iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

“stop bringing up medication” when you have a disorder that is infamously dangerous to not be medicated for. and then i have to be the receiving end of said disorder’s irrational thinking and pretend like those words don’t seriously affect me bcuse ur not urself :((((

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

why can’t we be a team why do u have to get defensive or say that we can’t talk about it rn only to never talk about it . i’m not ur fucking opponent why do u treat me like one ,and i have to disregard my hurt and listen to ur woes when i bring up mine

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

peace and love and comfort. all i want. for me to not fight for it is for me to disregard a relationship i cherish. if i didn’t fight for it, it would mean i don’t believe in it.

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

i won’t be okay till this is resolved idk if my feelings even matter to them like that. i just have to swallow it up right? i’m overreacting right? i wish i could stop thinking about it too.

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

i’m on your fucking team :(

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

idk how a problem so serious for me can be taken that way. and i wish the word sorry was enough. idk if i’ll be able to sleep tonight. if they think they understand, i don’t think they understand the whole of it. so hurtful

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

days like these make me question if i’ll ever be okay

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

it started a few weeks ago i’ve never been this way i’ve never needed alcohol before let alone constantly. i’m not buying any more hold me fucking accountable.

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

i need to stop drinking

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

on a mission to get orange hair dye to fill my hair in before dyeing it black

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

haha i’m so sad and i’m really trying to pretend otherwise

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i have black semi permanents but they have so much colour in them and very quickly fade out purple and it’s not the vibe but i also don’t rlly kno what the vibe is

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i wanna order black box dye if it’s even possible in the middle of the night … it would be recklessly impulsive though when i could just go get it tomorrow

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i wanted blonde to work but my hair is too stained with blue and nothing gets it out

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

the temptation to dye my hair black on top

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

mute swans are so neat it’s like hey i’m mute too

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

good morning my pigeon has become soup

the vague shape of a pigeon puffed up in a large bowl of water

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

it’s so cool that there’s a small collection of trans people in my apartment building who have found a spot to write messages in pen to eachother and stick trans pride stickers i need to join in bro, i wanna make a sticker

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i intellectualise everything even tho it does me no favours (usually)

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

it is true he has a lower life expectancy but i think he can do it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

my pigeon is chronically ill but if that goes as well as it can i should still have the little guy when im 40 lol

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

maybe if i found a way to eat water/ice

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

keep slathering myself in moisturiser and my thirsty skin drinks it right up

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i don’t drink til i’m hella thirsty bcus it’s so uncomfortable to drink water, ALWAYS has been, but now i also choke on it or get pains from it bcus of my thyroid i hate that im like this i don’t wanna be constantly dehydrated. i wish i had an iv idk

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

take my meds, darken the room, play my word game under the covers and zzzzz

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

why does pain have to be real why does it have to exist

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

when i have a real home to settle down, ill have an aviary and lots of birds

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i’m so grossed out by being in a biological body with medical needs

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

waaa my tooth hurts sm again stop it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i painted this pigeon last night to try to get back into it ^^ the paper couldn’t rlly take it lol

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i’m due one of those really long sleeps

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i tried to rush settling down. i wanted the wait to be over. i don’t want to break the illusion of being settled down. i don’t want to be back in that uncertain mess. i want a home that’s permanent. i don’t want to search for it again. why can’t it already be?

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i have 2 weeks to myself i hope i can make a painting/s

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

like my physiotherapist having a speech impediment and understanding my neurodivergence and the weird “irrational” obstacles i face, she didn’t even question them. she just understood.

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i swear the only doctors that understand me are the ones in unrelated fields to my health problems, doctors that have experienced the same problems themself or a loved one

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

idk how i’m gonna stay awake for this

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

and i mean i had to look for ages to find one without it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

something i wouldn’t know if i didn’t study bird care: hair dryers often come with an “ionic” feature. this means it releases trace amounts of ozone into the air. the effect of this feature is de-frizzing and faster drying. toxic and can be deadly for birds. bad for us too but nowhere near as bad

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

this show came out recently and they still use yellow colour grading to depict mexico . i don’t watch many things but i didn’t know we’re still doing this

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

exactly one year since i released my first rescue bird

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i wish i respected my own company as i did others’

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i scream in my sleep from the night terrors. one day i’m gonna scare some poor unsuspecting person

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

excited for pigeon #2 to experience heating for her first winter here

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i hate not being in control of my body, i hate flare ups

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