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DeeJay H. Dehan (DJHD Art) @djhowler.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

ko-fi.com/dj_howler/go... headset upgraded, so subtracted that amount spent on them for the goal

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

◇: feel so stupid and like I shouldn't be a little upset over this... that I shouldn't be upset that we keep putting it on hold for other things... just want the more up to date version of a game we love, but we have to keep putting it off for other things

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

◇: a bit annoyed that we have to keep putting off getting something, and yeah people would see it as childish that it's annoying to us, but it's something we've loved for a long time and it's more annoying because our father was right

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

?: don't feel real in this body. Tired of no brakes on this roller coaster of life... just more things to bury and ignore, just to not harm others like we have... bury and repress the feelings so we don't cause pain... we just want to "rest and relax" and have it actually be that...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

?: the urge to mutilate our body... to cut parts off, to cut parts out of us... feel so grotesque and disgusting... certain things cause us discomfort or outright vomiting... nothing to be done to make it better... just deal and burying the feelings because voicing them would bring issues...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Just been a rough few weeks... losing people close to us and people that ment a lot... mental warzone from everything... just try to make it through today -♧

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

.?: call it what ever you want... we are skipping eating today because the one person that should be helping take care of us, doesn't care about things unless it's what she wants. we are so tired of how stressed we have been... so tired of having to asking for help all the time. so skip for dinner

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

?: in a VC with our Webcam off and mic muted... crying because we are so tired of how stressed we've been... we're tired of never being able to do thing for ourselves and having to ask every day nearly for something to help us by tossing us money... call it stupid... but tonight we just won't eat

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

?: we were right... its a "fend for yourself" night and we just want to cry and scream... no money, so tired of begging for help online... just... so tired and drained... we just want to be happy for longer than a few minutes... but that doesn't matter, nothing for us does

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

?: fee long like another "fend for yourself" nights... its whatever... been disgusted all day... angry in a way... but so damn tired anymore... we don't even want to join our girlfriend tonight for stream... feel in the wrong for what we've needed... no rest, no relax... just keep moving

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

?: fighting the urge to cry over how we feel... wish things were so different, but they aren't... broke and can't even get out of this house with friends... just wanting to cry over our emotions and hate that we can't be stable anymore... broken and damaged... feel like we aren't worth anything

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

?: mindlessly play WOW because we can't really do anything else that we wanted... just really wish things were different and weren't an issue... we're so stressed and on edge anymore... feeling like shit for last night and just wish we could get a brake like we need

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

?: you say that, but the person we want it to matter to doesn't care and is part of the road blocks... so no... how we feel doesn't matter

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

?: wish things were different... wish things didn't keep throwing road blocks... wish we could just hang out with people, but there's always something to pop up and stop it from happening when we need it most...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I know what's allowed for me... what I'm allowed to do... I know what I need to quit trying to do... I just have to quit trying to do anything to save what's left of my sanity and mental health and I'm just tired of fighting so damn hard... I'm sorry... but I really am done... so fucking done

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I'm tired, I'm trembling and angry... I'm honestly hurting with how much in the last two months I've tried to go out and be around others or just go someplace to have some fun or something and life bends me over and fucks me raw and I'm tired...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I'm so tired of every time I try to do something... something happens and it's a fuck you to my mental health and sanity... It's too much for me to want to do anything... It's asking too much to want to not cry anymore... too much to just not be stressed

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

I know this shit... just feels like anymore, when I'm wanting to get out of this house and get some fresh air and walk around, maybe go to the arcade or look around spirit... its shot down, I'm reminded how much things cost and I'm told to wait till some time in the future...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

That because it's a holiday everything closed hours ago and I shouldn't have slept at all if I wanted to actually do anything. Get dragged about my sleep habits and about wanting to actually go someplace to not be stressed. Told over and over that we can't always have what we want, like I'm not dumb

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

Made a post asking for help for my own mental health and sanity, only to get out the door to try and salvage what I can, and be told that the person who had told me five minutes ago that they were willing to drive where I was wanting, suddenly doesn't want to drive that far and throws in my face

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

?: memories from someone's passing have flooded back, pulling us down... just need to keep going... we weren't permitted to cry or greave those times, we can't now... just have to act like nothing has happen and we aren't hurting... can't do what would fix us, so just have to keep moving...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

?: we should be happy with what today is... but just want to cry

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Matías Bergara @matiasbergara.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

Col. Kusanagi (loving the new show - Ghost in the Shell)

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

You know Soro and DJ love you. You can join them if you want -♧

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

?: just, not feel great and feeling like shit... hope I've got enough herb for a few days...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Well @zachbussey.tos.gg are you just going to ignore this now that it's the next day, or are you going to actually give us your "Sources" for this info. Because you are the only one talking about this and I think you are a lier trying to stir shit

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

I wouldn't scream fire yet. I tried to do some digging on this and this person is the only one saying anything on it.

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

and I'm saying that as someone who bothered to try and look into this a little more. you are the only person on the internet currently saying this, so I think you need to list your sources, because this impacts EVERYONE who makes a living off Twitch.

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

"Multiple sources tell me it will be announced in the coming months, despite some internal friction against it. " I'm sorry, with something like this, and you are the only person talking about it, I think you need to name drop your "Multiple Sources". and not list interviews as a source

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

no, you are fine to bring her up with this. Hell Amy sees it as "playing" and she knows she is safe. this sounds like the kind of person that believes that doing stuff with a little is "traumatizing" them more... fucking hate people like that. you aren't the law, you don't control peoples lives...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

So does that mean the same for Amy?... people need to stay out of others lives

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Luca @lucagalletti.bsky.social · 26/07/2026

Awesome use of highlighters 😮 画画的小Wz. ~ Little Wz who draws

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

Proven to me time and time again that I don't deserve to feel love or feel the touch of someone who loves me... fine world, I get the point... I'll stay alone and only see my girls... Fuck my mental health, fuck my sanity, fuck how I maybe doing mentally. I'm done fighting... I've learned

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Jennifer "AlonWoof" Dehan @alonwoof.moe · 21/07/2026

Please help.... she's not taking accountability at all... don't know what I'll do...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

No, I know what I actually need... a rage room session... me braking things till everything is out... every ounce of anger and every last tear... Just... not been a good day mentally, and trying to focus or do other things once again isn't working... so tired and burnt out anymore from things...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

Wish I had the extra this month... Feel I need a day out doing a few things, but what I want to do, I can't afford... miss when the Arcade wasn't such a luxurious thing...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

Some day it was for me... to depressed to actually celebrate or get myself something for the day...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

Feeling tiny Feeling dumb Feeling worthless Feeling like this is how my life will be for a while and no energy for it period... Just ignore how I really feel, put on the mask that everything is fine... because there's nothing that can be done otherwise...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

Nothing worked today with getting my mind off how I feel... Honestly, I just want to turn everything off and truly be alone like I am here... Can't do or anything to make this better and don't really have the option of leaving for a bit... Just... depressed and tired...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

They may "matter" but I can't do anything to help them, can't really do the things I desire... I just have to ignore them and deal with feeling vomitty from it all... a lot of stuff mixed together today

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

Have to do and focus on other things because there isn't anything that can really be done to make things better. Just need to ignore things, and the pain will fade like it has every time. Maybe it won't take as long to fade this time around... I can only hope

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

just... both crave and desire to be held physically... I just have to ignore these feelings and press on... the emotions may affect me, but I need to ignore them. Otherwise, I'll just want to curl up and cry for a while...

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Feeling tiny and... It's just going to be a strange day. I can already tell with how my emotions are already today

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Alice Averlong 🏳️‍⚧️ @alice.averlong.com · 14/07/2026

It's International Non-Binary People's Day! Celebrated here, on my Pentium with VGAPride.

A beige 90s computer displaying the non-binary flag (four horizontal stripes, of yellow, white, purple, and black)

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Brigit Dehan ⚡🐲 @brigit-dehan.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

You honestly put some of it perfectly into words. Just wish we didn't live on opposite sides of the continent from each other... me in New York, them in California...

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