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Fred Rossi

@darthfoo.bsky.social
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I write about shrinking reserves from #LongCOVID and #MECFS with brutal honesty and zero fluff. Also: Star Wars, comics, cats, and Penguins goals. 🚨 #LetsGoPens #PwME darthfoo.substack.com

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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20h
I'm missing Genie a lot today. It's #fall, my favorite season, and I can't get out in #nature or #hike the way I used to. I've been going through old #photos. They make me smile and cry at the same time. substack.com/@darthfoo/no... #LongCOVID #MECFS #Disabled #Sad
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I'm missing Genie a lot today. It's fall, my favorite season, and I can't get out in nature or hike the way I used to. I've been going through old photos. They make me smile and cry at the same time.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
I started writing the lyrics for this song on July 24, 2026. It was just 48 hours after we had to say goodbye to Genie. The pain was still raw. I felt lost. I didn’t really know what I wanted to say. I just knew I needed to write something. #LongCOVID #MECFS #Grief #ChronicIllness #Cats
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/09/2026
Yesterday I went to a friend’s memorial. Today I’m paying for it physically, cognitively and emotionally. I’m in #PEM now. Repeated crashes can mean longer recovery and a lower baseline. Sometimes you spend energy you don’t have because something matters. Yesterday mattered. #MECFS #LongCOVID
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 18/09/2026
It’s nearly 5 a.m. I haven’t slept. The pain won’t let me. I’m trying to write, but the pain makes it hard to even think. Words that should come easily just don’t. This is life with Long COVID and ME/CFS. Even lying still in the dark can cost more than you have. #LongCOVID #MECFS #ChronicIllness
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 15/09/2026
Today has been hard. The pain is relentless, and my muscles feel like they simply don’t have anything left to give. Standing hurts. Moving hurts. Existing in my body hurts. Long COVID and ME/CFS can reduce an entire day to simply enduring it. #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 24/08/2026
The cognitive fatigue dam has broken. Terrible PEM today. The grief over Genie has hit too. I miss my baby girl very much. This is the last photo I took of her. This is life with #LongCOVID and #MECFS. #PEM #Grief #Cats substack.com/home/post/p-...
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 23/08/2026
“Four weeks ago I made four very large withdrawals in four days. The account did not have the funds. The body is still presenting the bill.” #LongCovid #MECFS #PwME #ChronicIllness #Grief substack.com/home/post/p-...
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Four Weeks
There is a version of the last four weeks that is hard to explain to a healthy person.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 19/08/2026
Visible said I woke up a few points better. Then three to four hours on the phone with our health coverage. Flat on my back, AirPods in, eyes closed. There goes the day’s energy budget. More calls tomorrow, and I need to shower. 🤦‍♂️ This is life with #LongCOVID and #MECFS.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 11/08/2026
“I am borrowing a horizon, because mine has been four walls and a ceiling for a long time, and a person needs somewhere to look.” #LongCOVID #MECFS #Disabled #Gaming #Reading #Tools #AI darthfoo.substack.com/p/twelve-per...
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Twelve Percent
A year with Breath of the Wild, and what it actually costs to play a video game
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 04/08/2026
I’ve been re-reading what I wrote back in October, the essay where I laid out how this works. Full-time to demotion to part-time to eventual departure when even part-time becomes unsustainable. #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #ChronicIllness #Disability #Grief #Work darthfoo.substack.com/p/when-showi...
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When Showing Up Is Not Enough
Why Employers Must Learn the Economics of Chronic Illness
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 03/08/2026
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 29/07/2026
July 2026 can go fuck itself.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 23/07/2026
We had to say goodbye to Genie today. We helped end her suffering at 4:03pm. I’ll be away for a while. We loved you every day, Genie; your suffering ended today, sweet girl; ours begins. Hug your fur babies tight.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 16/07/2026
@mattreevesla.bsky.social That camera test today was exactly the kind of crumb that keeps us going. February 2028 feels a lot more bearable with little glimpses like that. Please keep them coming, they mean the world to us. 🙏🙏🙏 #TheBatman #TheBatman2
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 10/07/2026
Long day at Hopkins yesterday. 2 hours each way, and #Tesla FSD carried the drive so we didn't have to burn energy I don't have. Today I'm paying for it anyway. That's the math of chronic illness: even the wins cost something. #LongCovid #MECFS #ChronicIllness #FSD
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Techmeme @techmeme.com · 08/07/2026
OpenAI launches GPT-Live, a new generation of voice models built on a full-duplex architecture, meaning they can listen and speak at the same time (OpenAI) Main Link | Techmeme Permalink
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 02/07/2026
Will I ever be able to do anything of substance again? That question sits on my chest like a weight. Not rhetorical. Just the math of a life measured in what I don’t have. I don’t know. I’m still here asking. #LongCOVID #MECFS #ChronicIllness #Spoonie #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 01/07/2026
Woke up feeling ok. Sorted & took out the recycling, brought in the trash can, sorted the mail. Four small tasks. That's the whole list. With #LongCOVID & #MECFS, "feeling ok" kills tomorrow's energy today. This is what invisible illness actually costs. #PostExertionalMalaise #ChronicIllness #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/06/2026
I’ve counted what #LongCOVID & #MECFS has taken. This counts the other column. The hour with my wife. A reader who gets the joke. A memory I can hold in an empty house. Not a recovery story. Just the light, counted at the same scale as the loss. #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-small-...
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The Small Things, Counted
I have written a lot about what this disease subtracts.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 21/06/2026
Happy Father’s Day to all the Dad’s out there.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/06/2026
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/06/2026
I’ve counted what #LongCOVID & #MECFS has taken. This counts the other column. The hour with my wife. A reader who gets the joke. A memory I can hold in an empty house. Not a recovery story. Just the light, counted at the same scale as the loss. #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-small-...
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The Small Things, Counted
I have written a lot about what this disease subtracts.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 08/06/2026
The piece and the dialogue around it have taken a lot out of me. I’ve genuinely appreciated every thoughtful response. I may be slow to reply for a bit while I rest. Thank you all. #MECFS #LongCovid #PEM #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-patien...
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The Patient Who Isn’t Supposed to Exist
I taught Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) before Long COVID made me a patient. WIRED got the story exactly backward.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 08/06/2026
The piece and the dialogue around it have taken a lot out of me. I’ve genuinely appreciated every thoughtful response. I may be slow to reply for a bit while I rest. Thank you all. #MECFS #LongCovid #PEM #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-patien...
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The Patient Who Isn’t Supposed to Exist
I taught Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) before Long COVID made me a patient. WIRED got the story exactly backward.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 07/06/2026
For years I was told the way out of this illness was effort. Push through. Build up. Don’t give in. Here’s where that led: “The danger now is not trying too little. It is having tried too hard, for too long, on the theory that effort was the cure.” darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-patien...
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The Patient Who Isn’t Supposed to Exist
I taught Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) before Long COVID made me a patient. WIRED got the story exactly backward.
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Long Covid Advocacy @longcovidadvoc.com · 06/06/2026
This explains A LOT. Levinovitz's new book is called 'Demons by another name: Biology, belief & stories make us sick.' It is clear that brain retaining fits the argument that he is making: that what was deemed as demons are still making us sick & the mind can miracle cure 1/8
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 05/06/2026
They call us obstacles to progress. I’m enrolled in the research. My response to WIRED’s “The Painful Truth About Long Covid.” darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-patien... #LongCOVID #MECFS #Wired #PEM #CBT #GET
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The Patient Who Isn’t Supposed to Exist
I taught Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT) before Long COVID made me a patient. WIRED got the story exactly backward.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 01/06/2026
Nearly 4AM. The muscle, joint and nerve pain is making sleep impossible. This is life with #LongCOVID and #MECFS. #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 01/06/2026
This was my reality before FSD. From my new essay, The Tools That Fit. “There were shifts where I slept in the car afterward. Not because I wanted to. Because I had to.” #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #ChronicIllness #Tesla darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-tools-...
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The Tools That Fit
Technology Didn’t Cure Me. It Just Improved the Math.
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Belasco @belasco.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
Incremental gains are core to being a #pwME &/or a #pwLC Every tiny bit of energy, friction, sludge I shave off can decide if I have the energy to enjoy my tiny life or am just surviving. For me it’s things like coffee left for me in a travel mug, HUE lights, the Visible app, & an ecobee thermostat.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
Saw #TheMandalorian and #Grogu today. A lot of fun, & a real celebration of every era of #StarWars. Original Trilogy, Prequels, Clone Wars, Sequels, & of course Mando and Grogu fans all get something. Wanted it to push the story forward more, but it’s a wonderful entry point.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
Tesla Full Self Driving (FSD) wasn't built for #LongCOVID or #MECFS. The Visible band was. For someone managing energy-limiting illness, both quietly changed the math of my daily life. darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-tools-... #PwME #Technology #TeslaFSD #ChronicIllness #Disabilities #InvisibleIllness
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The Tools That Fit
Technology Didn’t Cure Me. It Just Improved the Math.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 30/05/2026
New essay is up. This one is about the #technology that changed the math. “Neither of these is a fix. But both of them fit.” #LongCOVID #MECFS #ChronicIllness #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-tools-...
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The Tools That Fit
Technology Didn’t Cure Me. It Just Improved the Math.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 29/05/2026
Today is a hard one. Struggling more than usual. Still sending good thoughts to everyone out there. Be well. #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #ChronicIllness youtu.be/i1mosSw4Hh4?...
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 28/05/2026
Heartbreaking news about #ClaudeLemieux. You never know what someone is carrying. Check on the people you love. If you’re struggling, call or text 988. www.tmz.com/2026/05/28/c... #Empathy #Kindness
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Claude Lemieux Died By Suicide
Claude Lemieux, 4x Stanley Cup-winning NHL player, died by suicide, TMZ Sports has learned.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 27/05/2026
#LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #PEM #Pacing #StarWars #Grief substack.com/@darthfoo/no...
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Still Here It has been a while, and I want to fix that. I’ve been up in the night more than I’d like. Pain has a way of stealing sleep and then, paradoxically, giving you quiet hours where the only ...
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 24/05/2026
Invisible Weight, Lyrics: Fred Rossi “I wake with the sun but I don’t feel awake. Every step I take feels like a small mistake The world keeps moving, I just stand still In this quiet battle no one thinks is real.” #MECFS #LongCOVID #PwME #InvisibleIllness darthfoo.substack.com/p/invisible-...
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Invisible Weight
Yesterday was rough.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 21/05/2026
The Mandalorian and Grogu opens this week. I won’t be there opening day. That breaks a streak going back to Return of the Jedi in 1983. Over forty years of first-day Star Wars. Small loss. Still real. Grogu will wait. #StarWars #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/05/2026
#LongCovid #MECFS #PwME substack.com/@darthfoo/no...
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I’ve been in a crash. Not a sudden one. The kind that builds quietly until you look up and realize you’ve been losing ground for weeks. The kind where you start doing the math on what you’ve already ...
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 20/05/2026
Been in a crash. Still climbing out. There’s grief in it, about what’s changed, what’s coming, what I don’t get to choose. I’m not rushing through it. #LongCovid #MECFS #PEM #Disabled #ChronicIllness #Change darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-debt-c...
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The Debt Came Due
Notes From a Crash
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 10/05/2026
“The worst grief in a crash is not being unable to move. It is being unable to be who you are.” From my latest essay, The Inventory of Loss. #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #InvisibleIllness #Grief #Disability #Spoonie darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-invent...
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The Inventory of Loss
What chronic illness takes that no one warns you about
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 07/05/2026
#FuckCancer
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 04/05/2026
A quote from my new piece, The Inventory of Loss. “The grief is ongoing because the illness is ongoing, and new losses arrive as old ones calcify into something you have learned to carry.” darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-invent... #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME
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The Inventory of Loss
What chronic illness takes that no one warns you about
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 02/05/2026
Some debts are financial. Some are physical. This one is about what chronic illness actually takes, catalogued honestly, without softening it. “You grieve the ability to just feel things without doing math first.” #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME darthfoo.substack.com/p/the-invent...
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The Inventory of Loss
What chronic illness takes that no one warns you about
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 28/04/2026
HUGE win tonight boys. Let’s win another one in Philly on Wednesday. When we play our game, we’re hard to play against. #LetsGoPens @pittsburghpenguins.bsky.social
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 24/04/2026
You know that feeling when you didn’t hear what you wanted to hear from your doctor? 🙋‍♂️ #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 23/04/2026
#ChronicIllness, being confined to a bed, and my #PittsburghPenguins losing to the hated #Flyers. I’m depressed. #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 23/04/2026
The @penguinsnhl.bsky.social have looked terrible. They’re are being out played & out coached. The Flyers have us playing their game. They deserve to win. Tocchet deserves the Jack Adams. Dubas needs to get us faster & younger. I fear that means Geno has to go. We better have an active offseason.
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 21/04/2026
A quote from my piece, The Debt Came Due, about navigating #PEM. “I want to be honest about this because the people who read what I write deserve honesty more than they deserve a tidy narrative about resilience. I am depressed.” #LongCOVID #MECFS #PwME #Depressed substack.com/@darthfoo/p-...
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The Debt Came Due
Notes From a Crash
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Fred Rossi @darthfoo.bsky.social · 19/04/2026
Can’t wait for Monday!! #LetsGoPens
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