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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

It's so, so strange, but I genuinely feel "triggered" by the default Ring doorbell sound. It's like it jabs at some hidden PTSD, but I've no idea why/what. I feel a sudden injection of adrenaline, and it's genuinely unpleasant to me. How bizarre.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Bah. I hoped to do the LondonFurs meet on the 10th October. But scheduling roofing work has got in the way. I'm justifying it by saying it's just one weekend after Pawsome so maybe there won't be many I know there. Can't do the Halloween one, but I'll try to attend November. How time flies.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Isn't it funny how you can curate a long list of films to watch, and when you want to watch a film, don't fancy any of them...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Hi there hello. Still here. *clawed handwaves at house stuff* *thrashes wildly*

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

Enter the Raptor? No, wait, that doesn't sound right...

Beer from Tiny Rebel brewery, "Enter the Dragon"

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

My sense of time is so messed up recently, due to all the house stuff. My PT wanted to prepare a session date in October. I thought "That's ages away!!" Um... nope. I keep thinking "I *have* to get on top of my address changes, I gave back the rental house ages ago!" Um... nope. It was yesterday.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Just moved into the new house, one I actually "own". It's weird. Even at this early stage, even though it's very much unfinished, I feel a sense of comfort I've never experienced before. This place is mine.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

Worn out. Work: unfamiliar new project and AI 🤯 Also: picked up the keys to my new house last Friday. Since then, I've either been doing my day job, or immediately at the house doing redecoration. Job: 8-4. House: 4-9. Every day. Need to get as much stuff done before I properly move in in 8 days.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

On a new project at work, building a new application from scratch. First time we're heavily using AI to do it. And... Sure, it's impressive. Sure, it's possible to move much faster. But not only do I have to build more, I also get loads more code reviews to do. Task switching and pressure is rough.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

Sure, what's yet another multi-hundred pound bill, it's all just abstract numbers at this point... 😬 Before I know it, it'll be Christmas, and gift expectations. Great. Moving house is expensive. I need break from all these expenses...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I still find it weirdly amusing to think that at some point, at the start of businesses requiring websites, the hardware store B&Q thought: "... shit"

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I know it's weird to say, but... I'm getting very tired of so many online services being multi-factor-auth. Not everything needs it, I just don't care, let me in quickly, I don't want to have to grab my phone to log in every time, grrrrrr...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Maybe this is unprofessional, I dunno, but I refuse to start work meeting calls early. It's a matter of principle. If someone starts a call early, I make a point to wait until the actual start time. Even if it means literally just watching the clock until it ticks over. #MiniRant

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

Last Friday, I legally bought my first house. This specific house process has been going on for nearly 4 months, with house-hunting starting 5 months before that. There's still time-sensitive things I must do. But I mentally feel like I'm at the end of a marathon, and have very little left to give.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

Today, brain went "nope". I've had *a lot* to think about for quite a while - as of Friday, I've now legally bought my first house. Entirely solo. Pick up the keys in <2 weeks. Still lots to do, decisions to make. Yet more expense. Need a no brain day today. Having one. No choice.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

Feeling really lonely all of a sudden. Like I can actually sense the distance between me and anyone I care about.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

Slightly awkward situation, but for fun reasons. I'm on a film set today. My character has scenes today and Friday. I've been asked to body double a major character, requiring *many* more scenes, lots more dialogue, and several fight scenes. It's cool, but... I did kinda hope for 2 days off.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

On set today. I genuinely think not sitting at a desk all day is doing wonders for my back injury. Feels much better than it should for the third day. Who'd've thunk it... (everyone)

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

I think I'm gonna have to invest in a standing desk in the new house. One week of work after a 2 week holiday, I felt my back get progressively worse. Yesterday - *ping*. Desk work will be the death of me...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

I think I'm going to do something that feels a little extreme. I use Google Tasks to log all the things I've been meaning to do, or or buy, or research etc. I have 110 tasks across 8 categories, over years. After making a backup, I'm going to delete *everything*. New house (almost), new start.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 28/07/2026

For the first time in quite a while... I'm actually struggling to find a TV show I want to watch. There's so many. I'm really bad at just picking something new and giving it a try. They all often require so much investment before it's clear whether it's worth continuing...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I read books quite often. A little of a novel before bed. I like to have one non-fiction book on the go. I've never found it more difficult. I feel my eyes moving over the words, and they're not going in. I start paragraphs, and find my thoughts have already wandered. It's incredibly frustrating.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Tried snorkeling for the first time today. I'm not a weak swimmer (wouldn't describe myself as "strong" though), and I was surprised that... I had mild panic way more than I expected. Water in the breathing tube, mask etc. It was cool, but it was much more challenging than I thought it'd be.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Show me some fun uyoe stuff! I'm in holiday in the Caribbean at the moment and missing furry stuff 😛

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Urgh, modern software dev is no fun. At least, modern Vue with php. I'm adding one simple new field to two models, and displaying it in 3 places. And renamed one other variable, as it's set to a different value in the backend. Had to change 32 files.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

Frustrated. Found a really lovely 3d print model of a werewolf. Printed it out beautifully. Discovered one hand has 3 fingers, the other 4. Almost certainly AI - I don't see why anyone would choose to do that. It's soured my appreciation of the figurine.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

Finally watched the feature film I was asked to audition for a lead creature role for, but I withdrew as I couldn't afford the time off work. Remarkable film, some cool moments, but I can also see why it wasn't huge. Very arty, but it had to be, given the source material.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

One of the many things I'm looking forward to in my new house (if it happens) is finally separating my "workshop" from my office. I *hate* having to go back into my office (the smallest room in the house) after a "hard" day's BS work, to work on fun creature stuff. It sucks all the joy out of it.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

Had a big company call yesterday (remote), talking about our new product that was prototyped using AI vibecoding (I've not worked on it). The plan was always to scrap it and rewrite from scratch once we know what it should be. Head business guy: "But the app works now. Why can't we ship this now?"

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

Trying a new thing to exercise my idea generation muscle. Come up with at least 10 ideas daily, anything, doesn't even have to be realistic or actionable. My brain: "What's an... 'ideeear'?" #HeadEmpty

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

I feel like I'm constantly waiting. Waiting to do what I want, to achieve what I desire, to make my life how I want it to be. Some of it is indecision or uncertainty. Some of it is justified. Some of it is fear. A lot of it is excuses, valid or otherwise.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

Something switched in my brain. I just couldn't take sitting in my 31.1C office any longer, doing pointless busywork that nobody cares about. I hit my physical limit. I'm now in my living room with the AC running, feeling relatively "cool" at 29.7C. Screw work.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

This heat is getting really boring. I feel trapped in my living room, the only room with AC, that can only be cooled to 28C. The rest of my house is horrible. The outside is just paving, gravel, concrete, and brick, and unpleasantly hot. I'm bored. There's only so much YouTube I can watch.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

My office is now 30.1C. I don't sweat all that much. I just get hot. So I've started just wetting down my head, neck, arms, and legs with cold water. Repeatedly. (It does help, though)

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

Gah, it's 08:13 and my home office is already 28.3C... Today is gonna be ROUGH.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

*laughs* Oh Evri... "Sorry, your parcel has been damaged beyond repair in transit." (thankfully it's nothing important)

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

*starts home workout* "Huh, it's taking me longer to recover between sets, that's weird..." *looks over at thermometer* "Ohhh..."

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

I've had a lot of obligations and stuff I *have* to do recently. So today, the first day for what feels like a long time, I had no commitments, and gave myself permission to do whatever I wanted, including nothing. No pressure, not even on personal projects. It's been really nice, and much needed.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

Urgh, our daily team "standup" calls are now routinely 30 minutes long, mainly because of one guy who won't shut up...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

I rather like how "masked content creator" is a bit of a thing, especially on Instagram. It's rather "polluted" my actor feed 😜 Considering how much I like masks/creature acting, it's mad how I don't yet own a silicone mask. Or have much of a collection. It requires ideas, commitment, enthusiasm.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

This week, I will mostly be trying not to let all the time-sensitive tasks and pressures and responsibilities that are all piling up on me overwhelm me, while just getting on with them all... (I can't wait until Sunday. I'm officially doing fuck all on Sunday. Gonna be great.)

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

Just finished watching Tron Ares. Definitely a spectacle, but it makes little sense, and is weirdly... emotionally bland. Nice armour, though. And interesting choice of Nine Inch Nails for the music.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

It feels like reality is starting to set in. AI *does* have its uses, but not to the extent evangelists proselytise. Colleague: "It's clear AI can get you 80% of the way very quickly, but the last 20% takes forever. It's a huge mess." We're also burning through tokens, and rising costs. #bubble

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

I have two orchestral concerts coming up in the next two weekends, one of which is extremely challenging, and... I'm looking forward to them being done. I'm feeling the pressure. I have to practice *hard* whenever I can, so I even have the *hope* of being able to play it all. Fun, but... a lot.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

Blasted through 2 PB's in today's PT, so that's good 🙂 #acronyms

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

I'm learning about AI agents for work... and it's making my skin crawl. I do think there's *some* useful features in software dev, but so many examples I've seen feel extremely lazy, potentially dangerous, or not professional. Perhaps by me learning about it, I can help us avoid mistakes.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a single person in my life I can freely talk about some things with. It often doesn't feel appropriate. Sometimes I want to discuss something, but there's nowhere for that feeling to go. Just a sense of awkwardness and discomfort.

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Note to self - not a good idea to practice an *extremely* high orchestral trumpet part (fortissimo super F's, for anyone who knows), immediately after a workout. I nearly passed out, heh 😅

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

Dammit! So, a few years ago, I withdrew from a huge audition for a lead creature role in a large "indie" film. My reason? I couldn't afford the 3 months off work they said I'd need. I've just watched a behind the scenes video. It was filmed in 6 weeks. Not 3 months. Might've been doable. Grrrr...

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Durandal @durandal2uk.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

While out on my (2nd) walk today, I got thinking. It's quite common for people to have self-berating thoughts. But I've never related to that, as it's not something I've generally struggled with. I recognised today I have a different mental vocabulary that's more subtle in its destructiveness.

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