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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 06/10/2026

went to the ER last night and they said it was reassuring and I should feel the pain go down in the next few days if I keep taking Advil and Tylenol... I won't lie im still very anxious but Im reassured enough if it's reassuring enough for the doctor...

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

what I have, it sucks because art was really the only thing i have and now im kinda just. existing as nothing and that'll probably be how it goes til i find some menial job to dedicate myself to lol

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

y'know I don't really do art anymore because I don't like any of the art I make. Art has stopped bringing me any joy because I only focus on what i can do better and all the flaws that add up in my shit are so unignorable and make it looks so so bad to me I can't find any satisfaction in making--

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

how do i stop being ashamed of everything I make n stop caring about the quality of it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

things have been bad lately I'll try to be less volatile about it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I'll spend all day playing games though!!! how funny i use those initial subjects as my examples too im literally nothing and nobody except for just being a #Mindless #Consumer . deeply embarassing shameful existence i live i hope to atone for it some day (not like I'll do anything But Hope anyways)

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I don't listen to music, I don't watch shows, I don't read books, I don't learn, I don't create, I don't live no matter how badly I want to because I cannot bring myself to start for whatever reason so I will lay pathetically and be a shell of a person until I die

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

being scared of everything blows

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

drew a bit tonight. it's good to draw with no expectations for anything sometimes im remembering

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

i should get back to playing and posting about Pokemon soon

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

i hate not being able to answer or having to guess on personal questions especially ones about plurality, but my memory sucks too much shit and there's a lot of stuff we straight up don't know / don't have an answer for so like.. idk...

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

it sucks I'd love to talk to so many people i just get in my own head about how everyone hates me and doesn't wanna hear from me and I've been too negative lately and nobody wants to hang around that and how I've been so annoying and driving people away especially when I do nothing but complain lol

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

why is talking to nobody suddenly driving me insane when I so could've handled it before maybe im just losing my mind because of other things???? idk everything's sucked for a while now

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

whenever I eventually get a car, I'd like to just pick a direction and drive. just aimlessly follow the road and drive whatever direction i feel like til i for whatever reason can't anymore

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

ah I think i forgot to post this really scuffed Marissa doodle

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

it's more customer facing which is good, i need something like that being so withdrawn

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

got an interview on Friday woo! wish i was any amount as happy about it as last time or had anything to say like "gonna slow down on art!!" but for some reason im kind of really apathetic to it and I haven't been doing anything art related anyways really lol... I really hope having this job helps me

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

I saw a post i cannot find for the life of me about how being omega depressed and ND just feels like playing pretend and larping your whole entire existence actually and like yeah i don't even feel like a person i really truly just feel like an empty soulless husk who's running out of time and ppl

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

it does suck alot thinking about how I would've loved having an art career and how it's not something realistically i could ever do, but it's probably really good to put it down n remind myself that it's all just a hobby... at some point it'll lead me to being less stressed about it maybe hopefully

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

I passed out earlyy and woke up late where nobody was up and I wasn't able to get back to sleep my schedule is fuckedddd everything is fucked uppp aaaaaghh

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I haven't even been drawing anymore I really truly just sit around all day doing nothing

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

yk how at a certain point u kinda just give up tryin to take good pictures

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

i need to get medicated and therapy or something

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

it's so embarassing not really watching alot of movies or shows or listening to music rlly cuz ppl ask me abt those things and i have to rely on the same answerrs I've been giving for years lol

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

feels really awful and like im maybe the worst person that could exist on this sorry ass planet but its What Ever

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

i just have like no fucking energy anymore and im hardly doing anything or talking to anyone anymode it feels like and i really just cannot shake So many awful feelings but it's whatever . i will so totally draw soon and get art out soon and I have plans today so maybe that'll go well

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 26/08/2026