iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 19/01/2025

kinda happy that i never downloaded tiktok, im watching these people panic and have withdrawls from afar

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

whwhwhhwhw, traffic definitely slowed while i was gone

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 18/01/2025

i was literally having breakdowns everyday in december... i think my mental health is a little okay now

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

half of me wants help, and the other half doesnt want help at all i know i need help but who do i ask for help? i dont know who to ask im so fucking stypid ive been contempaltinghelp since september and i told myself i would get a therapist by first week of steptember max, And now im here.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

literally sitting in this parking garage alone and im sobbing because damn i really have 0 friends n 0 social life and not even my family likes me, theyre so tired of me,

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

i fucking hate my father i hope he dies now please please please

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

i want to give up so badly, what else can i do? im so drained and tired. time keeps moving, i dont want it to move, but it moves

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

my friend's bf broke up with her, im on text trying to make her feel better, but she seems irritated. she is mad at me for no reason. and my mood is already ruined so much. ghhhhghggh

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

i hate this damn family so badly. another fucking issue with my clothes. i wasnt even wearing a crop-top... the shirt just hiked up a bit, and exposed a bit of my belly-button. my mother told me to change.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

mann... everyone seems so happy on this app. i feel like im gonna ruin something when i go on here and talk about my horrible life

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

why do i have actual Responsibilities, im not built for this

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

nobody was gonna tell me that ive had the halloween pumpkin in my name since october omg

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

my father doesnt even like me. i could see him hesitating.he didnt even want to go to my birthday dinner. he fucking hates me. he hates his first born child and he wants her gone and outof the house. he was never that obvious with hating me but now he doesnt even care anymore damnnnnnittttttttttttt

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

can my father's existence just stop being so annoying? the way he moves, the way he absentmindedly makes a guttural-noise-sigh every 5 fucking seconds, his heavy steps on the tile floor. its so annoying and its pissing me off. i just cant stop zeroing-in on it.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

this friday i kinda just want to stay home in bed 😞 im not made for the clubs

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ℭ𝔥𝔢𝔯𝔯𝔶 𔓎 @cherry-gh0ul.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

last account got t3rmed. was cherry-gh0st ⋆♱✮♱⋆ come find me you little psychos i miss you

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

at that point of depression where i stopped brushing my teeth, stopped washing my face, started layering my clothes because its tiring to change them. when i get home i just immediately sleep and end up waking at 4am

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

my presentation sucked today 🙂 i stood there for 20 seconds, literally BLANKED in front of everyone

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

life-changing video essay for a chemistry nerd like me

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mizumizu esta MORTO @shellvisionshipper.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

ED= Encontro Diabolico TA = Tenho Aids MF = Mamo Feio NF = Não Fodo IMC = Indo Matar Crianças PI = Pênis Incrível PA = Peitos de Amamentadoras OMAD = os maiores adoradores do diabo BC = boquete cabeludo

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

i feel so sad; i just want to light a cigarette, read a book, and lay in the grass

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

dick piercings make me so sad... why are you torturing it. why are you putting so much metal onto that thing. literally, have you seen a pierced dick? they look fucking scary

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

my maintenance calories is 14,200 per week. if there are 52 weeks in a year, that means im eating 738k calories yearly. but sometimes i go over my limit, so i can bring that to 850k calories consumed yearly... and before my ed, i mustve been eating 1 million calories a year....

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

im trying to trigger myself into being ortho just for this month. like, im freaking out because im going to cali, and i feel so fat, i need everyone to be shocked how thin i am

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

what do you mean december 1st is tomorrow???? is there no november 31st?????????? ohmygoddddd

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 30/11/2024

worst day ever, i was the most biggest 3rd-wheel ever omfg just leave me alone and dont invite me anywhere, i was already fine at home

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

fuck my life, i actually have to socialise today with my friends. and theyre getting pizza afterwards. amazing

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

i really want to make a Google Docs list of all the ED books ive read 😖

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

gonna fast this thanksgiving, my family doesnt care about the holiday so i have no excuse to not loose weight 😥

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

this is why i will always say that fatphobia is just a projection of insecurity ngl. it can never not be. same with bullying, you dont be mean just to be mean. there is always some reason why you want to make others feel bad.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

i feel like...incredibly fatphobic around my father. thats it. im so ashamed of my body, i take my anger of hating my own body out on him. in my dreams, im calling him fat, making fun of what he eats. i call him unathletic, lazy. because he caused me lots of pain, this is how i feel better.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

i feel like giving up; i have spent the last 6 hours trying to cram 3-weeks-worth of content for my test this morning. depression is literally failing me. i genuinely hate this. and then final exams are in a month... please. i genuinely cant do it.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 26/11/2024

this is getting absurd... i took a nap for 15 minutes and i still got sleep paralysis

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

eating 1 bite of food for every 3 bites everyone else eats...

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 25/11/2024

i feel so insane and bizarre. i have the feeling of cutting all of my hair off...? even though my hair literally did nothing to me.

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

holy shit. i need to throw up so badly. but im very close to 6-months purge free, damn damn damn damn damn

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

twitter just sucks now. the same 3 loyal oomfs keep liking my posts. i love them a lot; though i interact with so many of my followers and they never share the sentiment back

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

watching my sister accidentally cut herself with the kitchen knife; she said that she got lightheaded and had to lay down? its just a small cut on the fingerpad? thank god i didnt get that gene 😖

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

lowkey wish that the apple watch would yell at you if you didnt meet your activity goals

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

this was my mother's ex-colleague, rest in peace 😦💔 www.themirror.com/news/us-news...

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

stole this from the tl... #caterpillarsky reply and i will tell you if you give older / middle / younger / only child vibes

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

can i admit that sometimes i want to give people meanspo (when they ask for it), but i dont because i dont want to look like *that*

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 23/11/2024

anyone else missing their lw? (6lbs when i was a newborn)

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

ive been on a liquids-only diet for 5 days now (to loose weight) and its fucking killing me

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sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

i would be excited for the weekend but i have work sunday afternoon. whats the point

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 21/11/2024

pinned post —————— edsky confessions account! — seek advice, vent, ramble, speak your mind through this form! — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

sepia 🎄 @deserpaux.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

anyone else have realllyyyy random old people follow them?

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