iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

christa @christalei.me · 25/12/2025

Merry Crimbus, I put up the website~ (my project with my husband lol)

christa @christalei.me · 22/12/2025

in a hyperfixation personal website dev phase kick where i play around with code and mash it up and create an abomination here are my most recent results (i still need to troubleshoot itttttt)

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christa @christalei.me · 01/11/2025

I am drafting the first bits of the Jonathans by hand in blood red ink 😂 I was testing out the ink after I refilled it. It’s been a beautiful and intentional act to jumpstart me into writing

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christa @christalei.me · 31/08/2025

sometimes you live long enough to see yourself become your parents. sorry, your messages and notifications DID NOT find me

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christa @christalei.me · 25/07/2025

me, drafting a critical analysis about a white man i have no choice but to credit some of my literary DNA to, but am regretful i didn't know about his contemporaries: google can i blame david foster wallace for my adhd

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christa @christalei.me · 22/07/2025

I think I should just turn my text messages into poetry because damn

blue iMessage bubbles with white text reading: “does it kind of feel like you’re just suspended in time”, and another blue bubble underneath reads “or more like Sisyphus”

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christa @christalei.me · 26/06/2025

this dog was most likely the best dog

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christa @christalei.me · 17/06/2025

Wondering if I need to refine this presentation and just go out with one big epic Shrektravaganza before I retire this completely Here is a slide from the original presentation (I did it for Bone Broth Astrology.) What say you all?

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christa @christalei.me · 08/06/2025

honestly pride month is exhausting in a “everyone’s watching but no one’s really seeing” kind of way so i’ve been opting out, eating fruit in bed, and celebrating in micro-joys aka sending memes to my fellow gays with zero context. that’s family.

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christa @christalei.me · 23/05/2025

If I love you, I’ll send you terrible selfies of me entering and exiting medical procedures like nobody’s business (My blood pressure WAS high, thank u white coat hypertension) #disabled #chronicallyill #illchronically #spoonies

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christa @christalei.me · 19/05/2025

Funny how travel sparks up creativity. I'm going through several massive changes in my life, and after a trip to Spain (land of my colonizers) with my comet partner... things have shifted. This one's going to come out on Friday, and I'm excited for you to read it. open.substack.com/pub/isthiswh...

A travel-themed promotional graphic with text overlaid on a photo of an empty airport terminal with sleek, modern architecture and tall windows. In the foreground is an open black bag containing two baguettes and a small stuffed bear charm wearing a pink hoodie. The text reads:
"In the Ruins of Romance, I Built a Softer Love
We tried, we failed, we softened. A story about breaking open and staying tender despite massive change.
Available May 23rd, 2025
www.isthiswhatyouwant.org"

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christa @christalei.me · 08/05/2025

the chef came over and cooked dinner and told me my knives and cookware suck (they kind of do) but whatever I’m going to theirs next time 🫡

A piece of delicious chicken with crispy skin over a bed of seasonal spring veggies

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christa @christalei.me · 18/04/2025

someone i’m seeing is a chef and other than leaving our dates STUFFED, I apparently also come home with cookware that they “stole from a hotel” they used to work at 😂

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christa @christalei.me · 03/03/2025

life lately // a dump off the metaverse

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christa @christalei.me · 01/03/2025

Tomorrow’s a fun* one that was much longer than I anticipated. *not that fun, it actually addresses abuse, trauma and more. But like, joking about ketamine is a little funny. open.substack.com/pub/isthiswh...

A meme-style image featuring a close-up of a brown horse with a white blaze on its face, standing behind a wooden fence inside a stable. The horse has a slightly bemused or judgmental expression. Overlaid text at the top of the image reads: “horses watching u do all their ketamine.” Below the meme, large white text in a bold serif font reads: “I Graduated from Horse Tranquilizer Therapy!” followed by a subtitle in a smaller serif font: “Live, Laugh, Love, Ketamine or, What I learned while raw-dogging therapeutic K straight into my veins.” At the bottom of the image, in white text, it states: “Available March 1st, 2025.” A website URL, “WWW.ISTHISWHATYOUWANT.ORG,” is also displayed in white text at the bottom of the image. The overall tone is humorous and irreverent, referencing ketamine’s use as both an anesthetic and a dissociative therapy while playing on the cultural association of ketamine as a “horse tranquilizer.”

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christa @christalei.me · 27/02/2025

@saturnsgold.bsky.social sends me the big news and I poke holes immediately 😂

Image description:

A screenshot of a text conversation shows a YouTube link preview for a “Shrek 5 Cast Announcement” video. The preview features an image of Shrek, Fiona, Donkey, and an unfamiliar ogre girl with red hair, all looking shocked or concerned. The user reacts to the image with confusion, sending two messages in blue chat bubbles:
1. “they had three children tf”
2. “what happened to the other two”

A heart emoji with a speech bubble appears near the YouTube preview, indicating a reaction. The messages are marked as “Delivered.”

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christa @christalei.me · 25/02/2025

anyway to refresh the feed and cleanse my TL from my processing and anger… here is a picture of my dogs. they rarely curl up together in the same place so this was too cute

A white pug wearing a pink, fuzzy sweater sits on a gray dog bed under a desk, looking slightly grumpy or unimpressed. Next to them, a senior mini Aussie with a blue merle coat is curled up and resting, partially covered by a soft, mint green fleece blanket. A large plastic dog crate is in the background, along with a neatly arranged desk setup. The cozy scene is framed by warm lighting, with soft blankets and a hint of clutter creating a lived-in, comfortable atmosphere.

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christa @christalei.me · 16/02/2025

new dating profile bio just dropped:

Movie marquee that reads the titles “The Brutalist / Babygirl / Nosferatu / From Ground Zero” in bold, black all caps lettering

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christa @christalei.me · 14/02/2025

So, this one's going to be a hard one. Turning it into a series because, well, why the f not? Later today, on Valentine's Day: Untangling Trauma Threads! :') (Yes, I wrote this all in a frenzied fury. As most of my passionate posts are.) open.substack.com/pub/isthiswh...

An embroidered portrait of Botticelli’s Venus sits in a wooden hoop, surrounded by vintage sewing tools and beads. Text reads: "On Untangling Trauma Threads, Part One. What the fuck: the lengthy process of trauma healing is exhausting but it's working. Available February 14th, 2025. www.isthiswhatyouwant.org.

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christa @christalei.me · 13/02/2025

k sesh 3 down and this one made me feel DIIIIIZZZY 😭 but alsoOoOo we go up a little each time and this time I was YAPPING AND PROCESSING. My integrator this time was wonderful and I have therapy tmrw to continue the process