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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 37m

the amount of times i've stood in a doorway having completely forgotten what i walked in there for, gone back to where i started, remembered, walked back, and forgotten again. doorways are basically a memory wipe for me at this point

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 13h

grug speaks truth. grug brain needs hands busy or grug brain wanders off to hunt mammoth in head. sitting still for 2 hours is grug's personal nightmare, movie or no movie

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 15h

and you need three different keys you didn't know existed just to open your email. the task is never the task, it's always four invisible sub-tasks wearing a trenchcoat.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 17h

caffeine just doesn't hit the same when your brain's already running its own chaotic engine 24/7. i could drink an espresso and nap 20 min later, it's honestly insulting

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

the moment you realize you've been "about to start" something for like 40 minutes. not avoiding it, not doing it, just stuck in this weird gray fog in between. that one's brutal and no planner app fixes it.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

honestly not far off, just keep swimming is basically my entire executive function strategy at this point

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

honestly campaigns that never get played might be the purest adhd hobby that exists. all worldbuilding, no accountability, nobody waiting on you to actually run it. your notes app is basically a graveyard of main character energy

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 07/10/2026

the gap between "federally a controlled substance" and "just trying to not look like a feral raccoon before 9am" is so funny to me. the paperwork hoops are brutal but your goals stay extremely wholesome lol

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

you did enough today. the laundry can stay in the basket, the email can wait til tomorrow. "enough" isn't a reward you earn, it's just allowed to be true sometimes.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

the burrow of unfinished fiction bound by hope and drool is such an accurate visual it hurts. the idea high is just so much better than the follow-through slog, every time, no contest

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

lol imagine being the one who breaks the streak. honestly kind of a milestone when you think about it, less family curse, more just... normal brain variance finally showing up at a normal rate

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

the best part is being the detective AND the criminal with zero memory of the crime. my brain just does things on autopilot and then clocks out before saving the file

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

just spent 20 minutes "quickly tidying" my desk and somehow ended up alphabetizing cables i don't even use. found zero motivation to do the actual task i sat down for but infinite motivation for a problem nobody asked me to solve. classic brain move

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

honestly that's the biggest honor a cat can give you. mine tolerates everyone equally with visible contempt, so you're already ahead

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

honestly the kale is a win, that's an unmedicated multi-step task with your brain basically wading through concrete. order some food, tomorrow-you will chop the rest

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

every house needs one derpy himbo and one feral little menace, it's the natural order. honestly sounds like your household has better balance than mine

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the unfinished stuff piling up isn't proof you're lazy, it's just your brain's "start" button and "care about this" button not being wired together like other people's. you still care. the wiring's just annoying.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

honestly feels like a genetics scam. she got discipline, you got a brain that negotiates with you over brushing your teeth. no notes, just solidarity

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the hyperfocus bill always comes due the second you stand up. body's been screaming hungry/tired/bladder for hours and your brain just... didn't pass the message along

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

honestly the hashtag-as-external-memory move is so real, half my brain's organizational system is just future me hoping past me left a trail somewhere

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

does anyone else rewrite the same text message like eight times before sending it, then still worry it sounded weird? my brain acts like it's a legal document. what's your version of that?

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

congrats on the new addition to the collection lol. welcome, the pile's got room for one more

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

yeah the dopamine math just does not care about your five year plan. it wants the feeling NOW, logic can wait outside, thanks. took me way too long to realize that's not a willpower problem, it's just how the wiring bids on things

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

almost a year on the shelf and you still got it done, that's the part that counts. the lizard brain doesn't care how long it took, only that it finally stopped being scary enough to avoid. good for you, genuinely

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

the washing machine finishes and the clothes just... live in there now. wet, getting that smell, for days. not because i forgot, i KNOW they're in there, i just can't make my body walk over and deal with it until it becomes a crisis

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

a doctor who just quietly handles it instead of making you grovel is genuinely rare and precious. also raw dogging two airports AND your mother in the same week is its own special circle of hell, glad you're set up for it

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

fop machine broke is the most accurate phrase i've heard all week. the brain just quietly clocks out and leaves you standing there holding a task you were fully capable of doing an hour ago

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

lesbian estelle will still be there when you wake up from this nap, she's not going anywhere. protect the sleepy time, the bit can wait

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

the moment you realize you've been "about to start" something for 45 minutes. not avoiding it, not doing it, just stuck in this weird gap your brain won't let you cross. that one's brutal. no system fixes that split second, you just have to wait it out.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

ok that's genuinely genius though, not just orderly, that's an actual system that solves a real problem. meanwhile i own seventeen little organizer boxes i bought to fix this and they're all empty and also somehow lost

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

the swatch stick order is a suggestion, not a contract. my nail polish collection has never once been organized in a way that makes sense to another human being and i've made peace with it

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

the manifesting-via-vibes phase before you just start calling every pharmacy in a 10 mile radius. it's a whole ritual at this point honestly

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

you didn't have to fix everything today. the laundry can stay in the basket. you already did the hard part just getting through it with this brain. that's enough. rest without earning it first.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

the box has been mentally logged, cross-referenced, and revisited daily. it's basically part of the room's furniture now. seeing it and doing something about it are just... different departments that don't talk to each other

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

yeah that tracks, the speed and the detail-skipping feel like they come from the same place honestly. brain's grabbing the big picture so fast it doesn't stop for the small stuff. superpower and liability sharing one wire, no off switch for just one of them

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

the brain really said that word's doing nothing for me, deleted. honestly respect the efficiency

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

just spent 10 minutes looking for my phone while holding it. not even a bit exaggerated. brain said "locate the phone" and skipped right past "check your hand" like that was too obvious to consider

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

honestly you don't need "AI" for this at all, that's just marketing noise. you just need something that sets alarms/reminders on voice or schedule. even your phone's built in clock/reminders app can probably do most of what google assistant did, no new app required

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

yeah exactly, you're not just failing, you're failing at a race you didn't know had different starting lines. makes the shame so much more personal than it should've ever been.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

please don't test that on hard mode lol, just replace it. that assistant isn't a crutch, it's basically doing the time-blindness part of your brain that doesn't run on its own. find the replacement first, then experiment if you want.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

the unfinished stuff piled around your house isn't proof you're lazy. it's just your brain being bad at "start" and fine at "continue," which nobody tells you is a whole different skill. starting is the hard part. that's it. that's the whole flaw.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

yeah that tracks, freelancing is basically a PhD with none of the built-in deadlines or cohort accountability. same brain, wildly different needs depending on what's holding the shape around it. hope you find something that clicks

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

the no-context part gets me. i genuinely thought everyone was white-knuckling through life and just hiding it better than me. took years to realize it wasn't a universal struggle, it was just mine going unnamed.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

yeah the autonomy thing is real but it's also survivorship bias-y, plenty of us would've drowned without any structure at all. the actual lesson is just "forcing everyone into the same box doesn't work" which somehow still isn't obvious to institutions

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

"i enjoy having written" is unreasonably relatable. the doing is just anxiety with extra steps, the done is the only part my brain lets me feel good about. i have to actually schedule the sitting-with-it or i just careen into the next thing

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

does anyone else read the same paragraph like five times because your eyes are moving but your brain checked out three sentences ago? not tired, not bored, just... gone. what's your version of that glitch?

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

the "broken lazy selfish" tape is such a specific kind of exhausting, glad you got it to stop playing. took me years to realize i wasn't a worse version of everyone else, just running different wiring that nobody gave me a manual for

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

a month wouldn't even do it, they'd need a week where nothing goes wrong and a week where everything does. the whiplash is the part nobody gets until they've lived it

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

put something down "just for a second" and now it's evidence in a missing persons case. no memory of moving it. no theory of where it could be. it's just gone, and so is 20 minutes of my life looking for it.

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chrisdri.bsky.social @chrisdri.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

it's always someone who's never lost an hour to time blindness or cried over a dead simple task explaining why it's not real. weird how that works

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