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YOU'RE DEF NOT ALONE most people i know are actually super reasonable and capable of nuance and chill one on one or face to face, social media just brings out the worst in us fr

sorry i realized i ended up rambling i could've summed this up by just saying "mood"

i wish it were only a site like bsky, but i honestly think it's just a very human dynamic. and even when social pressure works, it's never the most powerful people who are actually open to being shamed, it's always just some independent content creator or something as if that's moving the needle

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they still feel like they're against the larger and broader systemic stuff, but since they can't directly stop that, they aim lower, completely forgetting that shame has NEVER worked, and that alienating people in their community harms them more than one less problematic consumption habit helps them

in general people have a huge issue with it just being far more easy to hold peers to account for their praxis than powerful entrenched systems that make them feel ineffective and hopeless, so pursuing people in the same community tends to offer more immediate feedback and "better" results

unusually pretty sunset today

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thanks for giving me your iq i'll use it evilly mwah

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honestly true and kind of achievable, i should message one of my friends and ask if they wanna go for a night drive to nowhere up north

fwiw i'm actually in a decent mood today i'm just yearning

there's a water stain from an old leak, way before my time here, that's sitting in the ceiling panel directly above me. sometimes i feel like it's bearing down on me, like the ghost of a storm above my head, rotting through my skull and into my brain, dripping through me

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i think (know) i'm the type of person to never be satisfied with what i have and always yearn for a higher mountain to climb but man that must suck for the things i have right now, to feel like i'm never satisfied with them

i can see you haven't given me a tat update in too long pls fix this sometime

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friendship plus making out and 3am conversations about life and pretending to make plans to travel together to a place where we'll lay outside in a dark sky zone and hold hands and look at the stars together, sure

what's the romance equivalent to casual sex? i need some quick deep and meaningful connection and love please, no strings attached though

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recovery bat time... soon, we will give him froots

so like you got nothing to lose

i mean its not like you lose the ability to speak with your "old" voice. you've heard me do the deep voice party trick enough to know thaaat

there is just something about how Japan maintains their spaces that allows for certain "mess" and growth, like the moss and leaves, but not other, like dirt encroachment and grasses, and i need to learn what exactly they do and how i can do it myself...

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i used to feel like my life was scattered and messy because of the adhd and executive function issues and now I'm line. oh. no i guess my life is just actually like that

YEAH!! i got in it in may after i went to a psychiatrist and after completing and scoring only half the written questionnaire they came in, slowly slid the clipboard away from me, and softly said "I'm gonna let you finish that, but I think we have enough to discuss a treatment plan now" LMFAO

it's nice having feelings, even the bad ones. i feel very real, very organic, like flesh and blood and organ and bone. it's nice anyway amazon needs to deliver my order from last Saturday that they've delayed 4 fucking times already

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but with that said, it's been helpful, i think. i feel a lot less dissociative and distant from my wants and my needs. you know how when a deadline is looming the urgency makes you lock in? it's like, everything feels more urgent now, all the time... for better (focus!) and for worse (stress.)

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Zcythe @albazcythe.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

ive been having a lot more emotions overall since I've started vyvanse. some of it is probably just all the stressful things I've been dealing with this year, but some of it is definitely the fact that no matter how much it helps with focus, a stimulant is still a stimulant at the end of the day

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now I miss "that looks photoshopped"

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i think i would make an exception just to try it because it really has been a lifelong want-to-try... it sounds yummy 🥹

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elly @ellyb.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

ive always wanted to try chicken sashimi.....

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gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay love you laney go get 'er

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elly @ellyb.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

factor please i need to to understand that there are vegetables other than sweet potatoes please factor you're going to make me start to hate sweet potatoes and who the fuck hates sweet potatoes

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elly @ellyb.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

happy birthday lil guy

elly @ellyb.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

should i display the figurine of jax from tadc in a maid outfit that i keep permanently in a jar next to the handblown glass vase-bong i own

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elly @ellyb.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

click click click click click click click click click click

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9:12 am eastern btw, but yippy

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they have fully failed in my time zone btw but i know they use pacific so they have ONE HOUR before i'm GRUMPY

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with my hand on your heart, i stare into your eyes and mutter, same,

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steam boutta make itself a liar for sayin they were gonna send emails out on the 17th at this rate LOL i know literally *one* other person who hasn't gotten their goddamn email yet

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actually, before the political climate changed i far more expected israel to be the first non-eu member - when has a little bit of white supremacism, colonialism and genocide ever stopped Europe? but that seems to be off the table now given the state is finally unpopular with the general public

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the Canada-eu associate membership thing that's getting floated by news media now kinda surprises me, i remember it being treated like a joke when the 51st state comments were in the headlines i honestly expected maybe Australia to be the first non-eu member, but ig china trade is hard to ignore

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you would NOT know i took my meds this morning, i am straight up passing out in the office i have a black decaf in the hopes that my mental association with coffee will wake me up even though it's not caffeinated 💀 i have to at least TRY

if anything i should take it as a sign that my French is improving to be able to understand TTS franglais

the whiplash of hearing this fully French voice then half a second later my brain catches up and realizes it's fucking English

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