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salh @bettercallsalh.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
one more thing unless they wanna add onto the pile no more anger, just being genuine here. i was 14. i had been sexually active for less than a year. i was so early in puberty that my sex drive had barely started yet. so immature that i didnt know what a homewrecker was. and i was open about this.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
this isn't your invitation to escalate things just to make yourselves feel superior, it's someone begging to just be left the fuck alone
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
i hope you're all proud of yourselves for continuously spitting on someone who's down and wondering why he's gotten more and more unstable. for claiming you care but calling me manipulative and guilt tripping. if you want me gone then you've got it. just fucking leave me alone
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
fuck all of you who have continued to provoke me over and over and say things like "i hope he gets help" when i was in daily therapy for MONTHS, went through different medications, and am STILL trying to work through everything. fuck all of you for pretending i'm not trying because i keep spiraling
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
fuck all of you. fuck all of you who for years made me feel like i couldn't speak out about anything i went through. who made me feel like talking about my trauma was encroaching on others. for continuing to normalize this behavior in our fandom even years after the fact
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
i'm so disgusted with the fact that post was made in the first place and the people supporting it. i'm disgusted with who gets to speak for "the victims" while excluding those don't fit. i'm disgusted with the revisionist apologetics for someone who was normalizing 13-14 year olds to rape
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
shayy just tried making a comeback and you people are saying that a victim speaking out about their groomer is "running a trans woman out of private spaces" i'm so fucking done. none of you will ever learn. it's always going to be the same unhealthy clique behaviors like we're in high school
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
there is no reason to continue going after me, im abandoning my accounts, please just leave me alone
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salh @bettercallsalh.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
Alright its drama time this who-the-fuck decided to speak on my behalf of mildred not being a predator? superkirbylover i dont really give a fuck about what you think, look heres mildred talking about drawing rape porn of my characters while i was fourteen (14) ((14 years old))
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 03/10/2026
i’m done with this community. please remove my name from credits. goodbye
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
i hope you’ll be okay
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
any time I see victims speak up I feel glad but at the same time I feel crushed, because I want to feel empowered to speak up about my own experiences, but for years I've kept feeling like I couldn't and had to keep staying quiet and enduring various behaviors that affected me over and over
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
this community has honestly destroyed me mentally in so many ways I'm still trying to recover from and people largely take zero accountability for anything they do, only deflect and use how it's affected me to point and act like I'm crazy. it's so fucking insulting and demeaning
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
and times I tried to connect with other people who went through the same thing to actually process it, hoping they would understand, I was told "I'm making their trauma about me" and other shit, as if I wasn't looking for support from those I was close to. genuinely what the fuck
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
someone tried telling me at one point it wasn't grooming because it "didn't have intent to groom" when I don't know what else you call "person repeatedly normalizing minors to adult sexual interactions and engaging with them" other than grooming. like I felt so fucking used
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salh @bettercallsalh.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
vouching for this because in my experience mildred was absolutely grooming a lot of fucking people. she was drawing nsfw shit of my characters when i was 14 and she was well into her 20s
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
if anything goes without saying if you’re someone who tries to retaliate against me for this I will not be afraid of saying who you are, please do not engage in something like that
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
It’s for these reasons among others that I just largely don’t trust anyone and feel that some people don’t really care about victims, but just saving face
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
People in this fandom will play favorites or identify enough with one person over another that “support victims” ends up feeling like a popularity contest for some people, whether they actually want to believe victims or disregard them because they favor the person being accused of something.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
I’ve spoken to victims who were groomed by the same people as me who felt afraid or intimidated of coming out about what happened to them and how they were retaliated against when they already tried to in the past
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
Voltra and Mildred both shared their nudes around minors, including Mildred sharing Voltra’s nudes
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
Voltra, Mildred, and Ryla would all normalize teenagers to sexual interactions with adults, downplaying the affect it had, normalized minors depicted in NSFW, and at one point after I became an adult I was effectively “pimped out” to someone to fulfill their fetishes I was normalized to as a minor
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
I’ve been quiet for a long time out of fear of retaliation or losing friends but at this point I’d probably just kill myself instead
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
I genuinely don’t trust people in this fandom after how much shit I’ve gone through, how deeply it’s affected me, and how I keep being blamed over and over and treated like I’m the one at fault while others defend these people or selectively choose which victims to believe and support
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
fuck it, people who are going to shittalk me will do it regardless. I was groomed by Rylarolls, ManeaterMildred, Voltra, and someone whose username I don’t know. I’ve been told that my groomers didn’t actually groom me, treated like it was my fault for talking about it, and scared from coming out
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
I don’t speak for team switched anymore but as someone who contributed to work Shayy profited off of, I want those videos down and to stay down, or I will look into legal options.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/10/2026
frankly I’m just disgusted and disappointed by Shayy but I’m also upset by people in this community who continue to engage in victim blaming, groomer apology, or downplay the actions of abusers. if we’re going to say support victims, it needs to be all victims. not just convenient “perfect” ones.
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Sarah 💜 @vyletbunni.com · 02/10/2026
response to shayy's video www.youtube.com/watch?v=jomy...
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 30/09/2026
Frankly I don't know what's going on with me, how much time this is going to continue to take to make meaningful progress, or what the future has in store -- but I want to make that point crystal clear, because it makes me uncomfortable.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 30/09/2026
In my earlier days of the UTDR fandom, I was in spaces around a lot of adults who made their mental state the problem of teenagers in Discord servers -- and in the long run, this took a huge toll on me mentally when it came to playing therapist for adults who refused to seek help.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 30/09/2026
I do appreciate everyone's support and this isn't meant to be disrespectful in the slightest, I just feel uncomfortable at the prospect of impressionable individuals feeling like it's their duty to help a mentally unstable adult -- and it's another reason why I want to stop making worrying posts.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 30/09/2026
I mean this in the most respectful way possible, but while I apologize for posts of this type while I've been in a poor state of mind, I really don't want minors to be offering me emotional support in the replies -- this isn't a dig, it's an adult not wanting children to feel responsible to help me.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 27/09/2026
straight up just don’t trust anyone because I’m tired of being lied to by people or treated like my trust means nothing to anyone
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 27/09/2026
I’m tired of being scared out of saying things that happened to me because others don’t take accountability, whether that’s naming people who groomed me or other shit. It’s exhausting especially when I’m shown that things will never change time and time again, and everything is always just my fault.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 27/09/2026
genuinely I think I’m just done with this fandom altogether. I’ve had so many things soured for me. all the times people spread shit around, lie, deflect from things they did—or hell, just being groomed, harassed, abused—has taken so much out of me to the point I don’t know who I am anymore.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 26/09/2026
yeah im done. if anything im no longer making progress and instead just going in reverse. struggling to stay alive but regardless i no longer have any hope things will meaningfully improve and im just resigning myself to things always being this way. don’t expect anything from me anymore
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
if anything i’m just surprised i’m still alive. i don’t know how long that’s going to last
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
maybe there just isn’t a point anymore
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
i don’t know. there’s no point to even talking about this. i feel like nothing is going to change and i can’t stand feeling too scared to talk about certain things.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
i still just feel as if my entire life has completely fallen apart and anything i’ve aspired or looked forward to is gone. i don’t know how to be happy or get myself back, even with the help i’m getting. nothing feels attainable, i feel devoid of passion and purpose.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
as a result i just feel alone all the time and keep struggling to connect with others or distract myself. everything feels like so much work and i’ll have days where i feel okay and days where i crash hard. i don’t know how to get out of that cycle but i’m trying.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026
i think what’s really made it difficult to connect with others following the discord ban is that it was always easy to just hop in to ongoing conversations. i’m so used to specific people and situations and having none of that, whether it’s an autism thing or not, has made me feel incredibly lonely
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 23/09/2026
i can’t do this
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 23/09/2026
i’m sorry
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
Remembered I have Prey in my library, definitely need to check that out after.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
Death of the Outsider next! Really looking forward to seeing how it expands on everything Dishonored 2 did.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
The narrative was really nice, and the overall worldbuilding and setting itself are so captivating and iconic. I want this world expanded on even more, absolutely one of my favorite video game worlds down to its aesthetic and technology.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
Dishonored 2 finished and wow, what a game. Played through as Emily and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. The content offering is fantastic and there’s a lot of depth to your decisions, was surprised you could change the past. Need to try playing as Corvo and using his abilities.
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 17/09/2026
though tbf I’ll take pulling pokemon card orders over “I need 200 pieces of lumber” ones LOL
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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 17/09/2026
Funnily enough I think I was the one who gave them their order when they checked in for pickup and they weren’t rude or anything? Can’t recall much, it wasn’t very memorable outside of the quantity itself
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