iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

Sometimes you just give yourself a big project to show off your favourite OCs. I still need to shade it but, Here's the full thing so far.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

Bottling up the small things that have annoyed me and make me frustrated and just not having the energy to try and be more than what I can give for a while now is just adding up, but it'll pass. It usually does once something makes me excited enough to forget about the stupid lil thoughts.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

Because I don't want to get into these things, It's not like anything really caused it that i can unpack. It's just an inevitable low that will pass as the little things get drowned out, and the weather starts to warm. The hardest part is the RSD and the outsider feelings I'm struggling with atm.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

The things that are bogging my mind down will pass, and there's a lot more I'd want to bother people with. It's just stress and RSD. But streaming and group activities are the company I can handle right now, because most the people don't know me well enough to pick up on things or try and pry-

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

It's hard to explain other than it takes different energies. I've been streaming a lot partially because it's company I can handle right now. Same with group things. There's something tied to that time that os distracting and I can be a less present form of myself or focus on lighthearted things.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

I wish i wasn't so nervous to post my art on social now.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Even with a pop socket I still drop my phone on myself And panic what fucking buttons I pressed

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Also Idk what it is about the gboard vs the default keyboard on my phone, but I mis-type shit far less w the gboard Plus i like the clickies

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

It doesn't matter how familiar I am with a site or ap, of it's on my phone I'm miss clicking It's why i have perms blocked on my damned mobile discord so i don't accidentally call people Hate it here

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

Been struggling socially, Took a break for a few days but still don't feel 100% But trying to not just disappear for weeks at a time like I used to. but certainly am not able to reply to a lot of people at times

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

It only makes people feel hurt. Jokes about things people like only works without hurting feelings if you're close to the person and they know you're joking and there's no judgement. People saying and expressing how much they like something isn't them telling you to like it too.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

I need to get this off my chest because I'm tired of seeing and experiencing this online. It'd fine talking about not liking something, It's fine making jokes about not liking it. It is NOT cute or funny to make someone feel like they're wrong for liking something you don't, joke or not.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

The free item placement is really nice for both decorating and for those who love making contraptions and planning out the more technical side of things. I just have so much love for this series so far and look forward to decorating and finishing unlocking things now that's my main focus.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

Slime Rancher 2 really did a good job with being a sequel that respects the original. Actually improved on pieces of the original and made it more exploration focused but also made the ranch so much more worth putting time in. I really suggest it for people who liked the original.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

But I never rly tried diet coke bc normal coke made my chest feel weird like indigestion, but tried diet coke I THINK earlier this year and it's like, Damn that's why mom liked it. It's nice, especially cold. And I don't like fridge-cold sodas because of how sharp it feels.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

The funny thing is, when I made the swap from regular to diet sodas I stuck to my usual drinks. A&W Rootbeer was how I got my body used to aspertame, then I stuck to rootbeer, drpepper and pepsi. Cherry and lime pepsi zero slaps.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

The loading wheel in my brain as I try to navigate sites like bsky just to swap accounts is hilarious to me

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Rivers Solvi 🔞 | Back on her bullshit @riverssolvi.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

i hope you all know i mean this when i say: i really need help. i blew a tire and currently cannot drive. we have a spare on but its not a particularly good spare. if youd like more details i can provide. ko-fi.com/riverserish/...

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 19/07/2025

But really not feeling allowed to feel how you do about those things. Or able to talk to the people involved. Or not even being able to speak to the people involved just for the lack of connection anymore. It's tiring, especially when someone's moved on and you're still stuck feeling the hurt.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 19/07/2025

The kind of low where you don't even want to bother to bring it up, bc there's nothing rly that can be done about it as a whole, unless you're able to pick apart the small things that caused it all to build up.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 19/07/2025

Been feeling real low for the past week or so. A lot of really frustratingly clinging thoughts and dreams that leave me screwed up emotionally for the whole day. All tying into the kind of loneliness you feel, even while in a crowd or hanging out around friends.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 07/07/2025

www.twitch.tv/duskydergun Streaming Character References for #Artfight hoping to be done them all tonight so i can actually start doing art for the event fdghfgh

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Twitch

Twitch is the world

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

starting stream with so little motivation and feeling so unsocial just to stream for nearly 8 hours sounds about right

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

IDK if it's just the adhd dopamine chasing, but the fight with the dissociative auto pilot's been rough for a while. Tired of it scoob. But at least I'm not running out of things that work with the fucked brain. been ping-ponging through interests hard.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

Manifesting actually having any energy to do anything by the time I get home, been struggling with getting interests started and its frustrating

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tenz (っ´ཀ`)っ.⋆♱࣪ ִֶָ☾. @sultrysunset.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

unrelated to anything, but just a reminder to NEVER let anyone dull your enthusiasm for anything. be loud, be excited, be unhinged. as long as you're being respectful, you're not doing anything wrong. people who try and kill that joy, who make it out to be a bad thing, aren't worth keeping around 💜

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

First year I'm incredibly torn on what team to go with for artfight

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G! @gpike.bsky.social · 10/05/2025

*taps the sign*

A post from Tumblr user stridersknowbest
How do draw good
Fill 14 sketch book
Bad stuff is good stuff because you made stuff
Do you like sparkle? Draw sparkle
Draw what make your heart do the smiley emote
Member to drink lotsa agua or else bad time
Don't stress friend all is well
Your art is hot like potato crisps
Don't let anyone piss on your good mood amigo
If they do
Eat
Them

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 17/06/2025

Appointment anxiety needs to stop teaming up with medical appointment anxiety I just need my meds refilled reee

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

I never even know what emotes to do let alone the struggle i'm having to stylize a skull for emotes LOL

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

today on, struggling to stylize a skull for emotes

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

New Icon for pride, and also because i needed a new icon to reflect the current sona.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

I can't get better if I'm not allowed ro build uo good habits of things I was never really taught to do. I have 30 years of just not knowing why the 'go' button wasn't there for me. "You just need to get stuff done, like it or not." I don't even dislike the thinge you want me to do I'M TRYING.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

Don't fucking interrupt someone with adhd as they're building up momentum because nothing is going to be done if you do. We literally can't even do things we want to do, productive or not because of our stupid broken brain. We're trying our fucking best.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

Not to mention they haven't seen what I have done. In the past hour. Because I'm tired of people not seeing my efforts. And then getting mad when I say I can handle it. And I fucking can. I have. I just need to be left alone to do it on my own fucking time because I need to build momentum.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

And this time especially, I don't need to hear it. I've struggled with insomnia this whole week, and I havent slept in over 24 hours now. So when I finally pull the person who upset me to the side to tell them how I fucking feel, just for them to not say anything and just walk away, fucking sucks.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

The fact that things aren't being done on other people's watch, or they're just seeing what's not been done yet just to pretty much make the efforts and timeline they haven't seen seem not enough really doesn't help the fight to keep myself fucking motivated. I'm tired. I'm trying my best.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

All things considered, like the hell of my old apartment and how I struggled even harder to keep it tidy, the fact most of my hours I don't feel present in my daily life, and that people tend to see me at the lowest dip of my mental health cycle, I don't think I'm doing too fucking bad.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

Vent, sorry. I didn't get diagnosed with adhd until I was 30. All my teens into adulthood I figured something was wrong but not one seemed to care to find out what. They just called me lazy and claimed I was just making excuses.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 06/06/2025

Anyone got experience with on-the-go digital drawing that doesn't require a laptop or an apple product? I want an option for when I'm out but want to know of there's anything out there that's not hyper expensive, apple or requires a laptop.

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Dusk @duskydergun.bsky.social · 05/06/2025

Looking for some characters to draw from shows/games/comics/movies/etc No original characters please! #artrequests I'll try and do as many as I can. I preffer not real people but i'll try my best if I see a real person I vibe with. Real people still need to be an acted character or something.

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