iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

haha i’m so sad and i’m really trying to pretend otherwise

i wanna order black box dye if it’s even possible in the middle of the night … it would be recklessly impulsive though when i could just go get it tomorrow

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 5h

the temptation to dye my hair black on top

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 16h

mute swans are so neat it’s like hey i’m mute too

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

good morning my pigeon has become soup

the vague shape of a pigeon puffed up in a large bowl of water

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

it’s so cool that there’s a small collection of trans people in my apartment building who have found a spot to write messages in pen to eachother and stick trans pride stickers i need to join in bro, i wanna make a sticker

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i intellectualise everything even tho it does me no favours (usually)

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

my pigeon is chronically ill but if that goes as well as it can i should still have the little guy when im 40 lol

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

keep slathering myself in moisturiser and my thirsty skin drinks it right up

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i don’t drink til i’m hella thirsty bcus it’s so uncomfortable to drink water, ALWAYS has been, but now i also choke on it or get pains from it bcus of my thyroid i hate that im like this i don’t wanna be constantly dehydrated. i wish i had an iv idk

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

take my meds, darken the room, play my word game under the covers and zzzzz

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

why does pain have to be real why does it have to exist

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

when i have a real home to settle down, ill have an aviary and lots of birds

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

i’m so grossed out by being in a biological body with medical needs

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

waaa my tooth hurts sm again stop it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i’m due one of those really long sleeps

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i tried to rush settling down. i wanted the wait to be over. i don’t want to break the illusion of being settled down. i don’t want to be back in that uncertain mess. i want a home that’s permanent. i don’t want to search for it again. why can’t it already be?

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

i have 2 weeks to myself i hope i can make a painting/s

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

i swear the only doctors that understand me are the ones in unrelated fields to my health problems, doctors that have experienced the same problems themself or a loved one

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

idk how i’m gonna stay awake for this

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

something i wouldn’t know if i didn’t study bird care: hair dryers often come with an “ionic” feature. this means it releases trace amounts of ozone into the air. the effect of this feature is de-frizzing and faster drying. toxic and can be deadly for birds. bad for us too but nowhere near as bad

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

this show came out recently and they still use yellow colour grading to depict mexico . i don’t watch many things but i didn’t know we’re still doing this

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

exactly one year since i released my first rescue bird

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i wish i respected my own company as i did others’

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

i scream in my sleep from the night terrors. one day i’m gonna scare some poor unsuspecting person

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

excited for pigeon #2 to experience heating for her first winter here

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

i hate not being in control of my body, i hate flare ups

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

it sucks to realize that the internet is still really really homophobic/transphobic and the algorithm just shelters me from it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

to be chosen over different plans

text 1: why are u apologising for my choice. text 2 (response): i have inconvenience syndrome

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i wish you were still here

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

it’s safe to cry now, im alone, but i’m so sick of crying . i’m so exhausted from it

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

i wish i could control my body into not having panic attacks or internal panic and dread or whatever this horrible weighted feeling is

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

at the train station after saying goodbye it’s like a liminal space but with people

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

“you’re lying” even though i’m not hurts so much

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i hate being dissociated but it probably is better than being lucid and i’ve just forgotten

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

i knew i was ace from a very young age but i didn’t have a word for it it started when all the other kids around me would talk about celebs, crushes, attractiveness. none of it made sense to me. teen magazines, teen shows, music. i tried to fake it even

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

how am i ever gonna be well enough to keep on top of chores

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

no one knows about the mashup of ppl i knew that follows me around all day when im alone. the face constantly swapping. like they were all the same person. this is the first time i’ve mentioned it outside of my head ever. i don’t want to talk about who they are but i should acknowledge its existence

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

sometimes u gotta consciously pull the turn off emotions lever

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

i’m actually at a good level of emotionally maturity now but bullshit keeps happening

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

anyway imma smoke my thing to help the nausea and get ready because i am food and waterless rn i hope i can do 2 separate trips in one day so i can fill my freezer and get lots of water but… sounds hard. i have to walk and wheel my shopping home btw

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

as someone who has thrown up in public a few times, purely due to chronic illness, i wish people didn’t automatically assume you’ve been drinking and judge so harshly. those stares are so awkward and unnerving

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

please no more nauseaaaaa

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

to expend energy, pigeon A loves flying fast through my room. pigeon B prefers to flap in place

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

i think i had one of my classic autistic moments where i accidentally offended someone while not knowing the implication of my words despite being well intentioned, and now they’re avoiding me on the mmo im playing maybe im overthinking but i don’t think i am this time…

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🍵⊹ @breaths.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

i need white makeup how have i never gone fully goth

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