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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 17h
Two days of RBFB blanks 😭😭😭 @folly.studio
Real Bird Fake Bird game, but it's a blankReal Bird Fake Bird game, but it's a blank (x2)
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 27/09/2026
LETS GOOOOOOOO hankgreen.com/smush · 27 Sept 754 pts · PERFECT 💯 · 17-day streak 🥞🥞🥞 🥞⭐🥞 🥞🥞🥞
Scorecard from today's Smush game. 754 points, a perfect game.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 22/09/2026
🩵 (I don't have the punc pack, so no comma :( ) @johngreensbluesky.bsky.social @folly.studio
A drawing of a nighttime, snowy mountain scene, silhouettes of puen trees in the foreground, and looming above them, a lit billboard. 

Text reads: Hollywood Ending
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 07/09/2026
So..... Uh..... About that..... hankgreen.com/smush · 7 Sept 1152 pts · PERFECT 💯 · 60-day streak 🥞🥞🥞 🥞⭐🥞 🥞🥞🥞 @johngreensbluesky.bsky.social @hankgreen.bsky.social
My Smush game score breakdown for today's game. 1152 points — the first time I have ever scored 1000+
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 02/09/2026
We have fun here
My first-watch list for August 2026. Left to right: Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows, Sherlock Holmes, Project Hail Mary
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/09/2026
@johngreensbluesky.bsky.social @hankgreen.bsky.social After DAYS — no, no — WEEKS of trying and trying and trying and trying.. I finally got a perfect Smush game. I am....wow. hankgreen.com/smush · 1 Sept 766 pts · PERFECT 💯 · 54-day streak 🥞🥞🥞 🥞⭐🥞 🥞🥞🥞
Scoring card of my perfect Smush game!!! I have 766 points!
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/09/2026
Happy September! 🪐 #PHM
My lockscreen. Background of golden stars in black space. A picture sticky taped in the middle of Rocky and Grace walking along a beach. Gold text at the bottom reads: "You gave me everything."

The time is written in a stencil font and a light blue colour, reads 01:35. The date reads Tue, 01 September.Background of stars and planets against the black void of space. In the middle, a patch of the Hail Mary mission, reading "Hail Mary" at the top, "Earth" at the bottom. In the centre of the pin are the names "Grace" and the names of his crew members.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 28/08/2026
@folly.studio I have FANTASTIC news fnvurbuvfbuch
Dogpile downloading from Google Play Store, progress 7% of 320MB
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 21/08/2026
My heart just broke into a million tiny pieces
Screenshoy of Dogpile on Google Play Store. It says that my device isn't compatible with the version of the app.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 13/08/2026
I haven't shared any poems here in ages bc tired + it feels....pointless. But I am proud or this one so here ya go 13 Aug 2026 wings ablaze
13/08/26
(1/4)

I know you too well.
Every moment
before you even fell
knee deep in torment

you were too stubborn 
to not fall with fight
and fury.

If only you would remember 
every time you are low.
That you know
how this goes.13/08/26
(2/4)

You fall,
rage as you tumble down,
land with a thud.

Stay down.
Look up 
at often starless skies...

in the eyes 
of the abyss
you don't miss
your breaths —

You're still here.13/08/26
(3/4)

You don't dare
bow to despair 
and fear.

You get up,
dust off,
laugh in its face.

And oh, 
here's my favourite part;

You spread
those glorious wings —
that I swear 
are made of fire —13/08/26
(4/4)

And
You
Soar.

A blazing trail of:
"Try again"
burning behind you.

Remember.
Remember. 
Remember. 

You are 
persistence incarnate.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 03/08/2026
no cheating, post your lock screen I miss him 💔
Screenshot of my lock screen. The time and date is 3:46am, Saturday, August 1st. Wallpaper is of Crowley reaching for a book on a shelf in Aziraphale's bookshop.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 03/08/2026
Happy Esther Day, Nerdfighteria. 🩵 I love you. (And so does Cora!!)
A blue Finch birb, wearing a white shirt with finchies on it, white pants and white shoes. She's also wearing a white leafy crown and has light blue wings at her back. She holds a blue basket off hearts.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/08/2026
01/08/26 ?????
01/08/26
(1/3)

Falling fast,
grabbing at air,
and I despair 
that it doesn't last.

Being okay.

It's dark these days,
more often than not.
I've fought
more battles against myself,
than you ever did.01/08/26
(2/3)

And you leave me in it.
Alone.
All I've ever known
is cold sheets,
dismissive words,
and a heart that aches.

No more.01/08/26
(3/3)

Please, no more.

Give me warmth.
Give me love.
Give me hope.

I was never meant 
to be an island.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/08/2026
@johngreensbluesky.bsky.social needs to see this gem (Original source: @weratedogs.com newsletter)
A cartoon of a golden retriever laying in a sunbeam streaming in from a window. Beside him is his elephant plush.

White bubbles with black text reads: Loving you is like falling asleep. In a warm sunbeam. So easy to do." 
The comic is by Thoughts of Dog.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 31/07/2026
31/07/26 I rage for caring
31/07/26
(1/2)

I rarely rage
at my own kindness, 
at my capacity for care.

Today, I screamed in my head.
I battered my heart,
glared at my being,
saying:
"Never again."31/07/26
(2/2)

And yet.

I know I'll only do it again.

Sometimes, I swear
caring feels like a curse.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 28/07/2026
28/07/26 ode to a teddy bear
28/07/26
(1/2)

Soft and white,
and worn by time,
worn by love,
you were there
when you could be.
When no one else was.

Reaching for you
before I implode,
crash, surrender —
and you don't tell me
I am wrong
for feeling wronged.28/07/26
(2/2)

You don't dismiss me to silence.
You let me stay 
and feed on the comfort
I get nowhere else.

My darling teddy bear.
My dearest Hank.

Thank you.

I'm so grateful.
To you, and to the hands
that created you.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 28/07/2026
On that note: Still can't believe this happened.
Screenshot of the official Six on Broadway account on Instagram sharing my story on their story.Screenshot of a dm with the official Six on Broadway Instagram account where they replied to my story, saying "thanks for helping us take back the microphone! 🎤"
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 27/07/2026
27/07/26 tiny star
27/07/26
(1/2)

Drifting in a starless sky.
Distress calls echo into the void —
I've heard nothing back.

Nothing that promises
being pulled back
to oxygen and life
and hope.27/07/26
(2/2)

I'm running low.
Nowhere to go,
getting harder breathe.

Just one, small 
tiny star.
That's all I ask, at least.
One small spark.

I'll wait.
I'll try.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 25/07/2026
25/07/26 ??????
25/07/26
(1/2)

If only I understood 
why You keep me here
in a house of hurt,
teeming with traitors,
bigots, liars even smoother
than Loki's own.

Why keep me
stuck in a minefield?
Every step I take
triggers the blow25/07/26
(2/2)

And You and I both know:

I'm the only one
shattered into a thousand 
broken splinters.

Don't dare "fix" me.

Get me out.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 24/07/2026
24/07/26 dust in the wind (Gentle note that this does boarder SI — please tread carefully when reading)
24/07/26
(1/3)

It's broken. 
You cannot beat it
into functionality 
in totality
this eclipse 
is nothing but darkness.

Stop. Trying.
Stop hoping
the sun will
emerge again.
Stop screaming it
into fruition.24/07/26
(2/3)

You don't matter.
They don't care.
You are something 
to accept and pull close 
only when they see fit —

Stop trying
Stop trying
Stop trying —24/07/26
(3/3)

Just dissolve 
into dust.

That's what you are.
Disposable. 
Unwanted. 

Unloved.

Let the wind
blow you away.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 22/07/2026
22/07/26 ??????
22/07/26
(1/2)

I have only one
gigantic, impossible ask.
I need to be held.
Carry me, just for a while.
Allow me to lean
on the strength
of another.

Give me space to exist.
Give me air, let me breathe.
Let me rest.22/07/26
(2/2)

Let me be loved.

My heart is so utterly
happy to give.
So happy to love.

This impossible ask
is all I have left.

I want somewhere 
to safely fall, too.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 21/07/2026
21/07/26 paper planes
21/07/26
(1/2)

A paper plane
folded into existence
and sent flying
gliding
floating
riding the breeze
of a winter's morning.

On a street, in a park
her brain a stark contrast
to the bright blue sky,
a girl is sat on a bench21/07/26
(2/2)

the paper plane, ever so gentle
lands on her lap.
And upon her unfolding
this simple creation,
she finds a simple message:

"You are enough.
In fact, you are more than.
To whoever is reading
don't ever stop believing —
you are enough."
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 20/07/2026
20/07/26 breaking molds
20/07/26
breaking molds
(1/2)

I've broken molds
since my first breath. 
And here, with new additions
to my sense of self
knocking on my door,
I'm not even remotely 
afraid.20/07/26
breaking molds
(2/2)

It only means that I 
burn brighter 
than you will ever truly
understand. 
Hotter than you will
ever be able to hold.

Breaking molds
was my destiny, you see.

I aspire to keep breaking them.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 15/07/2026
15/07/26 winter sunsets (Forgot to post here for days, oops)
15/07/26
winter sunsets

Today I embraced the cold
just to marvel at a sunset
ending a crisp winter's day. 

This is what my life has been.
Embracing the cold of my brain
just to marvel at the light
of another tomorrow.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 12/07/2026
12/07/26 static
12/07/26
static
(1/2)

Dissolving into spiral 
and noise like TV static
at max volume
of "I wish I were enough"
of "I wish I were worthy"
of "I wish I mattered" —

I been in this room before.12/07/26
static
(2/2)

And so the question becomes:
How the hell
has my brain not grown bored

of all the deceptive,
senseless,
spiels?

Walk away, brain.

For both our sakes.

Just walk away from the static.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 10/07/2026
10/07/26 birds and worries
10/07/26
birds and worries
(1/2)

It feels so far away.
Any and every 
branch of a future 
that might be.

Tired and stuck,
it'll take sheer luck
to break past
these iron gates.10/07/26
birds and worries
(2/2)

But I long less
for new air,
new scenery, 
new birds to sing me awake.

I long most
for love.
I worry my future 
will look like me
listening to morning birds
alone.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 10/07/2026
4x3.fun 10 July 2026 155 points • No mistakes 🟨🟨🌟 🟪🌟🟪 🟩🌟🟩 🟦🌟🟦 Omg the smusher award!
Stats for today's 4×3 game.
100 points for completion 
30 for solving in under 90 sec
5 for doing in/under 12 clicks 
20 for a 20 day streak
A new personal best score award
A no mistakes award 
An award for playing Smusher
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 09/07/2026
09/07/26 clouds
08/07/26
clouds 
(1/2)

The clouds don't know 
that when they turn grey
shroud the day,
they chase my joys away.

The clouds don't know
their beauty as they wear
the rays of the sun
bright, orange and pink, 
and I cannot help but think 09/07/26
clouds
(2/2)

I don't see my own beauty 
when the sun rays of life
shine in my eyes 
and my smile.

And like the clouds 
we both turn grey
when it's all too heavy 
to carry.

They release by rain.
I release by tears.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 08/07/2026
08/07/26 Couple of weeks ago, I challenged myself to write a poem in both Afrikaans and English. Rules being A: it has to rhyme somewhat and B: It can't loose meaning throughout. I *think* I succeeded. Feel free to dm me for Afrikaans translations! For now.... Enjoy the mystery 👀 – Ella 🩵
08/07/26
sides/kante
(1/2)

Watter kant van jou
sal jy vandag wys?
Any side, love,
any face —
they're all mine after all.

Wat dan van twee?
Ek en jy, vry....
...as we'll stay
until dust and beyond.
08/07/26
sides/kante
(2/2)

I feel we're different 
as the the moon and sun—
maar steeds n span.
Hoe wonderlik is dit nie?

Hierdie dans —
It's a chance 
to show the colours —
van wie die siel is.

Isn't it bliss?

Om so uniek te leef?
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 06/07/2026
06/07/26 Best in the universe I LOVE MY FRIENDS K BAI
06/07/26

Far, far beyond the borders
of these brick walls,
uneven earth,
and endless roads,
I know treasures
I can't begin to measure.

I love them with every atom
of my breathing being,
they are the Force
that keeps me moving.06/07/26

Their light brings me joy,
their humour and wisdom
give the gift of hope.

You can't get better
friends than
mine.

In no universe
is that possible.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 05/07/2026
05/07/26 ?????
05/07/26

The blanket holds me.
For now, it's warmth, 
the distant sound of cars,
and crashing ocean waves,
and slow, sleeping dog breath,
is all I feel I have.

And maybe it's all I need.

Maybe I'll be okay.

Maybe.

Someday.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 03/07/2026
03/07/26 ????
03/07/26
untitled
(1/2)

I can't win
when not even blood
fights for blood,
when all I see,
is backs turning on backs,
as the walls crumble.

I'm tired.03/07/26
untitled
(2/2)

I can't fight.
I can't even swim
to find shore.
No more.
Please, no more.

I can't win.

Not when I'm this
alone.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 02/07/2026
02/07/26 glass ceilings
02/07/26
glass ceilings
(1/2)

Glass ceilings 
are meant to be broken.
And I suppose, perhaps,
I chip at mine
one mug of tea,
one episode of a show,
one breath in hope,
at a time.02/07/26
glass ceilings 
(2/2)

And yet I look up,
and it hasn't even shattered.

....yet. 

One day more.
One day closer.

I will break free.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/07/2026
01/07/26 to fly again
01/07/26
to fly again 
(1/2)

The plummet
after flying high
amongst the clouds
is jarring,
there's no arguing
'bout that.

But dearest,
neither is the fact
that the fall
doesn't erase
the progress,
of making it
to the warmth,
and light of the sun.01/07/26
to fly again 
(2/2)

Remember.
Remember today
started in hope.

Remember the very fact
is etched in the stone
of your history, now

You will rise again.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 01/07/2026
Weeeee
Screenshot of my 4×3 results.

My score is 141. 
I got extra points for:
Finishing under 90 seconds
Reaching an 11 day streak
I got a new personal best score
Made no mistakes this game
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 30/06/2026
30/06/26 the stars agree
30/06/26
the stars agree
(1/3)

Tea's getting cold.
You're lost in your mind, I'm told.
Perhaps, my dear traveller,
my darling storyteller,
I can pull you from
the spiral.

You matter.
In the matter of time 
and life, 
you are here, real
as the blood in my veins.30/06/26
the stars agree
(2/3)

Thus your anger is real,
your despair, your grief,
your fear, your hope,
your heart calling
for the beating rhythm 
of another.

The silence following prayer
and wishes on stars,
does not erase
your existence as you are.30/06/26
the stars agree
(3/3)

You will always matter.

Now, drink your tea.
Feel it go down.
Drown in the cold.
But remember —
you've been told:

You are here.
You are here.
You matter. 

Time and the stars agree.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 29/06/2026
29/06/26 fight and fall
29/06/26
fight and fall
(1/3)

It's brave. 
Attempting to move 
the needle of despair
and pain just
a little. 

Naming the hurt, 
curling up under a blanket,
eating a snack,
or escaping into story —

but you worry.29/06/26
fight and fall
(2/3)

You're sinking, still.
No matter the sheer will 
you out into getting better,
you feel like you're falling.

Maybe you are.
And maybe that's okay.

But darling, 
I see you.
And you're climbing 
all the same.29/06/26
fight and fall
(3/3)

The work you do
matters.

Please.

Don't.
Stop.
Fighting.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 28/06/2026
28/06/26 no fires (Another hard day today.)
28/06/26
no fires
(1/2)

The fire's gone out.
It's cold. Shivering.
I wonder what it's like
to sit at the table where the families are.

I see hugs exchanged
and laughter erupting
from person to person —
no one is

alone.28/06/26
no fires
(2/2)

I see love shining in eyes,
U see hands holding hands
and sorrows, and hopes,
and minds by a thousandfold.

There are glances
in my direction.
No one dares say a word,
no one gives a hand...

Have I done something wrong?

The fire's gone out.
It's cold. Shivering.
Not even my flint
makes a spark.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 27/06/2026
27/06/26 mercy CW for death/mention of dying (albeit metaphorical)
27/06/26
mercy
(1/3)

It has to stop.
The suffocating walls,
the mocking calls
of birds and wind,
and sunlight 
that never meets skin
because it's too
inaccessible. 

It has to stop.
The condescending tones,
the racist rants,
the queerphobic stabs,
and the evergreen knowledge 
that I am not truly loved.27/06/26
mercy
(2/3)

Stop this. All of it.
The lack of true touch,
the void where 
companionship should be,
and yet I don't see
a soul ready

to hold my hand,
my heart,

this is the art
of a decade's worth
of soul-level
erosion. 

I am dying.27/06/26
mercy
(3/3)

Stop this.
Stop this.

BREAK THESE WALLS!!
SHATTER THE GLASS CEILING!!!

MERCY!!
MERCY!!

please.

mercy.

Let me see the sun. 
Let me be held.
Let me be loved.

Mercy. 
I beg.
Mercy.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 25/06/2026
25/06/26 This poem is yours. 🩵
25/06/26
this poem is yours
(1/2)

I hope you know
you are loved.
You, the soul reading this,
the soul I have the bliss
of walking this earth with.

Even if our paths of life
and time are distant, 
it's consistent;
how much I care,
how proud I am
to know you are here,
you exist.25/06/26
this poem is yours
(2/2)

Look at you,
you brilliant creation.
My heart sings
in celebration
of you making it another day.

Of knowing you another day.

Keep going.
And know 
that you
are
loved.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 24/06/2026
24/06/26 quiet hopes
24/06/26
quiet hopes 
(1/2)

Holding onto
quiet hopes
that scream loud
in the heart
is a hefty weight.

But there's delight
in carrying it.
In the imagining 
of possibility.24/06/26
quiet hopes
(2/2)

Oh, but does the waiting
burn deep into the soul.
And still, I carry the hope.
Fingers crossed,
eyes closed,
not a single shooting star
is free from my whispers.

But I think they know.
I think it's okay.

I am allowed to dream.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 24/06/2026
I did my best, @johngreensbluesky.bsky.social But I am a mere South African turtle who lacks the honour and privilege of the joy that is Dr Pepper.... (Cc: @folly.studio ) realbirdfakebird.com
My Real Bird Fake Bird score. I got 5/7 "Current Dr Pepper flavours"
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 23/06/2026
23/06/26 precious light
23/06/26
(1/2)

Oh, how precious
you are, dearest.
Your light shines 
beautifully bright,
and that mind
holds greatness,
and wonder.

You're such
a treasure.23/06/26
(2/2)

I can't measure 
your brightness.
But what I see
is as beautiful as
all stars in every 
galaxy.

Believe me.

I'm glad you're here
shining bright 
for all to see.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 22/06/2026
22/06/26 closer, still (Blame Good Omens for this one...)
22/06/26
closer, still 
(1/2)

One more day,
I tell myself. 
Every single day,
from here on out,
I'm getting closer
to light soaked days.

To be held in mind,
held in heart —
maybe even held
in the warmest, 
safest arms imaginable.22/06/26
closer, still
(2/2)

Every day 
I'm getting
closer. 
To love.
To be loved.

To be free.
Seen. Heard.

One day more.
One day more.
Just keep moving,
I tell myself. 

I will keep going.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 21/06/2026
21/06/26 ?????
21/06/26
(1/2)

Maybe this dark day
is my last.
Maybe I am closer
to light soaked days.

Maybe tomorrow 
is my victory,
I just have to hold on,
hold tight,
grit my teeth
through the pain.21/06/26
(2/2)

Please.
Please let it be true.

I'm so tired,
Mother Universe.

I can't —
I refuse,
to do this 
a decade more.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 19/06/2026
June 19th, 2026 breakaway
19/06/26
breakaway
(1/2)

To break walls,
and steel gates,
and run, run, run...

Just give me an hour.

Fresh air. Oh how amazing 
wouldn't it be to just breathe....

There's not much 
to this coastal dump —
but I'd jump 
on command
to see the ocean
waving back at me.19/06/26
breakaway
(2/2)

I'd just stroll,
observe,
engage when I can,
maybe even write
tiny verses
for passerby.

Return at sundown
to the bent gates
and broken walls,
ready to face them
when they inevitably 
repair and entrap
this soul once again.

Just give me an hour.

Just. One. Hour.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 19/06/2026
June 18th, 2026 all we need (Forgot to post – oop)
18/06/26
all we need
(1/2)

One breath.
Just one breath.
That's all.
One breath will lead,
to one step,
and in step to another.

So just take a single breath.
That's all I need from us —
a gust of air into the branches
inside our lungs
to let us know
that we were always meant
to be here.18/06/26
all we need
(2/2)

That we are here.
The pain is real,
but really....
it has nothing on us,
and a single breath.
A single moment.

That breath?
Our battle cry.
So try.
Pause.
Breathe.

I promise,
We'll be okay.
Please breathe for me.

Just breathe.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 19/06/2026
This is cute as all heck. kojira.github.io/bluesky-lice...
Unofficial Bluesky license card. It shows various info like my handle and ID, date ny account was created and other fun stats.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 17/06/2026
June 17th, 2026 in the silence
17/06/26
in the silence
(1/2)

Perhaps in the silence, 
my absence will be felt.
Maybe then, maybe there
in the void of once was,
you will see.

You'll find
what you had in me.

But no more.
No more holding
my breath.17/06/26
in the silence 
(2/2)

I'm done suffocating 
just to be seen.
Just to be
enough.

No more.
The door is closed.
The silence begins.

But I am not waiting
until your eyes are open.
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Pizzamas Ella 🍕 @atinyella.dftba.social · 16/06/2026
June 16th, 2026 closed doors (Written by a sad & angry turtle)
16/06/26
closed doors
(1/3)

Telling one who despairs
to knock on the door
when no one is there,
ends the world up
with lights flickering out.

Like mine.
I've gotten up,
reached out;
knock, knock, knock—16/06/26
closed doors 
(2/3)

Not even a
"who's there?".
All I get is to stare
into the abyss
of a closed door.

Nothing more.

How do you suppose 
that works?
Is that how you think hope is given?16/06/26
closed doors
(3/3)

No one waiting
at the door
when a soul in despair 
finally feels brave enough 
to ask for light?

Back up your words.
Do better.
Do better.
Do better.
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