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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 16/01/2025

🍓 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? they/them
what’s up? i use ed twt / sky popularity as a way to boost my ego and motivate myself. i used to have a big ed twt acc to the point i was getting like 5k likes and it would encourage me so bad. ppl being worried for me actually helped me go further and ppl being jealous made me feel good. i miss it. that’s why i’m here bc it’s hard to talk to ppl on twt now so i’m here to have the same experience .. i think i have ego problems
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 06/01/2025

bonesrbeautiful — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she her
what’s up? i don't know how i feel. i know that sounds stupid, because of course you know how you feel- but most of the time i don't. or when im around friends im all happy but as soon as their gone im how i was. depressed. im probably faking it but i could be having a mental breakdown and then go back to normal in a heartbeat. wtf is wrong with me chat
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/01/2025

⛓️ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? it/it’s
what’s up? i’d rather use my food stamps to buy food for my friends and loved ones than for myself. i’ll pick up a few things for myself but i really feel like i don’t deserve good food.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 03/01/2025

💎✨ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? I've been ED clean/free/recovering for like 5 years (3rd year of uni now, stopped end of year 10/grade 11) and idk recently everything just came back crazy. I think my BMI slipped to the overweight zone and that really really triggered me, plus I've not really been feeling in control recently, and lots of my clothes have stopped fitting. I want to fast and starve and lose weight but at the same time I'm a bit scared and hesitant because I know it's probably bad. At the same time tho I'm so addicted to looking at thinspo and wanting to be so thin, and the diet posts where ppl eat like 400 cals in a day.
Also, I really don't want to lose control over the urges to stop eating, because I know for a fact I'll start sh-ing, and I'm conscious and aware enough rn to know that I really really don't want to do that.
But at the same time, I just want to be thin again.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 31/12/2024

— #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/him
what’s up? i know not everyone wants to be a fashionista or whatever but in my opinion, “skinny is the outfit” is a bit of a lame excuse for having a poor sense of style. im saying this lightheartedly but ive seen people’s outfits and they are either basic and uninteresting i could honestly care less about your weight if u dress like that… if u want to get better at dressing though id say focus on what compliments ur body type and play with layering and even accessorizing if u want too
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 31/12/2024

— #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/him
what’s up? I'm violently fatphobic and I hate pretending like I'm not. I know that I shouldn't hate fat people, but I hate being fat so much so, it seeps into how I view others. It's only going to get worse, the more I lose weight. I know for a fact that when I get to straight sizes I will be outwardly fatphobic.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 30/12/2024

— #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? She/her
what’s up? HOW DO I LOSE FAT ON MY THIGHS LIKE EVERYWHERE ELSE IS SKINNY ENOUGHT FOR ME (for now 😈) BUT OH MY FUCKING GOD MY THIGHS WON'T GO AWAY EVEN WHEN I LOSE LIKE 5-10KG THEY'RE THE EXACT SAME
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 28/12/2024

🎂 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? they/them
what’s up? I love him soso much he won't say he loves me yet he keeps saying it takes him a long time I want to be so small he worries about me I want him to hold me and take care of me forever. I gave him my body when I'm trying to lose weight to not be sexualised I trusted him with my body so why won't he love me. he's born in the same month as my rapist and everything is confusing and new and strange and I never trust men with my body I just want to scream and starve but when I see him he forces me to eat and even hand feeds me why if he doesn't love me😭😭😭
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 25/12/2024

☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? it/its
what’s up? I’m scared my family might find out about my depression and im worried they wont accept me for the way i am. (Im bisexual)
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 24/12/2024

🩻 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/him
what’s up? The other day I was about to purge but my mom needed to use the restroom and I hadn’t started yet so I let her go but I left the seat up so she asks me if I’m purging and I lie and say I was trying to pee like a boy. I’m a trans man so it wasn’t the wildest thing and I could just blame it on dysphoria. And she fucking believed me. Scariest thing ever istg
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 23/12/2024

Annie 🎀 🩰 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? She they
what’s up? I hate how the stereotype is that rich or privileged girls are the only ppl who get Ed’s. I’m homeless and rationing food, my life depends on it. Having an Ed just makes it easier to bear tbh. Easier to romanticise and therefore live with. The Ed predates the homelessness but has always been there thru my entire life of poverty. It’s wild
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 22/12/2024

🪼 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any pronoun
what’s up? sometimes i feel like im not bulimic enough because i actually hate trying to vomit… like laxatives arent enough, sometimes i walking it off isnt easily accessible for me, and fasting makes me wanna die bro i wish i could vomit its so much quicker but i hate it
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

🐈‍⬛ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/him
what’s up? im afraid that the abuse i face is all in my head and that everyone goes through it. i get yelled at to the point where i cry, cut myself, and isolate. but then, when i wake up im just a normal, happy person. if i were so abused, i would have bruises, i would be traumatized. i feel like im just dramatic. i feel like depression is a normal thing. i want to die so fucking badly, but i feel like thats normal.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 19/12/2024

— #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? She
what’s up? I want to post more but im too scared loll. Ik it’s MY ACCOUNT FOR ME, but for some reason I take into account ppls thoughts?? Or if its stupid I dont want the smoke or evil eye. I guess the twt/x trauma is too real. I expect ppls negativity at this point
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

😕 ❤️ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? They/them
what’s up? So its been almost two years since I've been on a date and there's this really sweet, cute guy who wants to take me out. We've had sexual tension like crazy and even ended up making out a little bit but the problem is he's my mum's partners son so it feels like stepsibling/incetious.
What do I do?? I really like him and he's treated me way better than all my exes combined in just a few days but it feels wrong.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 18/12/2024

🍔 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/him
what’s up? I'm obsessed with fat activism I watch fatfluencers as fuel to starve I should feel bad but I also think they're hurting people with their message that fat has no impact on health so maybe we're all in the wrong here?
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

— #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any pronouns
what’s up? a few weeks ago when i was shopping i went into this store and bought a super cute sweater and when i caught up with my mom she was like “why did you shop at (plus sized store)?” and i was like ??? “i wasn't shopping at a plus sized store” past time i checked i was inside francescas but anyway i was starting to feel paranoid cause what if the cashier gave me that bag with the plus size store name to make fun of me like im sure thats not the case… maybe theyre just recycling but it literally fucked me up all day and i hate how my mom had to point that out like was that necessary 🫤
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

🪡🍬 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any
what’s up? My chest bones are slightly showing! But I’ve gained weight, and I feel like I’m faking more than anything. Also, how do you guys get thinner waists? I plan on getting a waist trainer, but are there any exercises I can do? I work out daily for about an hour or so, HIIT workouts, and I’ve done nothing but gain weight. Would replacing it with pilates be better?
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

winterprincess — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she her
what’s up? i honestly don't like my sister. everytime i try to talk to her she yells and gets mad and when i was venting to her most of the time she tells me to suck it up or that i have it better than what she has. we live in an abusive household and she said she was also suicidal at a young age and our parents found out and basically told her she's too young for that. but when they found out i was they stripped me and body checked me, not too sure if she knows all the names and shaming they said to me. when they found my cuts they asked if i had anything else i had to share to disappoint them with. idk why she would want that version of events but wtv. oh and also i probably dont like her bc when i was 11 and we were up at 1 am she asked if she could watch me m@sturbate with the 8 inch bubble stick wands to see if she was "doing it right.” i think that lowkey traumatized me bc she even tried to take off my underwear 😭 but people say im wrong to hate her so i jst wanted to see if i was valid (also she was like 14-15)
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 15/12/2024

apple bottom jeans boots with the fur — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? I wish more practitioners & insurance companies recognized & knew how to deal with atypical anorexia. I know it is treated more as restriction but it is more than that.
When I was getting evaluated at my PCP to get into res- I had a murmur, that light blonde body hair all over my arms, mild edema in my legs, and tonssss of electrolyte imbalances.
I lost an extreme amount of weight in a short time before I was given an ultimatum from my family to enter treatment.
Despite my doctors notes, therapist notes and intake specialist notes. I was denied 3 times. It wasn't until I was in PHP that everyone was like.. "Oh.. we can't help her here." YEA NO SHIT I TRIED TELLING YALL. They ended up chalking it up into bulimia bc of the exercise purging and insurance was like "Yeah know what? hell ya we will approve it now.”
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

🌻 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/they
what’s up? i keep thinking “am i really disordered?” when i’ve been told that i eat like a bird and i have said i’m full from eating the equivalent to 5 teaspoons of rice… also i just know for a fact that the moment i move into my own apartment, my fridge will be EMPTY af because if i’m not gonna eat, might as well save money by not buying food in the first place. actually, i think that’s the only reason i’m convinced i won’t end up poverty…
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 14/12/2024

🦞🎸 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/Him
what’s up? Can we make sure to not go nuts over cis guys on edsky now? Like back on edtwt I feel like all the girlies just forgot that they can also sexually harass guys too, and it'd be like Russian Roulette whether your account was allowed to chill with other guys (including trans guys fyi) and a couple chicks that were normal about it, or if your account would be one of the ones that got shotput to edtwt fame to get lowkey sexually harassed by one side and attacked by the other side for being 'just a dude'. Can we not do that this time? Disordered gymbros and Ana dudes should be allowed to express their struggles too, without worrying about being sexualized and harassed. So just be chill please? 🥺
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 13/12/2024

😇🥹🥺 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/him/his
what’s up? Sometimes if I really want my dogs attention or if I want her to be with me/sleep with me, I’ll make my room really cold and then the fan on just so she’ll go in my covers and cuddle with me because she’ll think I’ll keep her warm. Then she’ll fall asleep on my arm or stomach. It’s just a really cute feeling and it makes me feel happy and less alone. Idk if that’s selfish or not.
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shsky confessions! @shskyconfessions.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 11/12/2024

⛔ — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/ey
what’s up? I know my friend is on here and she doesn't know it's me because I use another name on here, and I don't follow her but I do check her account daily to see how many calories she eats, so that I can beat it and go lower. It's toxic but she's always been tinier and smaller than me, and I can't let her beat me in it again. I feel like a shit person.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 10/12/2024

🌷 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/xe/voi
what’s up? // tw CSA
It's insane to think that I've been disordered since like age, 7. I was sexually abused as a small kid and it immediately jumped into my head that if I was smaller, maybe it wouldn't happen, but it kept happening, and my mindset switched to 'Maybe if I was even smaller, I will be disgusting and it won't happen ever again'. I've been healthy size, fat, severely underweight, everything. But it kept happening. I still sometimes think that if I was bmi 10, nobody would want to hurt me again, but I know it's not true.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

💃🙏🏾 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/fae/faer
what’s up? as a kid, i had food taken away from me as a punishment. i was severely neglected, i was left to die at numerous points when i was just a kid. i was locked in cages, fed slop, etc. i was literally treated like an animal. today, i’m totally out of control with my ED. i weigh over 200 pounds because i eat continuously. i hate that i’m like this. i want to get the help but i genuinely can’t afford it. i just wanted to vent. i’m sorry.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

Eow — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/him

what’s up? I hate how fat I've gotten from this disorder

I've always struggled with body image, but this a whole nother level of struggling. I can't stand to see myself in the mirror. Everytime I see myself I'm like "that isn't me" "who is this?" I'm a different person. A person that I despise. I can hardly bath regularly because I can't stand looking at my body because of how disgusting I feel.

And the more disgusting I feel, the more I eat. Thinness is my ultimate goal. My ONLY goal. Everything that I do is in the pursuit of thinness. Because in MY mind, I think that being thin will solve all my problems. But the more I think about how I will never get there, the more I binge.

I can't even do a slight calorie deficit anymore! It's just binge or overeating. I've gained 5lbs now and it's really taking a toll on me.

I'm embarrassed to go outside because everyone will see my gluttony hanging from my body. It's humiliating having to walk around like that.

I've tried to hate food. I've tried to do hobbies. Set new goals. Etc. But nothing came of it. I've tried to "Love myself" but it doesn't work because I don't want to be me. I don't want to accept this disgusting body. I don't want it. I've been thinking about giving up and just going all in on this and to stop fighting.

It's so exhausting. I'm ready to just give up now.

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

🐈 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any
what’s up? my family needs to lose weight for their health and when they forreal be doing that i get a sinking feeling in my stomach knowing that i am "losing" to them? since when was this a competition to my mind.. i hate it..
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 08/12/2024

🆘 — #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #caterpillarsky

pronouns? he/they
what’s up? I feel like a fake because I'm not skinny yet. I've been dealing with with this ED since I was 17 and now I'm almost 20. There was a point where I was out of the 200 pound range but I partially recovered and gained over 50 pounds back and now I'm back into the 200 pound range. I feel unlovable because I feel like I can't do anything right, especially this ED but I have gotten better with my ED, which is a win.
Maybe if I was skinnier, then maybe I would be loved more, seen more, and cared about more. Then maybe people would actually gaf about me and notice me. Part of me is doing this ED so my boyfriend worries about me even though I hate to make him worry about me.
Part of me wants full recovery but I don't want to gain back the weight I already lost during this relapse and I'm scared to be obese my whole life because society treats obese people terribly. I think I'll recover once I'm in the 150 pound range.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

dig — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? xe/it
what’s up? i honestly couldn’t care less if people use me as fatspo. i’d rather it be me than someone who’s not expecting it, and frankly, not looking how i do should also be a goal for most people since my body is also the result of a severe ed (binging)
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 07/12/2024

🫧🥛 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/him
what’s up? We need more threads on edsky!! The only thing i miss on edtwt is the threads- foodspo, thinspo, tips/tricks, diets, etc! I miss it so much plz plz plz guys lets get ourselves together and post threads more
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

idk — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any pronouns
what’s up? is my ED making me asexual, i feel like this part of me died 5 years ago and i'm just realizing now. idk how to feel about that lol kinda feel sorry for all the people i've been with
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

— #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? at the beginning of my ed, I was hellbent on being the skinniest in my family despite that I almost was. I used to put butter and oil in my siblings foods when I had to cook for them and I would bake sweets and stuff so that they’d eat more.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

🕊️ — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? they/them
what’s up? I have a friend in uni and she has like a ton of diagnoses like bpd and anorexia. she is in recovery I think like she talks a lot about trying to get better and like actually eat and her anorexia looks less like an obsession with calories and more like stress starving but yeah she seems to be doing better and I'm really happy about that.
however. we're really close and I want to actively get worse. I am overweight but I do all the things like checking calories of stuff in the store and putting them in my phone and stuff. and I reaaaaaally don't want to accidentally make her worse (because I also think I'm her fp oopsie) but I want Myself to get so sick and it's just such a weird balance!
idk it's just on my mind every day I kinda calm myself down with the thought of if I don't Say disordered shit or talk about cals then we both are alright.
she did see me cry over the fact that I ordered a kids veggie salad and they added oil in it though 💀💀🤧

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 05/12/2024

🫶😔 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? i follow everyone i went through the hard v soft edtwt battles and the fatphobes v anti fatphobes spaces war and shit before that and atp i’m so tired i truly believe we all have smth twisted in us surrounding weight & im tired of policing who is the most vocal abt it…harassment is bad obvi but atp idgaf i’ve been thugging this out since the 6th grade and i’m not telling anyone who’s been through the same to dni bc they’re a bit of a jerk abt it…idk ig wondering if anyone feels the same or wants to tell me off abt it
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

:/ — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? i’ve only relapsed due to a delusional thought tbh i met my husband through college and we’re friends with another lady on fb from college as well. he doesn’t like her selfies but likes the memes she shares. i’ve told myself that he wanted to be w her instead bc she’s so much more prettier than me (long hair, tattooed, skinny body, perfect smile. etc etc) even though there’s absolutely no evidence that they’re even talking in the slightest. he reassures me every day even though i’m crying about it saying “it’s because of societal issues i don’t feel pretty” but it’s really because of that. it fuels my disorder. it fuels me to lose weight because i know once i get my ugw ill be prettier than her.

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

🦆 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? He/they
what’s up? I dug my nails in the back of my throat so hard while purging I started to bleed
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

🦊 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? any
what’s up? i really wish i could be even slightly open about my ed with my family and my partner....... i live alone atm but when i visit them for stretches of time it's completely impossible to control my intake; before i relapsed i was such a big eater and eating anything slightly lower than maintenance would make them suspicious or concerned. ofc i love them and it's nice that they care about me n my health but it feels like i'm wasting so much time i could be using to get closer to my goals :(
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

🤍 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/they
what’s up? i am so sick of people calling the edtwt community bad or evil, i just saw a post today saying they were bad and like??? 😭??? were just existing, why cant we have our own community? our disorder doesn't affect other people unless they want it to
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

💜🪻 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? As a kid I was a really picky eater, basically I only ever liked a few foods. It was all really unhealthy food like chicken nuggets, Mac and cheese, chocolate, cereal, pizza, etc. I was always being told that I was too picky, and needed to eat healthier because if I didn’t I’d grow up to become fat. Growing up watching shows like the biggest loser really made me afraid of becoming fat because I couldn’t see myself doing what they did to lose weight. I remember living basically my whole life seeing myself as fat, wishing I could be forced to go on a diet. My parents did force me to exercise sometimes though. I just wished I could be thin so I could like my body. Now I’m “thin” and hate my body. I think of child me and how she suffered so much without realizing it. It’s crazy how far back a disordered mindset can arise in retrospect, though I didn’t acquire disordered eating until about 10 years after these events happened.

are you looking for anything specific from this confession? understanding and wanted to get it off my chest

edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

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pronouns? any
what’s up? i feel so invalidated when i poop. i hate being constipated but whenever i do poop i feel fake because it means i ate enough to poop.
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

♟️ — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/they
what’s up? i really want to restrict. i want to restrict and become skinny and frail and almost alien-like. i want to restrict to become infertile, but… i can’t stop binge eating. i’m too obsessed with eating. it’s taking over my life. i’m becoming uncontrollably fat and there’s nothing i can do but watch as my body goes through all of it. i can’t even restrict because i need to eat all day long. i’ve never started restricting but i keep gaining more and more. i feel so sick all the time and i still can’t stop. i feel like an embarrassment to me and my family for every bite. i can’t even control myself. i eat 3000+ calories every day. i used to be able to be normal but i can’t anymore. i have this massive burden on my heart and my body, all the fat i’m gaining… i don’t know what to do. i just keep eating. i don’t even know if it’s emotionally or just because i can’t handle not being full. i don’t even know what being full feels like. i just eat until i can barely hold it down and i’m almost puking and then i stop. i don’t even purge or anything. i’m so shameful. i feel so wasteful and like i’m committing the sin of gluttony. it’s all betrayal to me. i don’t know how to stop binging. i can’t find any answers for it no matter how i search. i’m not sure i can convince my body to stop even if i sewed my mouth shut. i have to end it here bc i keep crying and i need to stop losing my composure

are you looking for anything specific from this confession? advice, understanding, wanted to get it off my chest

edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 03/12/2024

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pronouns? she/her
what’s up? lowkey wanted to try to get better but everyone in my life makes mental illness a competition which just makes me want to get worse so thanks ig 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️ at least i’m actually sticking to it this time
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

mimimimi — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she her
what’s up? i've had reoccuring thoughts of wanting to be kidnapped or restricted of food in some form of way during the times that i wasnt attempting to recover, and i gen feel so guilty bc the only reason why i want to be kidnapped and starved is to just to be skinny and ik that actual ppl who have actually been kidnapped would never wish this upon anyone. like i remember back then when i was at my worst and had rly depressing suicidal thoughts i literally would set myself up at night by walking alone and sometimes hoping that maybe smth happened to me and i would have to go to the hospital, or be "traumatized" and use that excuse as a reason why i don't have an appetite or smth and i gen feel so guilty for this

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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

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pronouns? He/Him
what’s up? I love Cinnamon Toast Crunch and I ate an ungodly amount today and that makes me sad. Anyways what's y'all's favorite cereal?
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

🫶🏽 — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/they
what’s up? my body is genuinely so disgusting and i’m surprised my boyfriend hasn’t left me yet because of it. i just want to get smaller for him so he doesn’t leave me and so i can look at myself without wanting to die.
are you looking for anything specific from this confession? wanted to get it off my chest and not really

edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

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pronouns? any
what’s up? i’ve hit a plateau after losing ~9kg and i’m struggling to stay low cal and to fast. i’m hungry and keep thinking about food even tho i don’t want to eat
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 02/12/2024

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pronouns? Any
what’s up? I used to be CONCERNINGLY into South Park ED Twitter
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edsky confessions @edskyconfessions.bsky.social · 01/12/2024

a shark emoji — #edtwt #edsky #edbsky #shedsky #shedtwt #caterpillarsky

pronouns? she/her
what’s up? I wish I could see myself the way I see others. If I saw someone at my weight I wouldn't think they're gross or ugly but I don't know if I'll ever see myself in a positive light. Hopefully if I lose enough weight I'll stop hating myself so much.
are you looking for anything specific from this confession? wanted to get it off my chest