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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

i guess deepdown i just want my life routine-ized. feels foolhardy though.

cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

the persistent feeling of thinking "there's something wrong with me" has come back after not really being a thing for years now. not even sure what it's solving for. im just sick of some particular shortcomings that i don't have the solutions for.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

feeling a certain way... i can't accept this uncertainty anymore i feel like

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

now that's it been a bit later im realizing i kinda got rid of two things that were keeping in knots emotionally, but now im just worrying abt the next thing down the list. i should just ask at this point. work through it...

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

bro normie instagram doesn't-like-your-stories maneuvers just don't work on me. if i notice anything i just assume it's nothing / get a little anxious at best but then forget abt it. like wtf is this talk to me like a person you coward. the social contract abt using these tools is ASS.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

sifted through old videos/group chats. thinking about all the relationships i let go. weird feeling. i think i had a pretty decent life, and that maybe i could die and be satisfied. i dunno. who even am i anymore, which one was me? who will i continue to be? fuck.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

also last thing i swear BUT THEY WERE SO SHALLOW OH MY GOD

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

this is what i get for not holding on to principles i believe in and ignoring how i feel.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

the more i learned abt them the more i realized they're just a bad person? it was insane, culminated in like very primal inner parts of me being like "why are you around this person?". idk why i allow myself to feel so uncomfortable to let people like this in...

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

another one bites the dust (though for that one im less miffed they kinda sucked tbh...)

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

no but like i feel so much better emotionally?? hopefully it isn't mania... (im not prone to mania so i don't think so) god i didn't know how bad it was...

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

at least it's still true that a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders. brightside and all that.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

also they're a coward!!!!!!!!! (this is me just being mad, i wish them the best of luck in their future, and hope they get their shit sorted.)

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i felt so small, so insignificant in their presence. i think i want to keep this feeling within me, so that the next time im faced with it i know what to do.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

the amount of mental stress they caused, it's actually unbelievable. they suck everything, EVERYTHING, out of you. they can only ever latch onto desperate people, or when you're in a desperate situation, and it'll leave you so fucked up. it's never direct with them either,you're always left guessing

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

good person with bad people disposition...

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

oh my shit im so glad it's over lmfao

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

might be the longest 6 months of my life. my emotional range is experiencing extreme time dilation. i have reached in an instant what everybody else thinks to have taken ages.

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cantcommute @cantcommute.bsky.social · 01/04/2026