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sorry to keep sad posting. i'm sad

i have a bad memory and everyone who knows me knows it. this means that nobody around me treats me like an epistemic authority over my own past. whenever memories conflict i am presumed to be wrong, but also i am presumed to be wrong even as the sole witness (unless it's low stakes)

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i: - ran a read light, - almost rear ended someone, - swerved into the wrong lane, and - missed my turn twice, so PSA: when they tell you not to drive in emotional distress, they're right, and PSA 2: i'm a bad driver

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

this is perhaps embarrassing but i went to a Laurie Anderson concert and since then i've started to feel again and it's unbearable

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

having to recognize that after a year and a half of "oh we'll totally do [kink thing i'm into], just like next week" i am not actually that into it anymore

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

trans bee girl whose friends bully her by emphasizing the first syllable of honey. she can't tell if that's just how they say it

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

masculinist is the word i would use

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

"Immanent reflection is identity, but determined to be indifferent to difference, not to have difference at all but to conduct itself towards difference as identical with itself; it is diversity" - SoL, Determinations of Reflection

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themboy insomniac @riotliturgist.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

adults have a truly unfathomable sense of entitlement to surveil, discipline, invade, and abuse bodies they regard as property, as lacking any real internal subjectivity, as having 0 right to privacy or autonomy of any kind.

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

"you see yourself in a snitch?" i see myself in everyone. there is nothing fundamental about me that separates me from the people i detest. it allows me to do this cool thing where i focus on the conditions producing behavior rather than pretend i have a better soul

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nrcgray.bsky.social @nrcgray.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Lady Knight Rei Lineart:

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

you think we should give no support to supposed snitches in prison as deterrent? nice to hear that you believe carceral punishment works as a deterrent. great stuff

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i know that none of the "anarchists" who are gleefully arguing for transcendent ethics care to read and so i don't need to argue with them. the thing i need to hold onto right now is my memory that there are anarchists who are not like these "anarchists"

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

"They do not see that in saying, '*Identity is different* from difference,' they have thereby already said *that identity is something different*." - Greater Logic, Essence Chr 2 A remark 2 (358 in the Giovanni).

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

identity is always presupposed. to identify something with itself requires the very itself that the identification ought to provide. see also: unity, totality

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

she reflects on my nothing till i nothing

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

when i'm feeling shy, i tend to see inconsistency and contradiction as produced through reducing the impulse to language. i have to be in a good mood not to simply displace consistency. actually endorsing contradiction outright is still difficult

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

"Reflection is therefore the movement which, since it is the turning back, only in this turning is that which starts out or returns" - Hegel in SoL, Essence Chr 1, I. Positing Reflection (p. 347 in the Giovanni)

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

i'm just not very good at moving past the looks of disgust

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

we need to move so far beyond the critique of bio-essentialism. we can say more than that various cultural traits are not biological. biology is not fixed. what we are is plastic and explicit anti-nature politics recognizes this

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

is the subject-predicate split in judgement more than linguistic? when i get tired i will make complex pseudo-arguments and finally achieve (confused) validity for some judgement, but then as i hold it in it's glory the subject fades, with the predicate intact

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

everyone says we're our social relations but nobody wants to accept it because of the power it gives to the transphobic populace. the problem is that we aren't giving them that power, they have it. very recently i was clearly a woman. i was a woman to such an extent that denial of this was always

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

and they say the "trans women work in defence" thing is a myth

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

i have to pee but i don't know if the new manager is chill

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

perfect blue exhibits a tension between its pro-aging themes and it's demonization of the old, fat, and ugly. i just can't tell if the former is a reflection on the latter's presence in phantom of the opera, or is uncritically reproduced

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

it may seem like a pointless formality but making your argument in full can reveal that actually you aren't as progressive as you think you are. so this is privilege, now explain why that matters. oh, you just want to ignore trans women when we speak about rape? interesting

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 12/06/2026

sometimes you have to but go to sleep all night for no reason

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 06/06/2026

you don't understand. you can simply love your body because your true self is purely mental and any investment in bodily existence is womanly i mean misogynistic

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

if a bodhisattva could be salt they would

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

the UC loves endangering students more than they love those student's tuition

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

You, madam, are the eternal humorist, The eternal enemy of the absolute, Giving our vagrant moods the slightest twist! With your air indifferent and imperious At a stroke our mad poetics to confuste -' And — 'Are we then so serious?'

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

Agnes is gone and in her absence Ant has gotten back in our business

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 26/05/2026

obsession with one's youth is a nostalgia. only the aging are new

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 25/05/2026

growing up on the internet is having a million memories that are the digital equivalent of walking on the side of a cliff and only realizing years later. if i pursued that interest a little further or if i was a little less careful with my evaluation of that. so many close calls

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

this is literally everyone. you have been influenced by ai whether you use it or not. you have been influenced by ai even if you have never heard of it. if you're on this website you've been influenced more than most

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

unfortunately T. S. Eliot was probably trans

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

when introducing the unconscious Freud compares it structurally to demonic possession. when you invoke the unconscious are you thinking of it as anything but that? do you justify it's use? Freud does. it is hard to take talk of "male socialization" seriously from people less careful than Freud

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

//cw: ed eating disorders break your brain so bad. you start skipping meals because you're busy and all the sudden the doctor says you've lost 30lbs. and you don't feel like you look any different in the mirror. it all happens so fast. i was trying my hardest to gain weight

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

discovering that everyone who ever cooked me lentils didn't put enough salt in them has given me a new life. lentils are good? revolutionary

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themboy insomniac @riotliturgist.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

when men rape & abuse, it's an "oopsie," a forgivable mistake, just an expected part of their nature and we all have to find ways to accommodate and live with it and get them back into the community. when women fight back, that's a violation of the fundamental order, women are supposed to reconcile

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

women's only math classes are a must. men slow the whole thing down with their boastful ignorance and they can't admit to not knowing what we're in class to learn. professors have to circle back again and again and be so gentle as to not imply these oafs didn't pay attention

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

the world* if Berkeley didn't go to Italy

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

we keep getting all these signs that a(nother) horrible thing might happen and then it doesn't. and this is familiar. the cops come by again and again and then one of those times they attack your protest. it exhausts you before they attack

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

remembering that time pre-transition when i accidentally made one of my friends bisexual

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 30/04/2026

whenever windows has any issues at all i feel like killing someone but the magic of Linux is that when it isn't working deep down i know it's my fault

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

the buttons the buttons the buttons. a trillion shrimp. lesswrong is an indiscriminant weapon designed to push people into a fugue state. of course everyone is a rational actor. what a great assumption. the buttons the buttons the buttons. game theory

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

the liberal obsession with terminology makes certain politics impossible. when a cis person is told not to call me a man, they switch to biological man, then amab, etc. the problem is that the politics of transness can be summed up as the claim that this category under any name does not exist

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connie @concon-clown.bsky.social · 18/04/2026

awake at 5am. straight up "Noiting it". and by it, haha let's justr say. polymorphed

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