iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

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BMBrice @bmbrice.bsky.social · 15/09/2024

Well? Voice clip from a Xhaiiiia stream #animated #animation #kheil

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Milkshake @apricotmilkshake.neocities.org · 18/04/2026

poisoning my entire island

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あきかぜ梅 @akikazeume.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

遊んでました（コラボしてほしい）

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Puzzlesnacks @puzzlesnacks.bsky.social · 16/04/2026

The @merriam-webster.com Word of the Day is BRAZEN. Place a car company into the blanks to make a synonym for the given word. BAN _ _ _ BI _ BRAZEN _ _ _ AC _ OUS EXTRICATE _ ISL _ _ _ _ FACTUAL _ _ C _ _ _ TE REVIVAL RE _ A _ _ _ _ _ CE

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dailyrockyfan.bsky.social @dailyrockyfan.bsky.social · 16/04/2026

www.tumblr.com/foldedchip/8... A adorable piece with Sophie reading Rocky a bedtime story. A cute drawing courtesy of foldedchip on tumblr! #lackadaisy #lackadaisyrocky #rockyrickaby #lackadaisysophie

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Richy @ramunerichy.com · 15/04/2026

"Oh hi! This is how you do an S-spin in Tetris" - Snivy

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Yoshitura Yamamoto @yoshiyamamoto.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Raziel the Prince of Dorkness #ralsei

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they made gooseworx @gooseworx.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Knowing how many people and their families are lined up to watch the most miserable, experimental, "fuck it we ball" episode in the series is going to be interesting.

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LogoArchive @logoarchive.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

Shining a spotlight on logos of the past. Discover more at logo-archive.org #logos #branding #symbols #logoarchive

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dailyrockyfan.bsky.social @dailyrockyfan.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

www.deviantart.com/jbordddd/art... Love the pre fight energy this has, it’s like those wrestling or boxing movies where the coach motives the fighter. Love the intensity of their expressions as well #lackadaisy #lackadaisyrocky #rockyrickaby #lackadaisyfreckle

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I don't know what steps of recovery need to be taken nor what should be done to unlearn this, but holy fuck does this parasite of an ideology need to be executed. I want to be human. I want to be alive. I want to feel a pulse, damnit. I want to live. End tangent. Fuck feeling artificial.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I've taught myself that I shouldn't be human, and the only way I can gain respect and really matter in this world is ONLY by the things that I produce. And THAT will be the reason why I die if I don't fix this.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

Which brings me back to my first post in this long-ass thread. This mindset has been fucking killing me in the most literal sense possible. It's not a problem with anyone else other than me. I'm the only one setting myself at a standard where perfection isn't enough.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

It's hard to try and give myself the benefit of the doubt when you know that you gave more previously, despite how much it hurt to get there. And each and every time you exceed an expectation, you set the quota higher. The minimum effort of today is yesterday's maximum.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

Is that true? Probably not. Is it hard to think otherwise? Yeah. I'm expecting to land on the moon, and if I do, I'm mad I didn't land on Mars. This mindset is more toxic than perfectionism and I hate it.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

It feels like that I wrote myself in a corner. I believe that people expect me to be a firework that continues to go off, presenting new colors, shapes, and larger and larger sounds. Someone that always has his list of catchphrases and quips ready on a dime and gives kisses with a quarter.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

That's one thing that I envy with people. Having spaces to talk to where it doesn't feel like you need to battle for attention or feeling like in order to talk to someone you need to come up to them with something unique each time.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I don't know why that feels like such a hard concept to understand. I don't know if it's because I'm too used to needing to wear masks or growing up never being in spaces where I can find others that share the same likes that I do or if I'm just too used to having to be ready to run.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I'm left looking at people that feel comfortable in their skin. People that have hobbies that don't need to turn into pitches. People that have downtime to relax and meet up with others. People that have talking points that are so... normal. Normal, regular people.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

And because I don't see the human in me, I don't know where I want to be. I don't really know what that level of independence is or what joy is outside of work. I always felt alien in social spaces because there really isn't an objective or output or task to do.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I have a hard time seeing the human in me. I only see the output I produce. If I'm on stage, I'm not a human, I'm either an actor or MC. If I'm behind a desk, I'm not a human, I'm a commentator. If I'm doing a podcast, I'm not a human, I'm a talking head.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I don't care how much something kills me if it means that people are happy in the end. Just because a heartbeat flatlines doesn't mean that the soul dies. But I know that this shouldn't be how I view myself. I know that I am the only one that sees myself in such a way.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

If I need to go without sleep to create a graphic, then you bet your ass I'll do that. If I need to skip a meal or two so I can have a video ready, then you bet your ass I'll do that. I will ignore my body if it means making something that I think someone else will enjoy.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

But the hard part though is that this mindset continues to age, where I don't give a fuck how long I live nor if what I do kills me. Anyone that I've worked with or have been friends with for years can easily vouch that I am not afraid to hurt myself to deliver something.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

For me, I want to help build amazing things and see how many memories can come from it. That has always been my goal since a kid. I don't give a fuck about how much I make or how much fame it brings me. I just want to create things that people find interesting and can take away from.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

Don't get me wrong, I love what I have done. That's not the problem. The problem is ultimately what drives me to live. That is a question I'm frankly scared of because I don't have a true given answer to it.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

That doesn't change the fact that I still continue to question what the fuck I'm doing with myself and where the fuck I want to go or where I want to be or if anything matters in the end. I still feel entirely lost and don't know what is really worth it to me.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I wish I could say that drowning myself in work could solve it. I wish I could say that gunning for awards and accolades to make me feel accomplished could solve it. I wish I could say that hiding behind avatars and usernames so I can leave my real self behind could solve everything. But it doesn't.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

But that's a fucking stupid way of dealing with this. Having to wait to deal with my issues so I can parade them "when the time is right" while they continue to compound more in the background.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

Initially, I was gonna try to come up with a bullshit world with puzzles and a "deeper narrative" that would say the same message, because I'm horrible with actively talking about my problems and would rather beat around the bush acting like everything needs to be a provocative think piece.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

I'm tired of putting on a mask, and I'm tired of acting like everything is fine, because it's not and it has never been that way.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 14/04/2026

Hey. I'm gonna be blunt. Since 2012 I've been dealing with depression, and it's been getting to the point where I'm actively coming up with plans that minimize the pain in the circles that I'm in.

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SQUEAKROSS: Home Squeak Home @alblune.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

Happy happy Neil Banging Out The Tunes day 🐭

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Quinn 🐀 @punksqueak.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

LOOK AT WHAT @husbund.bsky.social DID with that sketch I got from @moontikore.bsky.social oh my god, his coloring and rendering is amazing!! Hot rat hot rat hot rat

Quinn looking over her shoulder with a smug expression

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Possessed opossum @possessedopossum.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

Computer Conversations ⌨️🐇 [Sketchy comm for @runnerrabbit.bsky.social!]

"Computer Conversations: how to talk to your new co-worker."
It is a vintage-style handbook cover featuring a late 60s stylized computer on the left and an office worker rabbit (she/her) on the right having a conversation.

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Keiko 🖤 @emobarkz.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

Yippeeee!!! Link in bio :D

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Xander @xananer.bsky.social · 29/05/2025

They're accepting anybody onto Survivor these days...

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Lupo! ➡️ Furpoc!!! @lupopossum.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

One of my favorite con activities is cooking breakfast for my fwiends :3

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Jax The Eldritch Boi @jaxattax.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

“Does Evil Things Ralsei” What happens when you cross Shucks with the prince of Gooberiness? You get whatever the fuck this is I made

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MariEsposeets @mariesposeets.bsky.social · 18/12/2025

willow ptarmigan. Thank you for spreading the bird word, @c0nc0rdance.bsky.social

A willow ptarmigan in winter plumage stands on a snowy hill and watches as a werewolf finishes off a traveler below.
Ptarmigan: Oh god. Oh god. I... oh god... I tried to warn them...
Pen and watercolor.

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Salem: Wicked Witch of the Midwest @phos4usm0th.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

I find it interesting that we can automatically register people for a draft but not automatically register people to vote. For SOME reason. It’s a mystery I guess…

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 08/04/2026

IF I HAVE TO BE THE ONE TO OPEN PANDORA’S BOX AND USHER IN A WAVE OF VRCHAT ONLINE REALITY GAMES THEN I FUCKING WILL.

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Chris Kani @chriskani.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

I’m still trying to find more VRChat ORGs to play. Y’all. Don’t make me run my own seasons of Big Brother or The Traitors now. I’ll do it.

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