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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

We may never know because they wanna stay all mysterious and spoopy, but I sincerely hope Sleep Token aren't secretly bigoted twats. My heart would be so broken.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

And I did this to myself because, when things got bad, I blocked everyone out. I created this kingdom of isolation. I will not reach out until things are better, but things cannot be better unless I reach out. So, I guess I'm just choosing to suffer?

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I've been so low for so long, I don't feel like I am capable of being a good friend to anyone. I can't pull myself out of this and no one else can or will either. So, it stays like this until I'm eventually hospitalized for reaching well beyond my limits again.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

I definitely forgot what small towns are like. Not a fan. 😭😭😭

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

I really wish I could add "knows when a man will end up being a disappointment" on my resume. Because I'm now 3 for 3 with having off feelings about a family member's partner and being 100000% spot on about it.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

I feel like Schmidt every time the high schoolers walk by me each day on their way to lunch.

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Man Mad At Youths!

ALT: Man Mad At Youths!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

Turning 38 means my birthday money is going towards continued survival and essentials for our home. Yay, an electric mower so that our neighbors stop giving us the stink eye!!

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Erika Ishii @erikaishii.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

WHAT DAY IS IT

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Roxane Gay @roxanegay.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

The last season of Euphoria was an incoherent, miserable slog. The cast must be relieved that it’s over. In the end it was nihilistic pseudo-Christian propaganda. Ridiculous.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

The moon isn't visible near my home tonight and I'm distraught over it. Sweetheart, where are you???

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

I went painting today and that was lovely. Came back home to cleaner kitchen. It's been a decent day. I'm grateful.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

No fighting AND the kids have Sleep Token playing for me this morning? This birthday is already starting out better than Mother's Day. 😆😅

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Explaining TGIF nights, the Saturday morning cartoon block, & Sunday evening Disney movie events of my childhood sounding like a dinosaur to my kids who have only ever known streaming & are constantly bored of every single option available to us like...

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Cinderella's Sad Moment

ALT: Cinderella's Sad Moment

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

Okay, right now the only thing I'm sure I'm getting for my birthday tomorrow is Sam Levinson killing off Zendaya in Euphoria. And, I definitely didn't ask for that.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Speaking of birthdays, mine is this Sunday and I'm trying to figure out what I'd like to do that day. All I know is I want a stress free day that includes at least one lovely sweet treat in there. I'm weighing my options, here.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Why did I think it would be a good idea to hand make my daughter's birthday party invites?! Thankfully, I remembered I can just make one & then get photocopies of it.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

And that is exactly what happened. I eventually found a cleaner to help us with our home.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Lots has been going on in life, recently. To sum it all up: many changes, transitions, progress, and stagnation. It feels a lot. I'm mostly tired and sad, but trying with all my might to find energy and joy.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

Decided I need a void to shout in again. 👋🏻

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 08/01/2026

what a time to be alive. 😭😭😭 make it all stop.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

I haven't dated since summer 2024. I've felt very lonely, but the fear I have of being perceived is louder so I just keep to myself. I miss feeling held, though. One day...

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

I hate dreaming about exes. I wish I could prevent it from happening. Waking up all hungover like, feeling heartbreak all over again when they're someone you haven't seen in maybe 2 years is shit. Gotta shake it off now, blegh!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

It's been a horrible day for me, sadly. I made two big vulnerable trauma dump posts on FB, one asking for help. I've cried the majority of the day. It's just not my day. I'm very ready for it to be over.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 19/10/2025

Very overwhelmed with the cost of living, rn.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 18/10/2025

Organizing literally anything with the fam lately has been ridiculous. I'll ask my husband to see if they all want to make plans together. So he'll ask them & they'll just respond with 'idk what we're doing yet!' Okay, well that's why we're calling. If you don't know, let's maybe make a plan!!!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 18/10/2025

I emailed my therapist on Thursday about plans we've made (back in July) to help me clean/purge my home, wanting to set these plans more in stone, get it actually going. He usually has a 24hr response policy, but hasn't responded yet. Ofc. My anxiety is going off about there not being followed thru.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 18/10/2025

My local dispensary is down to their very last single pre rolls right now with the Canada Post strike still going on. I'm all out and need to prioritize money for other, more important things. So this means I'll be trying to go cold turkey for a bit. Wish me luck!! 😬🤞🏻🤞🏻

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 18/10/2025

My oldest has a bully & today that bully called him the f-slur. So, now my niceness has run out. Time to be Mama Bear and Duke it out with the principal about why this keeps happening.

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Thats Me Leslie Knope GIF

ALT: Thats Me Leslie Knope GIF

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 17/10/2025

Someone I've chatted with a few times in the past messaged me on Fetlife today saying it's good to see me back & they wish I'd upload new photos. I didn't know I was back? Ohhh, because I accidentally liked a picture a few weeks ago when peeking at the place? Lol, okay!!!

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Paralandmore 🧡🧡🧡 @paralandmore.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Hayley Williams performs 'True Believer' at Fallon Tonight! OMG, I'M SO PROUD OF HER😭✨️🛐🙌🏽

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 10/10/2025

Sweater weather seems to be here! 🙌🏻

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

Money's tight (it always is), but I deserve to pat myself on the back a bit for not grabbing any new Samhain decorations during my quick dollar store trip before getting the kids. Phew! It was close!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

I can't tell if FB is dying as a social media hub or if I just don't have friends anymore & that has been fucking with my head for a few years now.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

Also, my youngest has now gone through 3 water bottles this school year. Guess I have to stop just buying dollar store ones and invest in something more durable for this wild child. Oof!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

I'm aware that after school, all kids have this burst of energy & have to let everything they've been holding back all day out, but whatever my oldest does when he's done school is more than that. He acts like a Mogwai you spilled water on. He vibrates with irritation & screeches like a dinosaur.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

My biggest pet peeve with a lot of the introductory witchcraft books I've been reading is how they keep putting protection spells at the *very end* of the book as if they aren't the most important before doing any other kind of spellwork and magic. So wild!!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

Listening to Brat again because it's still just that amazing. I think it says something very interesting abt TSwift to interpret a song abt Charli feeling insecure & not good enough around someone as a straight up diss track. Girly, we are not listening to the same song here. You were not attacked.

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

The only downside to Canada Post being on strike is that my local dispensary is getting very low on stock.

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Reyhan Harmanci @harmancipants.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

I keep forgetting the government is shut down bc Trump admin is so focused on sending troops to US cities

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 06/10/2025

We need more Rupert Giles' in our local libraries. Just because I want to be able to easily access niche occult materials more regularly!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

I think one of my cats traveled through dimensions, yesterday. Saw a cat perched on the fence behind our house that looked *exactly* like her, enough so I asked the kids to look around the house. Did she accidentally get out?!

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kris mary 🧿🍉 @chaoticcarebear.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

Gimme your witchy book recommendations, please! Looking more specifically for any PA Dutch, German, or Irish resources as that is my personal background/heritage. What has helped you? What books have been essential to your learning and practice?

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