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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

turns out the girl who picked "violence" as a middle name, writes some gnarly shit when left to her own devices. neat

[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

the trick is giving up the idea that some girl is going to slap a collar on me, use it to pick me up off the fucking floor, and clicker train me into doing shit like a big girl uh, metaphorically speaking

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

finding a job is a necessity, obviously. finding a new place to live. I sadly think The Work right now is to become a more functional system irl. that sucks. I want it to be, like. writing a quadruple EP or whatever

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

like, have I experienced romantic love? probably did I have any real understanding of what was happening to me at the time? absolutely not have I repeatedly tripped over my own heart because I got romantically attached to someone who would have been fine just hanging out a lot? yeah, seems like it

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

tbh I don't really understand romantic attraction beyond, like, just wanting to hang out with a person a lot. if it means something other than that, I might need someone to teach me what that is

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I guess I just use this account as a confessional? idk

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I think we did well enough building this network of friends and acquaintances fwiw, which is the important thing longer term. we're significantly more independent than I think we would have been if our romantic ventures had been more traditionally successful. I'm thankful a uhaul didn't hit me but,

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

but it's ultimately for the best, probably. we didn't come here to find a wife. the water is wife. the work is wife. I have work to do this winter. I'm just not totally clear on what it is yet, besides finishing some music

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

an easily foreseeable outcome that has somehow still hit me like a fucking truck

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

didn't find anyone to hibernate with this winter, which I guess is fair for my first year in the wild. but it doesn't feel great

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

moves: [Violence Sound] (WHIMSICAL+): reminds all who are listening of the violence inflicted upon them [Etched In Sand] (OMINOUS+) creates a sense of fear and awe in users of microblogging platforms [Seattle's Malört] (FUCKABLE+) makes you want another shot, even though you hated the last one

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

inventory: small container of loose weed (to refill vape) glasses (slightly scratched) eldest sister complex the absence of memory

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

name: [iris violence sound] epithet: the foxmasked priestess stats: WHIMSICAL: like a series of words that cut exactly how you intended them to. i.e., like good poetry OMINOUS: like oceans but louder FUCKABLE: the way you remember rabbit meat tasting, although you do not remember ever eating rabbit

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

the [irisians] are a monastic order of lesbian knife priestesses known for their distinctive foxmasks, whose role is enacting sacrifices. don't ask what that means. I don't want to spoil the fun

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

it's like the clown joke, except the doctor recognizes him immediately and leaves the room as soon as it's clear there isn't going to be a punchline

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

this account is the closest thing I have to a hole in a rock in cambodia or whatever. please disregard

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

fun thing: when you position yourself as primarily a form of entertainment, you don't get to be mad when the people around you decide to dip out for the parts that aren't entertaining

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 24/06/2026

stealing [orchid]'s naming thing, at least until/unless she gets mad at me and tells me to change it. she isn't yelling at me yet, so maybe she actually loves it and thinks it's a good thing anyway, until further notice, the name's [iris violence sound]

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

I feel like @aychessianorchid.bsky.social already made a post referencing the question mark thing. but, I'm not [orchid noise]. I'm the other one. you can tell, because I'm the one who capitalizes "I"

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[iris sound] (she, like oceans) @aychessianiris.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

who am I, without the other half of ourself who am I, without a mask to hide behind who am I, without others to perceive me who am I, when the holes in me are filled who am I, when I forget the world outside who am I, when the sun forgets to cast my shadow and crucially, does she use question marks?

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