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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

God dammit I am tensing up again... *Sigh*

Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

... I don't even know what I'm feeling right now. Is it emptyness? Hollowness? Just me being too much of a wuss to fucking man up and try to go on with my day? I don't know. School was worse yes, but at least worrying about it distracted me from this "feeling" that has been haunting me.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

My thoughts while unmedicated are concerning...

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

Now that I think about it... If i were to actually do this, i would have to make my own song for it. Because I wouldn't want to do such a thing using somebody else's song and have it flood the comment section of the artist with things about me and my passing.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

I am starting to notice that the effects of my poor sleep schedule are much more prominent when i am unmedicated.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

I am not at the point of cutting my life short, probably never will be. But if I were to do it, i would probably do the siinamota - young girl a method: make a GD level, upload it, and then doing it. Probably would get in those commentary channels as the guy who made a gd level as a goodbye note.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 13/04/2026

Approximately a week ago, the day after my birthday, i had a panic attack. People close to me know about it. I would have probably spiraled further into my own negativity if I was home alone at the moment. What I want to say is, after that episode, i can't stop thinking about how it felt. (🧵)

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 07/04/2026

Broke down in tears for the first time after a while. Please just end me, just erase me from existence.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 26/03/2026

My mom is gonna be out for a week soon for reasons I rather not say yet. Maybe when I see things are starting to push my mental state to the point of no return, I'll talk about it here.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

I fucking hate the fact i keep seeing politics on my TL even though i said explicitly that i don't want that. My life is already shit enough without me knowing that trump is partnering with openAI to hire robot hitmen to kill trans people to protect the kids or some shit like that.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 19/02/2026

Call me Kris Dreemur the way my parents are probably getting divorced.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

Something i completely forgot to mention... Before my relationship with Sophie, i was mainly sure that i was AroAce. Why? Trust issues. I thought that "relationships were a waste of time" that i would spend time with someone only for them to disappoint me. (🧵)

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 11/01/2026

This year i will be in 12th grade. Which means it'll be the last year of school for me unless I get into college. And honestly? I don't think I'm ready... I don't want to deal with all the things that the 𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚕 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍 has, i don't want to deal with the responsibilities of turning 18 on 2027

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 16/12/2025

I have been refraining myself from doing this because i thought it would be too personal, but as time goes on and stuff gets worse and worse for me IRL, i think i need to dump everything here. I clearly need it. 🧵 (this will have trigger warnings, proceed with caution.)

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 07/12/2025

I think I am starting to notice a pattern... I don't know if it's mood swings, what even defines mood swings.? i feel like anything could throw me off balance. Like my mood is constantly on tightrope, in a state of unstable balance. Any little push can break that balance and make me feel miserable.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 28/11/2025

New pfp yet again. I found it in my gallery and I thought it would be perfect for this account.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I'm so fucking pathetic. Tensing up because of some stupid youtuber controversy. Why am I like this?

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 21/11/2025

I think I might have mood swings...

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 11/11/2025

The week barely started and I'm already burnt out. Wonderful.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

I may not be plural or have DID But im almost sure that I'm having mood swings. Considering how i act on this account compared to everywhere else depending on what I'm going through... It makes me think "What the hell was I doing when i said that?"

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 05/11/2025

Why change? Why leaving the plans instead of just staying how it already is? Can't I just stay in my little bubble of comfort with the people that actually appreciate my presence? Haha! I hate my life. I can't even look up to the next visit of my gf because i don't live near her anymore! Kill me.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 04/11/2025

My head hurts, I hate this. I want to disappear.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 04/11/2025

Am I a bad friend for avoiding looking for helping them because it makes me uncomfortable? Am I selfish for not helping them because the topic makes me tense up? Am I a bad person for ignoring someone's issues for my own sake? I want to stop thinking about it, but my stubborn brain doesn't let me

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 29/10/2025

I've been thinking about possibly being plural... Even though it's not as evident as it should be, i definitely notice the different ways I act on different contexts, and how much they contrast with each other. The Seasonal System was created as an embodiment of that. (🧵)

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 27/10/2025

Forget Lily, i found this pfp and i am now using it for this account.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Of course my dad is gonna blame the fucking phone. As if he wasn't part of it aswell.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 19/10/2025

This aged like milk left outside for 3 months. I want to disappear from this world.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 15/10/2025

Quiet snowfall, peacefully drifting down. Burying my burden in it's icy crown. The cold breeze blows, carrying it all away. As I prepare for yet another day. The cold protects me, it's ice sways As Autumn goes, leaving it's decay.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 15/10/2025

I may like this song because of the vibes, but in terms of being relatable to me, Compared Child takes the cake. youtu.be/olWvy0PiLfA Not that my parents compare me to others, if then, they compare my sister to me. It's mainly just me and myself.

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ツユ - くらべられっ子 MV

YouTube video by ツユ

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 15/10/2025

So far the second half of the school year is going better than the first. Mainly because i wasn't stuck in a bad group for the one project we're going to spend 3 months working on this time.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 14/10/2025

Another stressful course project done. Fucking cloroform me to ease up before i crash out.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

Thinking about if i should do a daily "journal" thing here... I don't know if i will actually commit to it, considering how i am, but you never know.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

A little hint: If you are struggling with comparing yourself to people who are better, compare yourself to people who are worse. Like me! I am bad at everything I try no matter the effort.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 12/10/2025

youtu.be/4QXCPuwBz2E I've been listening to this song more and more often... I kinda want to make something to tell the story i got with this song, it's sequel and the rest of the ones in the album. It would be cool, but it'll take long considering how busy I've been lately...

youtu.be

ツユ - あの世行きのバスに乗ってさらば。 MV

YouTube video by ツユ

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 11/10/2025

New Vent Acc restriction, do not follow this account unless i follow you first. I'll probably repurpose it for a "safer" less follower based account for me to use when i don't feel like staying on main. Every person that isn't mutuals on this account will be blocked, no second thoughts.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 09/10/2025

I should probably use the versions of the girl in my pfp where her face is scribbled out. To be more creepy and fitting for a vent out

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

Gonna reactivate my accounts back. I guess i got the answers I wanted...

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

Man, school is boring as hell when you have nothing to do in a class

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

Experiment Update: So far, no one seemed to have noticed the absence of my main accounts. Maybe it's just because it's just been half of the day, I'll wait a bit more.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

i don't want you to forget me i don't want you to forget me i don't want you to forget me

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

The best thing about the little period after exams are done is that you have absolutely nothing to do before the next period actually starts

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 08/10/2025

Gonna start it for real tomorrow and reactivate my accs on Friday

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

Random nighttime sadness... For no reason at all... Why am I like this.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Once again talking about my pfp and the girl in it. I legit wanna steal her look. Maybe not in such a girly way but her aesthetic looks good

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Nevermind, not right now. Might do it Monday instead

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Gonna do it tomorrow, and reactivate it on Saturday. I will be deactivating every single account i have, including Team/Starcross and my lore accounts. Except this one. Remember: I am fine, this is an experiment to see if people would notice if i deactivated my accs.

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

Might deactivate for 2 days Just for science

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Lyn/Au7umn 🍁 @autumns-solace.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

I don't know if it's the lack of sleep numbing me but today was actually pretty decent. Which will be needed since exams start tomorrow...

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