iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

i have been basically using this website as a pseudo priv twt the whole time ive been using it but i kinda want to use a real priv acc now for opsec reasons so go follow @8dxmoder on there if we cool and im prob gonna stop posting on here

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

i have so many things i want to do but also terrible self discipline to actually do them, i feel like i need some sort of deadline or feared negative consequence to actually be able to do something

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 08/04/2026

electrolysis on the upper lip got me questioning the meaning of life

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

i thought i was gonna lose my job to AI psychosis today but my supervisor had my back and vouched for me luckily, that really ruined my day for those few hours i thought it was over though

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

idk why i hold myself to such unrealistically high standards tbh, like when i want to get good at something i expect to do it faster than anyone ever has which is not really reasonable. i guess its good for the long-term results but means a lot of short-term disappointments

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

saw something pretty normal on my walk today

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

me for some reason 20 minutes after leaving a vc because my social battery ran out

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

genuinely angry rn because why the fuck did the pastor of my parents' church call me by my chosen name as i was leaving the easter service when i explicitly told them i dont wanna be out anywhere irl atm

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

ok i think my T is actually being suppressed now bc i shaved my body a week ago and its still just fuzz and that shit used to grow back fast af when i did it before

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 03/04/2026

bunch of adhd memes have been appearing on my twitter tl and they are hitting a little too close to home icl

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 01/04/2026

that trip took a lot out of me but we're back home, back to dissociation for another month and a half before i have to remember i exist again

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 01/04/2026

6 months estrogenized today

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

spent my tdov getting young man'd by random relatives ive never met before 🥀

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

staying with relatives who im not out to yet until wednesday and hearing my parents refer to me as my deadname again around them actually hits different in a bad way

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

whenever they figure out how to upload your mind to the computer they should make sure i'm the first person to try it out because i cant stand living inside this thing for one more second

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

kinda crazy how they kept me in the hospital for the majority of my first year being born in an effort to keep me alive just for me to want to die anyway

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

forget looking like a girl i would need millions of dollars of surgeries just to not look like an abominable freak of nature without a shirt on

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 28/03/2026

every day i think about how i had the perfect opportunity to turn into a girl while nobody saw me for 2 years in 2020 but was too stupid to know that i wanted that

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 28/03/2026

my optimistic side thinks the boymode might not be safe anymore if i got a good haircut and my doomer side knows the name of a few too many bones. not really sure who to believe here

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

kinda worried my horrible social anxiety will always make me unable to accomplish anything i want for myself

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 25/03/2026

i spiral in dark patterns i'm so sick of going through the motions i wanna be the new routine and i wanna kill the competition and i wanna run like a machine i wanna find another way out

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 24/03/2026

learning japanese so i can read this bullshit

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 22/03/2026

エンジョイ・みっしぃ ☆

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 22/03/2026

i have been much less of a doomer about my transition in the last week or so, i think now that i'm basically doing everything i possibly can medically it has really helped calm me down and assure me that things really can only get better each day from this point forward

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 21/03/2026

１か月経ったのに何も失われなかった

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

my ultimate life goal is travel to japan and only get weird looks because i'm a foreigner and not bc im trans, and speak good enough japanese that i don't get nihongo jouzu'd once and they just assume i must live there

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

today i learned that if u put an ice pack in the freezer it becomes one giant block of ice and does not in fact stay as a pack of smaller ice cubes

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

used trained voice in call for an hour today and it was cringe af esp because it doesnt pass still but it was good endurance practice, its at least nice that i didnt completely want to die while speaking like that. think i just need to use it a lot more to knock out the last few flaws atp

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

being in the wanikani endgame is kinda annoying because ive burned everything that i can actually consistently remember so the only things left in reviews are the kanji and vocab that i keep forgetting over and over

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

i was very good at repping by never leaving my computer for 5 years post covid so i never really said anything too dysphoric before egg crack but this is like the one quote i can find that is so obvious knowing what i know now

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

its warm enough where i can turn on the fan in my room again which means i can voice train without anyone hearing me ^_^ i wanna start using my trained voice in calls but whether my anxiety will let me do it is another question,,,

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 15/03/2026

safe to say im Addicted

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 13/03/2026

even the minoxidil packaging telling me iwnbaw

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 13/03/2026

at work with that Game Capture HD facial swelling hopefully nobody notices

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 12/03/2026

i got a new wallet recently but kept all the stuff i didnt need in my old wallet in case i needed it... today i accidentally took the old wallet when picking up my hrt prescription and had to do the drive home and come back of shame as my expired card declined and i realized i had the old one...

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

this mii channel kinda threatening

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

if u never hear from me again its because ive died from heat stroke at work due to it being 81F but i cant take the hoodie off

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

theyre electrocuting my face tomorrow

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 09/03/2026

mogi all day keeps the dysphoria away

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 05/03/2026

i will never be able to happily exist in the real world, every part of my body is incorrect and/or just doesnt work, better to just live on the internet where people dont ever get to see some other person that isnt me. i wish i could upload my consciousness to my computer and leave this body behind

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 04/03/2026

had electrolysis consult today, it's just a tiny little room but the lady seems nice, will be starting next week. she looked at my face and said yea you can't do laser with that color good thing you came here lol

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 03/03/2026

got a bluetooth adapter for my car so i can listen to spotify instead of the radio and my quality of life has instantly increased by 200%

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 02/03/2026

ok i finally found the courage to scroll far enough in my phone gallery to look at my prehrt pic and i cannot in good faith delude myself that it's doing nothing anymore, this should keep the doomer brainworms away for at least 1 week

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 01/03/2026

this year i want to make a video with all of my mk memories in it, i have been around the community for so long and feel like i just want to show how special it is to me in my own way

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 28/02/2026

i never really appreciated just how long it takes to grow ur hair out until now this shit takes forever

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 27/02/2026

me not figuring myself out by 18 and causing 24yr old me unspeakable amounts of self hatred www.youtube.com/watch?v=oXrb...

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100 gecs - Dumbest girl alive {OFFICIAL VIDEO}

YouTube video by 100 gecs

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Cynda @cyndaq.bsky.social · 27/02/2026

i feel like my trained voice is pretty cute now but i am wayyy too wormed to use it anywhere lol, only like 2 or 3 ppl have heard it cuz i still just want it to be perfect. im not sure how much better i can get it without using it constantly atp though so maybe i just have to deal with it soon

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