🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025Haven't drawn a lot, being online fills me with a need to share smth abt where I'm at. Justify feelings of profound failure, beg for understanding, feel endless guilt for limitations beyond my control. Not useful. It's normal to be limited by poverty, disability and grief. No justification needed. 040
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025It came at a bad time, in a notably unstable moment in my life. 2024 shrank my total resources materially and mentally and left me in a pretty dire spot without the loss. The timing was exquisitely bad. Be like that. I'll do my best to slowly return to something near-normal. if I want lol 120
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025bone died, n it hit me hard as I thought it would, anticipating the intensity of grief didn't do much for navigating it. I just knew it would hurt, I had no expectation for what that would be like or how it might manifest. If anything I dealt with it worse by imagining myself prepared 110
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025had to take a hardcore break from online spaces, shit was makin me crazy. Went thru a pretty rough patch, total breakdown in my ability to function at a basic level. Decided to shelve anything not directly related to survival and let myself rest. Like really rest. Not to jinx it but? feeling better? 1161
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025like i said I couldn't find a better way to make contact, I have a decent catalog of resources/reading related to the subject, would something like that be appropriate to send to the submissions email? Felt like it would be relevant to ur audience! 010
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025the manual removal tutorial has a list of brokers, tutorials for removal on each and direct links to the removal request pages individually! In the episode ur guest mentioned where these links are usually found but they tend to be intentionally hidden or placed illogically to reduce removals 110
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 19/11/2025Couldn't find a better way to contact yall, but i heard this episode and wanted to share a good related resource! sit has multiple free tutorials on how to minimize identity exposure online. including a tutorial on manually requesting/deleting ur info from data brokers inteltechniques.com/links.htmlinteltechniques.comIntelTechniques Resources 210
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸○•°☆ ki11ustr4tions ☆°•○ @ki11ustr4tions.bsky.social · 26/07/2025#art #adopts adopts i made on toyhouse 925168
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 14/08/2025I think I have a little progress on all my commissions already, so once I start it'll be ok. I feel like I actually have the capacity to do basic shit again so I dont think it'll be impossible to motivate like before, I just dont want paid work to be my warmup. Dont wanna give ppl garbage. 030
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 14/08/2025That said, I've been baby stepping interaction with online spaces again, and I've been drawing again, after not really doing it for a few months. So, I'm on the right track, I would have started work on coms again already, but I'm so rusty I think I gotta get back into the swing of things first. 180
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 14/08/2025i think i've needed to place my health and well being first for a long time but uh, the authoritarian hard-launch is my wakeup call. So all obligations are second priority until I'm at least feeling sane enough to do basic survival shit. TY for any grace while I'm workin it out. SOON. ill be ok 160
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 14/08/2025Meds don't do much for me, anything I tried has made things worse, and I've refused inpatient or actually having "schizophrenia" plopped on my record (again) cus being trans and having a major chronic condition is already sketchy. Anyway, I'm rawdogging all my issues with limited support. 160
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 14/08/2025hey just so everyone knows, i got hit with the schizo diagnosis and im trying to navigate that as a dirt broke trans person in an ultra-red state. im mostly staying offline to manage symptoms, paranoia. I'm feeling better lately, but I HAVE to prioritize myself and my health rn. times is...scary 0130
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025biggest problem is communication. I cannot fucking talk to anyone right now because my paranoia is unbearable and it takes me like 3 hours to construct a single message to anyone and I gotta do that almost 30 times to communicate much about a delay or an issue I’m having. It’s all very frustrating 080
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025That’s the other fucking nuts part. I have like 10 kofi drawings and 16 commissions left to do and I have 19 of those 26 started, not just started like 80% done and now I’m just in lock up. That’s truly abnormal 040
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Also, the second you tell someone you’re schizo everything you say after is just irrelevant. Like all disabilities, admitting you have one is scary and embarrassing. Only because the world we’re in demands you internalize the notion of worthlessness as someone who can’t thrive in rigged game 0131
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Anyway, pls know I’m trying so hard but being dirt ass poor and schizo in a fucking red state with no support system while America becomes greater every fucking evil day is HARD. Idk how many of y’all have been literally one meal a day poor for a decade but it’s extremely fucking hard. 2101
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025“Mental illness gets so bad people kill themselves” should really be the first thought in everyone’s head when we talk about this shit. Oh my god 050
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025And explaining how a psychotic disorder might limit your capacity to do shit is so hard. Ppl are just not fucking familiar with this shit, and all “normalizing” mental health struggles did was make ppl who feel sad sometimes think their experience describes all mental illness. Release me. 140
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Which is the shittiest part, I thought I just had it together. Not just commissions but working, everything in general but as more and more shit happened outside my control it was like I lost my grip on reality and I only kinda of feel able to recognize the gravity of the chance. 120
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025did close to 300 in 2020, abt 200 in 2021? Tons! One after the other, paid all the groceries and 2/3 of the rent all on my own. It’s not that struggling is abnormal, I always had a hard time sticking to it but this is like a whole different thing. I’ve never struggled like this before 110
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Anyway, if anyone else has had their mental health literally torch their ability to just get work, specifically commission work, done and found a solution pls feel free to share I’m so irate rn. I don’t wanna feel like a failure or lazy or helpless or look like a bitch. I’m so sick of it aaa 390
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025I can’t describe the frustration of just wanting to get things done, having a plan, trying and just slipping into what feels like a blackout. I’m not even like doing other shit instead of work I’m just fully psychotic busted ruminating useless for endless hours it’s crazy. Literally. Stressful 050
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025I’m just really unsure how to move forward. I can’t seem to get help medically, I can’t seem to get much done on my own, but none of it is lack of desire or motivation it’s like I’m a bug smashed flat so I can wish all I want but I’m stuck. Idk anyone else out there ever just been so fucked? lol 040
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Which isn’t like a question on how do I get out of doing things. Cus I want to get it done just now do I navigate this? How do I anything but lose my housing in this world as a disabled person, how do I make that complication clear, how do I make the best move with so little to work with? 020
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025So idk what to do. It was either get evicted or take on work I knew I’d struggle to complete but hope the effort I put in to solve the mental shit paid off. It has not so I’m stuck in limbo. Idk how do you navigate that effectively? How do I make the disability clear? How do I handle it? 130
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025So with no resources, no security, no healthcare, no savings, no help, no stability and a disorder that makes connection to reality uncertain I have to suddenly perform. And I can’t, and I feel shitty for it, but the reality is I am just fuckin disabled. Which sucks. 030
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025I’ve managed to work full time, or as close to it as I can, while navigating a disabling psychiatric condition and it’s lead to 0 quality of life. That struggle, right now has me in a position where I desperately want and need to function but literally can not do so. 110
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025What I need to communicate is that I have had a schizophrenia diagnosis since I was 18, had 0 success with anti-psychotics and have been on my own living on like 10k a year for the last 15. I haven’t had the resources for much intervention and when I’ve had it the care has been truly abysmal. 120
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025The thing is I don’t know how to explain that art for me and paid work are extremely different without sounding like I’m too dense to understand the reality of money and obligations. Or that it’s unimportant to me. So I just hit stop on everything. 010
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025haven’t shared art lately because doing so while struggling to complete paid work lead a conflict that was exactly what I sought to avoid at all costs. But I’m actually less stable when I feel stripped of my single joy, shocking. 110
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025I’m struggling to articulate what’s going on with me while preserving some sense of? Not privacy but safety I guess. And avoid some misinterpretation that leads some freak to insisting loving off one meal a day (or less) is actually a masterful scam. But I need some kinda help and my outlet. 140
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 05/07/2025So I’ve had to just stop using social media for a sec, I think I’m just at capacity for stress and idk how to navigate it. Im kinda swamped by commission work and the same psych issues that made a new day job impossible don’t just stop because I didn’t technically clock in. 160
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 01/05/2025Been trying to focus on getting shit done but it’s hard…have some guys ✨🪱 | 🪰🕷️ 0817
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸○•°☆ ki11ustr4tions ☆°•○ @ki11ustr4tions.bsky.social · 04/12/2024F2e raffle on toyhouse, link in bio #adoptables 0334
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸○•°☆ ki11ustr4tions ☆°•○ @ki11ustr4tions.bsky.social · 29/12/2024Drew my vamp oc again :) #oc #illustration 27114
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸○•°☆ ki11ustr4tions ☆°•○ @ki11ustr4tions.bsky.social · 01/01/2025Jazzys outfits #oc 1747
🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸 @bigassbug.bsky.social · 24/04/2025I really hate when I say “yeah, I grew up in a cult man” and ppl go “yeah I get it, I went to church” it takes all of my power not to go into a socially unacceptable rage moment lol. Why the fuck does everyone think I use the word cult as like a hyperbolic lil own on regular baptist shit? 0120
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸Meatflavor 🍄🐾 @meatflavor.bsky.social · 24/04/2025let’s play!! ⚾️🐾🦴 #furry #lgbt 617051
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸Ala Flora @alaflora.net · 08/04/2025good grief! totally forgot and now im late to #portfolioday >.< i'd love to be considered for jobs very much! my name is Ala and i'm interested in any sorts of illustration assignments. especially #kidlitart #painting. im at my best when painting animals and nature! → → alaflora.net 422049
Reposted by 🪳BUG🪳🇵🇸Jabberwick ⭐🎪👁️ @jabberwick.com · 05/04/2025Bc you guys like this old art of Writhing so much, have another pic i drew of her in 2023 (: 348895