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my fat hands my fat wrists my fat arms my fat waist i need someone to execute me ^_^ woman came through the drive thru with such tiny wrists i wanted to explode

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 9h

oh cw for bcs sorry omg

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 9h

i’m such a fat and ugly chud oh my god i hate my horrid waist to hip ratio 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔🤮🤮

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 10h

just saw forgotten island omg it was so good i cried so much

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 15h

how do you stop messing up constantly

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

cramping does anyone want to come over and bash my skull in for me? 🥹

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

in a fit while getting out of it i scrawled in my diary and its literally incomprehensible, i ended up throwing it across the room because i couldn’t write legibly from how .. disturbed i was?

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

oh my god that’s horrible, i’m so sorry :( youre so brave for staying strong for him but i hope you’re giving yourself the space to experience your emotions too

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

just had a very severe panic attack lawl im exhausted now

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

waking up feeling like doodoo shit for no discernible reason, god i just know cvtting would change that right now fuck my stupid “trying to find better coping mechanisms” life 😭😭💔

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

have you heard crazy stories about it or something?

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

it was basically just like a week off school sometime in the spring, my family would go on small vacations to somewhere warmer down south since we lived further up north !

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

so generous and kind of him 🤩🤩

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

LIKE UGHHHH.. i feel like no matter how much weight i lose my fingers will stay the same 😭💔

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

like ok sausage fingers 😭😭💔 might as well just kms atp my hands look so disgusting

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

god id kill for hands like these 😭😭😭

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

oh my god i just had boost for the first time that is the most fucking disgusting thing i’ve ever had in my mouth oh my god i feel like im going to puke

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

god no i get this, ive been sick so ive had to call out and i feel so guilty taking off 😭 idk if your reasons for feeling guilty are the same as mine but i definitely get it, im sorry you’re feeling this way :(

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i’m so anxious rn i can’t stop worrying about things

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

for the sake of keeping a friend group together or preventing drama. you aren’t the one at fault for this situation, and you deserve to be comfortable. i’m so sorry this happened to you

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

hard agree with what everyone else has said. letting others know would not only expose this person as dangerous, but also weed out anyone who isn’t a true friend. you deserve to be comfortable with the people you surround yourself with & not have to walk on eggshells or compromise your own self

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

got drunk and ate an entire can of pringles what is my issue omfg

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

one day won’t ruin everything even if it’s scary how much it might’ve been, and regardless it was a special day and you deserved to treat yourself :[

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

just called out sick from my job for the first time & i feel like such an asshole about it T_T it’s food service and my coworker didn’t seem upset by it when i called but urgh. i hate being a burden

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

been getting back into counting my cals 💔 ~920 yesterday, i’ll try and do better today

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

my job got me yearning to blow my shit clean off

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

u say that & yet he chose u bc ur beautiful

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

hell to wake up from that actually :(

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

OMG genuinely a dream of mine too 😭😭 i hope it works out for u!!

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

took bcs at work but i look humongous someone come and kill me oh my god 😭😭 i can’t believe i walk around looking like this every day

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

she also told me i shouldn’t look at posts on sh*twt bc it’ll make me want to relapse even more and .. it is .. she’s so right .. but fuck i wanna get worse so bad

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

my therapist said that i probably gave up on recovery after seeing that i didn’t gain any weight when trying bc my mind was looking for any chance to relapse and i fear she might have been right 😭😭💔

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i would gaf ☹️💙 u matter even if it doesn’t feel like it sometimes

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

bc // i love seeing my hip bones poke through whatever i’m wearing 😭😭 my upper arms are so huge though kill me

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

this 🤏 close to relapsing and cvtting again icl

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

happy birthday!!! be kind to yourself and treat yourself today!! you deserve it 🫶🫶 i hope you have a great day today :) 🎉🎉

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

does anyone know a place to cvt that is super well hidden even to someone you’d be naked in front of

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

apparently cvtting on ur ankle is dangerous bc it’s easy to hit a major artery but i guess i got off easy

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fawn ★ @cervidxiaa.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

if you see this, do it (if you want) ✶ name: fawn ✶ height: 5'8 ✶ star sign: ♌️ ✶ nicknames: fawnie ✶ siblings: 1 older 1 younger ✶ relationships: partner but we’re talking a break ✶ crushing on: partner ✶ fav season: fall ✶ pets: dog ✶ fav color: pale blues ✶ live: us 😔

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