iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

y'know I don't really do art anymore because I don't like any of the art I make. Art has stopped bringing me any joy because I only focus on what i can do better and all the flaws that add up in my shit are so unignorable and make it looks so so bad to me I can't find any satisfaction in making--

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

how do i stop being ashamed of everything I make n stop caring about the quality of it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

things have been bad lately I'll try to be less volatile about it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I don't listen to music, I don't watch shows, I don't read books, I don't learn, I don't create, I don't live no matter how badly I want to because I cannot bring myself to start for whatever reason so I will lay pathetically and be a shell of a person until I die

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

being scared of everything blows

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

drew a bit tonight. it's good to draw with no expectations for anything sometimes im remembering

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

i should get back to playing and posting about Pokemon soon

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

i hate not being able to answer or having to guess on personal questions especially ones about plurality, but my memory sucks too much shit and there's a lot of stuff we straight up don't know / don't have an answer for so like.. idk...

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 20/09/2026

why is talking to nobody suddenly driving me insane when I so could've handled it before maybe im just losing my mind because of other things???? idk everything's sucked for a while now

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

whenever I eventually get a car, I'd like to just pick a direction and drive. just aimlessly follow the road and drive whatever direction i feel like til i for whatever reason can't anymore

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

ah I think i forgot to post this really scuffed Marissa doodle

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

got an interview on Friday woo! wish i was any amount as happy about it as last time or had anything to say like "gonna slow down on art!!" but for some reason im kind of really apathetic to it and I haven't been doing anything art related anyways really lol... I really hope having this job helps me

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

I saw a post i cannot find for the life of me about how being omega depressed and ND just feels like playing pretend and larping your whole entire existence actually and like yeah i don't even feel like a person i really truly just feel like an empty soulless husk who's running out of time and ppl

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

it does suck alot thinking about how I would've loved having an art career and how it's not something realistically i could ever do, but it's probably really good to put it down n remind myself that it's all just a hobby... at some point it'll lead me to being less stressed about it maybe hopefully

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

I passed out earlyy and woke up late where nobody was up and I wasn't able to get back to sleep my schedule is fuckedddd everything is fucked uppp aaaaaghh

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I haven't even been drawing anymore I really truly just sit around all day doing nothing

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

yk how at a certain point u kinda just give up tryin to take good pictures

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

i need to get medicated and therapy or something

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

it's so embarassing not really watching alot of movies or shows or listening to music rlly cuz ppl ask me abt those things and i have to rely on the same answerrs I've been giving for years lol

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

i just have like no fucking energy anymore and im hardly doing anything or talking to anyone anymode it feels like and i really just cannot shake So many awful feelings but it's whatever . i will so totally draw soon and get art out soon and I have plans today so maybe that'll go well

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

im quitting my job today because im too pathetic to keep going here's a doodle page i did yesterday

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

few things are as humiliating as going to work with a face full of stubble

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

been able to fit one more belt stud consistently around my waist (this is a terrible horrible thing i hate getting thinner im already so boney)

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

trying to make a human version. for werefox sona things maybe. couldn't finish it tho maybe ill come back to it later. pretend i finished it.

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 15/08/2026

gonna be busy today but im totally staying up til like 2 or 3am to play more platinum...

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 14/08/2026

gosh i need to stop sleeping til just before my shifts it's awful

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 12/08/2026

did this, and it's soo interesting cause even tho it's second place brave is the last adjective I'd ever use to describe myself lmao

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

im gonna play sooo much platinum tonight when im off work just u wait

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

Playing Pokémon Platinum for the first time !!! liveblogging thread that I'll pick up and put down as I go through the game 🧵

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

how someone draws Shiver Hohojiro is a good indicator of the pureness of their heart and soul

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

i could wake up tomorrow and everyone I've ever talked to could leave me with a message talking about how much they hate my guts with me already blocked so I can't respond and I'd completely understand 100% and wish them well without me and probably cry and die about it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

I apologize for not having made anything of worth in a while I've been doing horrendously mentally recently to be honest and it's quite hard to get stuff out, im trying my best though I promise. No idea why that's happening though maybe it's just my birthday being close and that's it

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

snippet of a sketch cause it didn't turn out well

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

I do apologize for venting so often here it kinda just spills over sometimes I'll be more mindful in the future

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

im gonnaaa tryy and make a little gym leader team for my sona they'll probablyyy be ghost type cuz of what my friends have said, just trying to get down a team but idk what pkmn suit me... So far I'd like Shedinja, Dragapult, Alolan Marowak n Mega Absol Z for an Ace ... idk look out 4 that ig

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

if i ever think about venting on here I should do mundane status updates or thoughts or whatever . im totally getting off work early tmrw. i don't remember the last time I went to the doctor (genuinely actually it's very troubling im realizing like we don't have a family doctor or nothin idk anythin

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

they make the work day 8 hours long so every dysphoric tranny they hire has a third of their day dedicated to nothing but humiliation and self doubt and suicidal thoughts

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

tried drawing myself and got way too fucking stressed out about it but it'd okay i don't need to be making vent art anyways

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

realized this morning my birthday was in 2 weeks away and blegh

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 25/07/2026

im glad tomodachi life has had me in it's grasp basically forever since launch

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emily 🔞 @sillykittymonster.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

toxic yuri vn fan art thread, yay jinglebug journey - @uberthemeh.bsky.social read 7/13

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

Knee hurty (crop from a bigger thing)

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•◁:ꔷo @keroberrycola.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

jinglebugs journey

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

doodle of Jinglebug whom I heart. I've been the most isolated and horrible feeling I've felt in so long it's getting bad and only worse lately

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BearHiko B-Side @bearhiko.bsky.social · 16/07/2026

played Jinglebug Journey, a submission to Yoxic Yuri VN Jam 2 on itch and it was literally targetted to hit my brain in it's crazy weird right spots i fear it's so good 18+ tho

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