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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

it’s pretty pathetic but I haven’t fasted this long in a very long time. Idk when im going go end it but im fully triggered and I just don’t want to eat ever again.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

my hubbie took some pics of me yesterday and this is the result of that

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 30/01/2026

I’ve come to the realization that seeing my family/parents affects me more than I realize Every time they visit me it sets me back. I relapse back into old patterns - indulging in comfort food, emotional eating, using sweets to cope. Every time it takes me MONTHS to get out of it.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 30/01/2026

hi I’m back yes I’ve maintained this entire time but I’m ready to lose now lol

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

It might take me another year but I don’t mind as long as I make it happen. And I will.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

And this feeling is so addicting. The feeling of achieving my wildest dreams, watching my clothes become looser and looser..my bones slowly start to surface more and more..I cant get enough of it. I’ve waited so long and I’m so close..just have to keep going a little more and I can get there..

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

My life has changed so drastically just by getting to 184 / bmi 27. I can easily imagine how much more it will change once I reach my actual goal. I’ll have even more confidence to do things I’ve always wanted to do but never could because of physical weight restrictions or mental limitations.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

Of course I’m not at my goal yet. I still have a long way to go. But I know I’ll get there eventually. And I no longer have to hide myself in the meantime. I can dress how I want now without feeling super insecure. I don’t shy away from cameras. I no longer hide at home.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

I forgot what it felt like to not be obese. To be able to walk for longer than 10 minutes without getting out of breath. To not struggle finding my size in stores or having clothes fit awkwardly. To just feel normal and comfortable and fine existing.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

Clearly still very far from my goal but Im so relieved to not be that big anymore…i was stuck between 225-245 for most of my adult life, occasionally dipping to 195 during mia relapses but never going below, and a couple times surpassing 260.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

Yall this wasn’t even my HW but when I tell you I was literally coping so hard by thinking I was just “a little chubby” and seeing myself as I am rn…it’s so fucking wilddddd

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 19/11/2025

Looking at old pics of myself and wow I can’t believe how fat I used to be and I was completely fucking blind to it like how?!!?

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 18/11/2025

cw vomit // ive been wondering why I’ve been smelling vomit recently and I just remembered I got some splashback in my hair a few days ago 😷

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

i know clothes run larger now than they did years ago so i cant be too happy... but progress is progress 💗

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

i went to hot topic yesterday and tried on some clothes that were on clearance. i was so shocked to find the L sizes I picked up fit perfectly. this is coming from a former 2x-3x wearer so i thought no way this would fit and it did!

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

im always so snacky the week before my period...damn luteal phase

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

thank you love 💗 i made peace with my cookie omad 😅 luckily i burned alot of cals yesterday as well but today ill follow these tips so the last 10 cookies dont disappear as fast ahaha

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

Same I don’t keep much in the house but after a week without chocolate I caved 😣 I told myself I’ll just have three a day but that three turned into four then five then six then boom 10 🙃

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

I can never resist Nutella but the cookie version is on a whole other level 😭

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

I shouldn’t have bought these I already ate 10 (700 cals) 😖

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

I’m also super nervous about what they’ll say about my weight loss. My weight has always been a big topic for them and I just don’t want to hear anything. I know my mom will be ecstatic to find I’ve lost so much but I don’t want to hear it at all.

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

And then my alcoholic mother swears there will be no drinking the entire week they are here. Ironically she said it while drunk. She can’t go a single day without a beer. Pretty sure her body is dependent on it. So I doubt that will happen too

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

My family is coming in two weeks and we’re all staying in an Airbnb. I’m so stressed and anxious about it To start, there’s ALWAYS drama, especially with my older brother who I haven’t seen in two years Apparently he’s gone through rehab and is better now but idk if i believe it :/

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

not losing weight after averaging 500 cals for the past several days 😞

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 07/11/2025

my gw is whatever weight I need to be to fit into jfashion clothes

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 05/11/2025

I feel silly still struggling with SH and EDs at this age…will it ever end?

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 05/11/2025

Had a crash out this morning over absolutely nothing and now I’m questioning my entire existence

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 04/11/2025

my hubby said I’m getting too skinny..like bro I still have 50 pounds I need to lose ? 😭

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

gonna be more active on here now that I’m settled in my home and finally locked in

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

Finally back to the weight I was in September before I gained and got stuck in maintenance 😮‍💨 This is my LW as an adult, I still have a long way to go before getting back to my LW ever, when i first developed my ED as a teenager.. but at least November is off to a great start :)

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

did a dolly look for Halloween 🎀

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

Ok 3 pounds not bad! 🙌🏽

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

weigh day tomorrow let’s see if I manage to lose anything ..

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 26/10/2025

between b/ping, laxatives and cramping my stomach is going through a lot of pain rn >~<

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

the city I live in now has soooo many good food options but my appetite has decreased dramatically now that I live with other ppl + im going out and walking a lot more so its actually doable to hit 10k steps a day. I’m officially locked in and so ready to lose the rest of this mf weightttt

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

finally got a hold of my eating and back to restricting 😮‍💨 now to lose the 6lbs I gained (and an extra 20 before the year ends 🤞)

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

only one week left for me to finish packing and cleaning. im moving into a small room in my MILs house and have to somehow donwsize from a 2-story 4 bedroom home..I have to get rid of most of my shit to do so and its stressing me tf out

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

hi im still alive ive just been stuck in a binge cycle for a month and i finally gave up this week and started purging again 🥲

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

The stress of moving has been making me binge eat but ENOUGH I’m DONE I’m starting a fast now

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 22/09/2025

I desperately need to fast, I’m so bloated and gained like 6 pounds in one week ;;

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 20/09/2025

This is embarrassing to share but wow The difference in my face between my HW and my CW is insane…I look like a completely different person

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

I just binged on Culver’s 😭

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 17/09/2025

Ugh I’m so bloated after a day of horrible binging. Seeing my stomach like that triggered me so bad - reminded me of being obese. I can’t go back to that, I have to stop binging…it’s been a week of nonstop food and I already gained two pounds. I don’t want to gain more..

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

Hahah aw man I’ve been so focused on decorating that I’m still missing the majority of bugs/fish/fossils for my museum 😭

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 12/09/2025

I’m back to playing animal crossing all day everyday. Great food distraction and im nearly done with my island! I’ve been working on it on/off for yeaaaars I’m so excited but also a little sad to be done with it soon 😢

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 07/09/2025

Your pets look so snuggly and precious 💕

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 07/09/2025

Ahh I see, thanks for explaining all of this to me! I’m 5’8 so I know even 1200 is considered low but I’m also super sedentary so I try to eat a lot lower to combat that. It’s just so frustrating when I’m barely eating and barely losing 😭 but it makes sense that my body has adapted

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 07/09/2025

Why can I not lose weight eating 600-800 cals a day but the moment I eat 1200 I actually drop

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 04/09/2025

I love your outfit! And the shoes are so cool

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reina @babigruel.bsky.social · 04/09/2025

Thank you 💕 I really hope things change for us, we’re stuck living in an increasingly toxic environment but I do believe things will shift eventually, even if they get worse before they get better. ❤️‍🩹

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