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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I know i should focus on these new people but yeah I've worked here for almost 7 years 😞it makes me sad

awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

but anyway this is jsut my rejection sensitivity... because I always feel like shit when he walks away because I feel like im insufferable or smtn

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

anyway i liked talking to him because only him and 1 other girl are on the same age range.... (30s), everyone else is either my mom's age or older.... the other girl is into jersey shore, drinking and casinos😭 we are the only nerds...

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

havent talked about anything besides work (at work) in the past 3 months either work or stuff they all do on weekends... 😭

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

this is what i mean when I say I just exist at work with no friends lol all conversations are about their stuff (other coworkers) I know maybe you are just not meant to make friends at worn but... i spend all day here it should be easier than this 😞

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

nah im so mentally exhausted from my SUPPOSED FRIEND-COWORKER likeeee there's 3 of us here, and 2 students both students leave, so does 3rd coworker... usually, he would hang out with me, make conversation, we would update each other on games.... but he just walked away... again

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

its gonna be strange but idky I've felt so disconnected from dnp this past 6 months 😞 I dont feel like the "friends" vibe i felt before, but more of a content/product vibe maybe thats why I havent kept up with their uploads lately😞 but I could also just feel off due to depression

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

idk anyway just ranting life is so heavy, truly I dont believe it's worth it but my cats still need me, so I prevail

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I always try to find "something wrong with me" so I can explain why I havent felt contentment in 20 years I feel like knowing why/having a diagnosis helps with coping mechanisms that will actually work but nothing works, ever 😅 the adderall works a bit but im still depressed 😭

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

answers are always low self-esteem autism depression 😂im already diagnosed with ADD, which explains everything ok, but sometimes I wonder if i could be autistic.. but add can also be confused with autism I know you can have both but idk I feel like a lot of things share the same traits/struggles

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I always Google "why cant i connect with anyone, why cant i make friends, why do i feel so detached to this world, why am I so hard to be around" 😅😅

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I still dont feel connected to anyone I've met in the past 10 years... other than maybe my coworker (who is ignoring/avoiding me or smtn idk he doesnt talk to me like before... so i dont feel like i have friends at work www

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

anyway they're all nice ofc I met them formally at my friend's wedding last year, and I joined on of their gaming campaigns ONE day lol but yeah idk I liked seeing her and her hubby, it was easier even though we are all introverts so... we are "conversation followers" not starters lol

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

it's really nice but I dont do good in big group settings 😭 they are 7 plus me in that GC not many, but enough for me to just, not interact much😅 I've always wanted a friend group to hang out with but I've only ever really had one on one friends so, idk im not comfortable

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

I saw her and her hubby last Sunday we went to see Avenue Q at a local theater surrounded by trees he told me he added me to their friend's group chat because im always invited to their outings

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 30/07/2026

my friend's friend group are all going to see Spiderman this Saturday but im not caught up😂

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

it will be easier if I had friends at work but, dven though we are friendly and get along, i'm not friends with anyone www I dont talk about anything but work or politics.. or memes... it's very draining, just existing

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

work has been torturous lately... i'm learning a lot, ofc... but, following my trainer around is mentally draining... she's a complainer (not about me but about tests added).. and she loses her patience really quickly, too

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

July 15 was a bad puzzle day

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

I know its 2 am but I need to change the litter box/take it out but I dont want to go outside 😭 but I HAVE to, man my cats only go after breakfast and dinner so thats why I wasn't worried about waiting, but since the air q. is the same, ill do it now 🧍🏽‍♀️

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

earlier, and now at 2 am.. not much difference

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

I made my account in 2006 and yeees, they used to have DMs idr when they stopped (mightve been when Google bought them) but uff that was forever ago... you could also leave comments on people's channels/profiles it was very social media like

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/07/2026

air quality so bad hurts the eyes

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

they are😭 it's crazyyyt

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

truetrue, the watch party is a must

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

I gotta get UP CLEAN do laundry and go buy a damn tv... it's been like 2 weeks since mine broke lmao

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jø @softestecho.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

i can't even describe how much i hate ticketmaster

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

did yall get tickets I feel like a bad fan 😅 because I decided not to spend😭

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

I want m&g😭😭😭 but last time was over 200 lol

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⚧︎ruwe/james☭ @marxistphan.eurosky.social · 22/06/2026

hell is real and it's called phannieism since 2011

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

fuckass venue, what happened to the chicigo theater!!!

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

leg bruise day 4 😂 hit a desk... you can the the desk line skrjwjd anyway I like how bruises look sometimes

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awen🍃 @arenito.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

last week, my tv broke lol I haven't bought a new one so my cats have been without background noise for a week😔so i come home, and play YouTube on my laptop so we catch watch together TVs are sk expensiveeee