@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 25/09/2026This is entirely of my own volition if it happens to turn out this way I talked about this with my first therapist, she reccomended I do not go down this route But I had to be honest about my feelings I'm not smart enough to remember or recall how I've been hurt in the past, all I know is that 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 10/09/2026study criminals, prison, the prison system, the rehabilitation system, study cycles, mental illnesses, the point of no return, sentences, court, justice, brutality, moral economy, incontinence 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 19/08/2026It feels like A low level of despair And you're not getting any answers But you're living okay You can smile at the audience 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 15/07/2026Whenever I can't draw I am in agony because I crave Art is beauty and I crave beauty and therefore I suffer I attach a sense of self onto it and thus suffer Enjoy the process 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 27/06/2026i cant do this, i dont even know if i can blame this on the meds anymore but i cant do this #jiraiposting #jiraisky 040
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 25/06/2026You can't expect anyone to come back to talk to you if you won't understand why they won't talk to you I think you know but you don't want to know It makes me tired, so I should learn to tune you out #jiraiposting #jiraisky 030
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 29/05/2026the biggest jirai of destiny child #destinychild #jiraiposting #jiraikei #lifestylejirai #semele #デスチャ #데스티니차일드 061
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 20/05/2026There's a loud man in the streets yelling over his phone about another, so I'm standing by the window just beside the gap in the curtains and listening to him yell and call the reciever a bitch and piece of shit 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 16/05/2026Dual formalities that barely breach the surface of understanding and are unfazed I have a muzzle that's taped on, hardly capable of remaining still on the jaw and swings And it irritates the skin each time it hits the flesh like an unchecked box, but that's the mind at work too 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 09/05/2026I had this headbag ready for him, didn't need to be bothered by his actions when I'm the one asking to die 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 07/05/2026Youre immortal, and another one sent to be a more physical manifestation of your kama attempts to haunt you (also immortal) They were born for the sake of being your conscience, yet you're very unperturbed Being the wretch you are, you reprimand them for their efforts--- 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 04/05/2026It's like an investment Such a beloved artist won't share those amazing works for free publically, so I'll capitalize off of that sense of closure for my own spreading gains Unxis already been so idolized for their unique style for years, so it's no real surprise people would go to that extent 100
Reposted by Roby @lapithai.art · 04/05/2026Its quite insane to me that artists will sub to unxxi's patreon/fanbox and copy the illustrations they don't release publicly. You mean to tell me you're paying to be a copycat? 0242
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 18/04/2026Good attempts today I think I've just had enough of your perspective for today I live within a cycle 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 11/04/2026hmmmm I'm feeling more discouraged about intimacy and masturbation again complexities of the 5 senses and the mapping of the body doesn't help if you're repulsed by certain smells or textures or feelings and if it isn't pleasurable to begin with, it'll feel like a chore 200
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 06/04/2026actually.. even if christ had risen yesterday, it was technically also a celebration of bunnies too i had no reason to not move the date... hed been fine with it and maybe woudl have let me hangout with bunny that day too thats alright though, today will be bunny day 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 06/04/2026Jackie melted at the sermons today, Christ has risen Christ has risen indeed, Alleluia 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 16/03/2026I talked about how I loved stacking values in painting, and I think this still holds up But I dabble in too much "up and down" achromatic values rather than the chromatics of achromata So I'll still indulge on ambient occlusion and thick painting But I'll mix in a lot of visual interest 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 16/03/20267:37 AM · Mar 8, 2026 Happy international womens day, I woke up to half the white moon fading in and out of my window At church today, let's pray for the whole moon Because I don't think she should be forcing to keep herself awake on the day meant for her 100
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 07/03/2026and if you showed onzye nzxzu this its indecisiveness would render you forced to live to further cement the idea of "nothingness" and folly cuz ofc you can't die by your own terms lest you look weak for taking the easy way out by your oppressors but living is foolish too it can't decide 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 27/02/2026I don't wanna stop drawing I hateeee this but I have to sleep and I wanna hangout with my friend tomorrow but I don't Wana stop drswiwngn 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 24/02/2026Rip sdorica... unlike destiny child by shiftup, I was unable to progress as far due to my devices not being good enough to run it Regardless, chamber chu is my favorite contemporary artist ever, it'll be exciting to see what they make next with their team 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 23/02/2026WAHHHHHHHHHH WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I KNOW I SAID JSUT WANTED TO WORK TODYA BUT I CHANGED MY MINDD I WANNA CUDDLE WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 22/02/2026On a lighter note, I made palitaw for the first time after years yesterday 010
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 22/02/2026not only some troubles recognizing with artstyle differences but with colors too it's still hard to discern the subject is veinte, I'm such an embarrassing artist dude 010
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 22/02/2026IF DESTINY CHILD IS COMING BACK THIS YEAR I HAVE NO EXCUSE ON WAITING TO FINISH THAT SEMELE FANART 000
@cxcxelk.bsky.social · 22/02/2026If you see this, do it ♡ pronouns: any/none ♡ height: 5’1" ♡ zodiac: gemini ♡ smoke: X ♡ tattoos: X ♡ piercings: X ♡ fav color: grey!!!!!!! ♡ fav drink: water, boba, and hot milk tea 010
