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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

I fucking hate putting so much out there in the world and getting nothing back.

Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Hard lesson in healthcare: Sometimes you can do everything right and there is still a bad outcome. You can't control the situation you get handed, just gotta do your best with it.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Sometimes there are themes to what comes in on call. Sometimes those themes are bad.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

With the state of public health and the partisan fuckery, I’m surprised they would publish it all.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

I can take a punch, and hold back. I can not fall. I can be better than what is thrown at me.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

Being backed in to an emotional/relationship corner sucks. Say something and be perceived as disruptive. Let it continue as is and let the emotion damage continue. If you treated them as you are being treated, they wouldn’t stand for it, so why should you? Value yourself and stand up.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

Ah yes, the classic conundrum of being an essential part of your family, but unable to ask questions or have any personal stipulations. Be perfect, but don’t get any help. Certainly don’t request any consistency from those around you.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Lets people know when they did a good job. Also, I like that when people do the same.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I’ve decided I’m gonna keep adding to this thread, as affirmations that I’m doing somethings right:

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

Remembers. Almost everything. It’s almost a curse.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I’m the type of guy that: Thinks before responding. I’m not slow, but metered.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Trembling Aspen always whispering...

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Officially the fuck-off-o’clock part of the day.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Whoever put the employee assistance posters in the bathrooms (where people go to cry and be alone) that’s a good idea.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Rinse and repeat. Another fucking day.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Deathbed recanting and wishing for magic help that was too late kinda broke me.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

I wish my people could regulate their feelings because they step all over mine.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

Turning up the music to literally drown out the feelings.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Nobody knows I’m unhappy and tired AF.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 20/05/2026

Another day where I feel like the invisible lynchpin of work and home life.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

Toughest when you're the foundation for another whole system, but are paid no attention. Slowly the world undermines you, and no one notices. No one will notice until the floor drops away from beneath them, and they will gasp as they fall. How long has it been happening?

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

Not wanting to be in your own home. Not feeling at home where you grew up. Not being appreciated for what you do. Not being allowed to express your feelings. Not being seen. Not wanting to be here.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 18/11/2024

People have limited energy. Choose people who save some for you.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 30/10/2024

Tides of life. A rush of panic. A flood of relief. Hesitation, at the edge. Worry at the potential trauma. Dreams of the potential. Gravity is relentless. Go or don’t. Frozen at the edge.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 30/10/2024

She was in the Horror section, looking for her next read for the dark, damp nights of fall. He had been bitten on the last full moon and was looking for a lycanthropy self help book. Their hands touched as they both reached for the last copy "Werewolves 101"

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 29/10/2024

When you find yourself alone, in one of those liminal spaces, you've just left the presence of others, thoughts that have been held back, spring from your mouth, an unvarnished truth, bubbling from the depths "Fuck my life"

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 23/10/2024

Stay strong. You're not alone. Cut off, but we are still with you. Reach out if you can, to let the world know you are okay. Don't be afraid to ask for help, you would be surprised by the response.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 23/10/2024

If you think this is about you, you're right.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 23/10/2024

Do what you need to. Do what you need to make it through. Do what you need to, to get to the next step. Do what you need to, to see the next sunrise. Do what you need to, to see the full moon. Do what you need to, to see your freedom. Do what you need to, so we can be together.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 22/10/2024

I see you. It will be okay. Even if it isn't right now, it can be. Steps in the right direction are never wasted, even if you lose some progress. Don't measure "being okay" on the scale of days. It will take, weeks, months, years. Even if you do it for those who need you now. It will be worth it.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 22/10/2024

I see you, hiding. I worry, and wonder. Wonder if you're okay. Worry that you aren't. Hope that it's something minor. Think that it probably isn't. Wonder if there's something I can do... Know that there isn't. Waiting is hard.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

Here I am again on Bluesky, waiting for everyone else in my house to fall asleep.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

and then there is the contrast. The contrast with the rest of your life. Where that kind of behavior would never be tolerated. Also the contrast, to the joy that is absent, but present elsewhere. Sure the thrill of the chase and lives imagined in other circumstances are enticing.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

What do you do when someone's way with you ... can affect you so much? At that they feel they can be the least careful with you, because ??? why. Because they think you can take it? Because they spend so much time being careful with everyone else? Because they think it doesn't affect you?

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

I put up some posts awhile back that we very raw and personal. I don't regret it. For years, I've "diaried" by typing or writing out letters to myself. It helps, in the moment. Clarity of thought, I suppose, to flesh it out into words on paper or the screen.

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

Anyways, I'm having the bad day now. So maybe that worked?

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Medical Bad days @docdarkthoughts.bsky.social · 17/10/2024

I wrote a poem about someone that I thought was having a bad day. It was bad, but what ever.

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