together. I'd love to connect with more people who get what it’s like to process life through a similar lens.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

You are probably far more resilient than you give yourself credit for. I realize that everything that has hurt me throughout the years, also never broke me. I am still here and choosing to be true to myself rather than let harm change me. Everything that hurt you, you survived.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I love being kind to others, but I’ve learned that protecting my peace and energy is what makes that kindness sustainable. Learning to guard my own heart is how I keep it open. I like who I am when it's open. 🫂🩵💪🏽🤯

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Had my first trauma-focused EMDR session yesterday. It was intense, but grounding. We built a reliable safe space, worked through bilateral desensitization, and focused heavily on resilience. It felt like a really worthwhile step forward.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

Shoutout to the amazing speedrunning folkz making stream chats such a welcoming place lately. Loving the vibes and looking forward to catching more runs and streams!

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

One of my favorite things about streaming is getting into real, thoughtful conversations with people. I really value spaces where people can exchange different perspectives with curiosity and respect, and I'm looking forward to cultivating more of those moments on stream.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I had a discussion with my partner the other night where we didn't fully agree with each other, but we have so much respect for one another that we just left it there. Sometimes it is the very act of feeling heard and understood that is enough. We do not always have to agree.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

I believe that it is the little ways that we show we care that have the most impact over time. I choose to remember people's birthdays, give positive affirmations, and encouragement because I think those actions matter. I'm glad I never let harm take that from me.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I had an anxiety attack last night and I wasn't exactly sure of the cause. I have been confronting my trauma head on and the anxiety can be intense at times, but I never had that happen before. I think this is a sign I am making progress. Good things are never easy.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

Navigating modern discussions can feel exhausting when everything gets pushed into binary extremes. I catch myself craving spaces where we can hold complexity, ask difficult questions, and prioritize empathy without instantly picking sides. I know others feel this isolation too.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Sometimes I still break down seeing how I've been treated, but I'm grateful for the people who still make me feel like part of the speedrunning space. I'm glad I didn't let any of it stop me from doing what I love. I'm stronger than I think.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

Experienced pure autistic joy on stream today! I'm finally starting to feel safe practicing speedrunning again, the anxiety is calming down, and I'm just going to keep showing up and being my best self.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I’m returning to the belief that people are inherently good, even if we frequently make poor choices for understandable reasons. Conflict resolution remains a widespread hurdle, but I firmly believe people are capable of growth.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Practicing Jak today and just feeling insanely grateful for the people in my life who choose repair, vulnerability, and active communication over silence. Building healthy community takes work, and y'all are dope AF.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

As I have been working on healing trauma and managing my depression I have come to realize that the biggest indicator to how depressed I am is whether or not I am interested in learning and challenging myself. If I didn't have depression I'd know much more.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I went out last night to a local community event and I was surprised at how much fun I had. I was far more social and engaging than I expected to be. I'm not where I want to be, but I see progress. These are the experiences I live for. Facing discomfort and seeing the results.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I used to listen to music and imagine dancing and kissing a cute girl and now I have a cute girlfriend. Old Poly would be mind blown. 🤯🫂🩵

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Having basic needs for support, safety, and recognition does not make you a burden. Today was really hard and I had to remind myself of this. I thought it was worth sharing.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

This past month has been a tough physical and emotional adjustment period as I fine-tune my daily regimen. It’s taken a toll on my energy, but it’s all part of the long-haul process to reach a stable baseline. Keeping my eyes on moving forward. Never give up.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I have been really in my feels lately. That is why there have been so many sentimental posts. I went through a whirlwind of emotions and experiences the past few years and at times I still feel lost. It's a lot to take in. I'm also just glad to still be here. I fought to be here.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Accessibility is suicide prevention for me because for most of my life so much wasn't safe and accessible for me. I missed out on so much and feeling unsafe speedrunning broke my heart. Access to support and safety allows me to do what I love without fear and anxiety. Thank you.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

I'm going to keep being authentic and wholesome, and let people reach their own conclusions. Life is too short to worry about outside perceptions. I'd rather focus on bringing value to every area of my life.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

It has been really nice reconnecting with people from the speedrunning world who never stopped being supportive, even when we drifted apart. Grateful for the mutual safety and genuine support. It means a lot.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Thank you to the people who hung out and lurked in the stream today. I got tired so I stopped a bit earlier than planned, but it was a good session. I am grateful to be streaming Jak speedrunning again. Every stream is a way to show autistics like me that our voices matter.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I'm going to stream myself practicing and re-learning Jak 100% until my partner comes back home from work. Then she's all mine and the rest of the world can literally disappear tbh. 😆😂

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Supporting the vulnerable autistic people in your life can bring out the best in us all. When I felt safe and supported, I thrived. When I realized I couldn't vocalize the harm I was facing without facing more harm, I shut down. Safety is the foundation that allows us to exist.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Trauma truly destroyed my sense of self. I lost my identity and everything that mattered to me because the trauma and lack of support I received was too much to bear. But as I have rebuilt over the years, I have learned to find myself and joy once again. I'm so grateful.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Working on my confidence at one of the lowest points of my life has been challenging, but worth it. If I can see myself for who I really am and feel confident now, the rest of my life will look even brighter. It's been hard dealing with everything, but I will never give up.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I will always be grateful for kindness. There are people that are so kind to me in comparison to the ways others have treated me that I question if it's real. That kind of kindness is so necessary. I just hope I can provide the same for others.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I'm looking forward to sharing more of the happiness in my life. I'm beyond grateful for so much. Thank you for being a part of my process.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Furthermore, it’s the experience of being treated like you aren’t a reliable witness to your own life. Over time, that constant invalidation causes real trauma, making it hard to trust your own mind, memory, and voice. I've worked hard to rebuild and this is the next step. 3/3

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

What is epistemic injustice?: 'Epistemic' relates to knowledge and how we know things. Epistemic injustice happens when someone's reality, lived experience, or testimony is systematically dismissed, doubted, or invalidated. This is often because of bias or power dynamics. 2/3

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

I'm going to be starting EMDR therapy as a way to finally overcome the trauma that epistemic injustice has had on my life. My partner, friends, and all those who care for me have shown me a world where my needs and wants actually matter. Now I'm going to prove it to myself. 1/3

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

On Black Autism Acceptance day, I was consumed by thoughts of how rarely I've felt acceptance. I cried and felt completely isolated. Then I cuddled with my partner, watched her play DnD with friends, and I hung out in a safe friend's Twitch stream. I'm not alone. Never give up.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

The few friends I have that have always shown me mutual respect and the relationship I built with my partner has proven to me that the kind of treatment I expect is possible and that it is other people's limitations that have deprived me of it. Accepting that has been hard.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

For most of my life I searched for people willing to accept me fully. Unfortunately, I never found that within large groups of people. It always felt like some aspects of me were simply unacceptable. It is the actions of a few people here and there that helped me feel acceptance.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

It's Black Autism Acceptance day and I can personally say that I have not felt safe, respected, and supported in a lot of the communities I have been apart of, but that select people have been there to lift me up in ways that I'm grateful for. Thank you for your efforts.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

I still get anxious and feel unsafe at times and I have to remind myself of all of the hard work I've done to help myself feel safe again doing what I love. It's been years of hard work and a lot of it without the people I thought would care the most. I'm grateful to be here.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Having a partner who offers unconditional respect and safety completely changes how you navigate the world. So endlessly grateful for her and the foundation we’ve built together. I want others to know what is possible. You deserve so much love and care!

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

A quick reminder that small acts of kindness and thoughtful words carry way more weight than we usually realize. Forever grateful for the people who take the time to offer both.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

I've come to realize I am far more of a logical person than I initially thought. I've had to adapt my logical thinking to work around my disabilities, but that core logic has always been there. I'm going to lean on it more.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

It's funny how when I think about it, I don't really have a problem with anyone. I just expect accountability and repair when harm is done. That's it. Conflict with me is so easily addressed and my current relationships have only proven that to me. I'm grateful for that clarity.

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Poly #Autistic #TwitchStreamer #Learner #Writer @epistemicpolymath.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

I have been dealing with a neck flare up that has taken me out. It's unfortunate, but it is what it is. I might need more time before I stream or share more of myself, but until then I wish you all well. Don't ever stop believing in yourself.

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