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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 12h

I mean this in the most respectful way possible, but while I apologize for posts of this type while I've been in a poor state of mind, I really don't want minors to be offering me emotional support in the replies -- this isn't a dig, it's an adult not wanting children to feel responsible to help me.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

yeah im done. if anything im no longer making progress and instead just going in reverse. struggling to stay alive but regardless i no longer have any hope things will meaningfully improve and im just resigning myself to things always being this way. don’t expect anything from me anymore

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

i think what’s really made it difficult to connect with others following the discord ban is that it was always easy to just hop in to ongoing conversations. i’m so used to specific people and situations and having none of that, whether it’s an autism thing or not, has made me feel incredibly lonely

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

Dishonored 2 finished and wow, what a game. Played through as Emily and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. The content offering is fantastic and there’s a lot of depth to your decisions, was surprised you could change the past. Need to try playing as Corvo and using his abilities.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

hopefully upping my meds will help with the freakouts I’m still having. thank god for Rx coupons though, insurance did NOT want to cover the cost and I would have been down nearly $1-2k

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Replayed Dishonored and finally got around to playing the Daud DLCs, completed everything on Low Chaos and zero kills (besides when the game bugged out.) Still one of my favorite games of all time, really need to do a list of those at some point.

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Halo Legacies | SPV3 @halo-legacies.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

The next blog update is here for Halo Legacies! In this article we discuss how we settled on the ODST Engine, this projects origins in Halo CE, Enemy animation and features, and a look at the overhaul of the Prometheans! halo-legacies.blogspot.com/2026/09/whel...

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Dev Blog 2: The Road to the ODST Engine for Halo Legacies

Hello everyone! It’s been just about 2 months since we finally revealed this project and reactivated our social media accounts. The feedb...

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

it's 2 in the morning but I can't sleep after being sick all day, does anyone see the vision or am I chopped

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

oh yeah so someone that's stalked and harassed me for 10 years stole this handle after I said it lol. made two accounts, one seemingly taken down by bluesky since they shared my personal info and mocked me, making it obvious who they were by what they said. hope they get help.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Hi. Currently in the process of trying to recover from very intense depressive, paranoid, and suicidal spiraling episodes. May try posting about random things in an attempt to help myself out of this cycle and avoid discussing too many negative things in a public space.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

either deleting my account or just logging out so i don’t keep making concerning posts. i don’t know if my meds are even working. i need know i can’t do this anymore and i’m struggling not to do anything stupid

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

regardless of whether or not I make it through this period of my life, I currently have no intentions of returning to projects I worked on due to personal reasons which make it difficult for me to feel comfortable anywhere. that being said, I wish everyone the best of luck

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

last day of a daily therapy program and learning the psych diagnosed me with bpd without even telling me is crazy

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

it’s so hard to sleep. i feel so sick

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

does “zeemarz” for a username Suck or is it Good

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

second sanctuary doesn’t look different from first sanctuary just because susie made it, it looks different since it was made from the memory of the first sanctuary. feel like this keeps getting misinterpreted. a dark world was created from the memory of a dark world, rather than the location itself

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 13/08/2026

making progress in therapy but still having a lot of missteps, I'm sorry for all of the concerning posts still. bad cycle I keep trying to break. I don't want to just go ahead and outright delete anything and pretend like it didn't happen. just don't want to keep feeling this way anymore

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

every time i start to feel better and make genuine progress i end up crashing and burning again and it’s a cycle that feels impossible to escape no matter how hard i try, i feel so worn down by too many things that after unpacking one it doesn’t make a difference for the others crushing me

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 19/07/2026

i don’t know how to say this, but i think it’s best that nobody hears from me ever again. for a long time i’ve been a burden on others and no matter how hard i’ve tried to get better, i just can’t pull myself out of this spiral. it’s gotten worse for years and i see no light anymore. i’m sorry.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 12/07/2026

im sorry to anyone ive concerned regarding my mental health and well being. im still receiving help but barely holding on. i really want things to get better and im sorry for being like this

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

quick depression break for deltarune chapter 5 crackpot theories

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

makes me wonder if what got me banned was posting spritesheets with grid patterns, plus the mass reports from bigots. they really don’t want to admit that anything is their fault here because that would completely undermine their moderation and highlight the problem with their reliance on ai

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory with zero basis or reasoning: what if the name easter eggs are characters that are important to the prophecy, and the Knight is kidnapping them to stop the prophecy from being fulfilled? effectively: it's a hit list.

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Behold, Maxine @beholdmaxine.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

Well, it looks like my time has come... My mom's lost her job last month, and we've been having difficulties finding a new one. We've got 1 week left to find one so we can make it in time to pay July's bills. To that end, I'm opening up a Ko-fi to buy us some more time. ko-fi.com/beholdmaxine

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

okay done posting about deltarune for now back to feeling horribly depressed ✌️

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

hyperfixations are a hell of a thing to help with extreme depression but my god is it absolute hell to combine that with being a deltarune fan and its release dates

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SKL @superkirbylover.me · 23/06/2026

help me, a disabled transmasc, escape abuse from my step-father tl;dr: stepfather has increased the intensity of abuse from verbal to include physical, and not only do i need out, so do my grandfather and mother, both physically disabled and my mother immunocompromised. ko-fi.com/superkirbylo...

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers maybe like this? for "game worlds," I didn't visualize it properly -- think of them more like parallels, each with their own layers underneath, rather than existing as one layer. idk

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers so gaster has different people working undercover in the simulation to make sure things go smoothly. “normal npc” did something to onionsan to keep them from discovering something. sans is supposed to observe but got too attached and involved with toriel.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers crackpot theory diagram

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers Maybe Ralsei's a tree with roots spanning all of Hometown: - hat form and door resemble tree - distinction of plants as separate from lightners and darkners, ralsei's jealousy of flowery, identity crisis - can appear in any dark world - "darkness brewing under the town"

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

deltarune chapter 5 spoilers i'm now more confident in my crack theory that deltarune's world is fake -- it's a simulation housed within the broken machine in sans's lab. sans didn't come from deltarune, he's controlling a character in it, like the chapter 3 boards.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

i wish i would have been in a good enough place to have streamed my playthrough of chapter 5 because i would have absolutely done the deku voice for you know who the entire playthrough

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 25/06/2026

i’m not exactly doing great nor ready to talk to people again yet but genuinely what was that entire chapter

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

Hi, been a good bit. Currently receiving day therapy and trying to get myself together. I know I’ve made concerning posts here and there and I apologize for that. Haven’t been in a great nor stable state of mind for months now, and while I’m still struggling a lot, I’m trying my best.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

It’s with a heavy heart that I’m leaving everything and abandoning my dreams. Thank you for the memories.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 13/05/2026

at least for the foreseeable future, I'm not going to be streaming anymore. similarly I'm considering either taking a long break from, or leaving, all projects I work on. I just feel like I've lost hope and my drive to do anything, all of my aspirations. I don't look forward to anything anymore.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

can more people i know please move to Fluxer and start using it. really need to talk to people

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

The past month or so of not having access to Discord, and by extension contact with all of my friend groups, has honestly been devastating to me mentally. Trying to pull through, but feeling crushing loneliness and being unable to enjoy anything for long enough to distract my thoughts isn't helping.

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ompuco @ompu.co · 28/04/2026

found a whole operation of unmanned youtube channels making completely unchecked long form slop videos where the ai voice simulacra regularly trips up & does this for a full ten minutes every time. all the very legit comments are like "NO! THATS NOT TRUE! YOU LIE HE DID NOT" & never acknowledge it.

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Sarah 💜 @vyletbunni.com · 28/04/2026

It's been a hot minute. Let's talk about recent stuff! www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDoc...

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Return of Sarah VyletBunni...? - April 2026 Status Update

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 27/04/2026

crack theory but what if deltarune’s entire world is just a simulation or artificial world within that broken machine in sans’s lab, and all the characters have to grapple with the fact they aren’t real. how do sans, papyrus, and gaster play into this? hell if i know lol

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

Have you been unfairly banned from Discord or had negative experiences with their support? Feel free to reply below and describe your situations in detail.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

Using Fluxer instead of Discord for now, if anyone I'm closer with wants to friend me, shoot me a DM here or try asking mutual friends if they already have me added.

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beethovenus.bsky.social @beethovenus.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

I'm sorry but genuinely isn't this such a shitty thing to do?? We had dozens of people making posts directed at him for literal weeks, begging for a response, showing evidence of bad actors... only for him to FINALLY respond, and this was it? What in the absolute fuck? Who does this?

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#1 susie apologist @deltaconduit.bsky.social · 24/04/2026

If anyone had any doubts regarding Discord's lack of professionalism this response should be enough to quell most of them. What do you mean you had the time to analyze the case the moment you heard of it, but not to respond once you were done?

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