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@anpanjay.bsky.social
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 03/02/2026
funny how suddenly you find yourself wanting to ask your mother how granny is doing bc it's snowing and you always talked to her about the weather but she is gone for 3 years now. old habits never go with them, huh?
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 29/01/2026
i'm having my final asd diagnosis appointment mid february and the more time passes the more nervous i become. the first appointment was quite chill and the psychiatrist actually the nicest one out of those i had in the past but i'm so nervous and don't know what i'll do with the answers.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 27/01/2026
literally been seeing u.s. accounts having "frozen" videos, even just tarot reading accounts, left and right. but then listening to the new american tiktok owner or whatever he is, it's not mind boggling to witness and all have seen this censorship coming. it's and outrage nontheless.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 26/01/2026
just make me never find any man ok in any way so i can move on live a happier life and never fall into the trap of developing a crush ever again.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 26/01/2026
thx to pcos i'm on my 3rd week of my period and my raging hormones making me miss people i shouldn't. also feeling miserable on top. it's so stupid.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 22/01/2026
it's tiring to maneuver social rules that make no sense and not get lost in all the nonsense people say and not say a thing at the same time. just tell me you like me. straightforward. i'll gently tell you my feelings, whatever they are, i promise. this constant limbo of guessing is 🫨
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 22/01/2026
and how do you know if someone likes you?? i actually don't know and was always so totally wrong when i thought someone liked me in the past lol. and i'm scared to show too much in case i am wrong yet again. 😮‍💨
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 22/01/2026
how does it feel to have someone yearning for you? watching you from the sidelines, admiring you, getting lost in the mundane things you do, all the while thinking "wow, i like them". and a person you actually like back. i really wanna know how that feels. so long it has only been me doing that.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 19/01/2026
my understanding of love is not the enemy of yours. . . . #art #illustration #cat
black cat in a jumping position on a pink background. a big yellow star in the middle of the picture and right beside the cat.
under it written "my understanding of love is not the enemy of yours" in yellow letters.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 09/01/2026
it's one of those days on that i'm eepy and think a lot of silly thoughts.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 09/01/2026
why do we as human beings think it's normal to have the bodily remains of insects poked on a needle hanging on our walls? (besides natural history museums, i kinda see the aspect there) don't they have the same right to rest as we think humans do?
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marie ✨ needs a nap ✨ @marielux.bsky.social · 03/01/2026
Isn’t it interesting how little the average person nowadays knows about worldly events of the renaissance, yet nearly everyone knows the Mona Lisa? Goes to show how important art is after all. And how nothing can ever replace it, not even AI. Because you can’t replace, the most human core of all.
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cal ☆ @fixonastar.bsky.social · 06/01/2026
☆ 2025 WRAPPED ☆ Honestly, I burnt out somewhere around halfway through the year :,) But there are still pretty boys, friend art, and things I'm still not allowed to share yet. And I did my first two zines ! Ty for sticking around 💛
my brain is lowkey in fire about how little i drew this year so please be niceys<3
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 08/01/2026
LOOK AT MY FREN CAL ✨
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 02/01/2026
she hasn't pooped. went to the vet for a 200€ enema BUT SHE HAS POOPED NOW. and we also found something strange in her bowel. a small thing she must've swallowed around the time i was in korea. it's wandering and the vet says she will poop it out someday but i wanna know what it is lol
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 02/01/2026
year is starting great with a major headache and my cat not pooping for 48 hrs after getting a plastic cone AFTER licking fur off her belly and feetsies but at least i can go home earlier with my overtime hours and hopefully minou has pooped until then q u q
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 31/12/2025
may you all remain as silly as you were this year and maybe even become a little sillier ♥︎
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 30/12/2025
cmyk bores the life out of me but i need it to print and that fucks me up so bad. i'm too stupid to get this extreme pop of color working that i do in rgb.
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a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera .
Alt: a white and black cat is making a funny face while looking at the camera .
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 29/12/2025
i need more cool artists to follow on here ✨
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
hmm lemme introduce myself. i'm jay and i do love making personal art inspired by everyday life, thoughts and feelings ✨
a collection of 9 different illustrations.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
acceptance. . . . #illustration #art #grief
person standing in the rain with the back to us with an orange arrow going through their chestperson sitting on a wall, facing a robin on their hand
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
back from deleting all illus i could find on twitter. felt like ripping my heart out. nice.
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a man in a suit and tie is pointing his finger
Alt: a man in a suit and tie about to cry while signaling with his hand "no more" with a swish of his hand above his shoulder.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 28/12/2025
deleting every illustration of mine i can find on my twitter account bc they are gonna do some weird shit over there. but that hurts me more than just leaving my account be and come here. all the proof i was about to make it over there, all the love i got, now vanishing into data hell.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 23/12/2025
ANYWAY~ after an exhausting end of the year marathon at work i'm finally on a few days of calm. not visiting my family, just cooking a vegan meal for a friend and spending time with her at the market tomorrow and the rest will be me snuggling with my kitty and doing whatever i feel like ehehe
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 22/12/2025
fascinating how i don't really have an online personality anymore since i stopped following kpop content. ever since twitter was gone for me i clawed at the last glimpse of hope that was blsky to keep in the loop but now? who am i outside of that? what do i have to tell without it relating to bts?
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 21/12/2025
my #artvsartist2025 early this year. i'm amazed i even did so many illustrations this year but then most of them were politically motivated.
9 tiles of different illustrations. the middle one is a pic of a person's head at the sea.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 21/12/2025
is anyone here interested in my personal art? i am not going to do any bts art anymore so it will be either this account dies or i start posting my personal stuff here only. 😗
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 08/10/2025
take me back to the day i was blissfully unaware of my gut feeling (hello delayed emotional processing) & was just being happy for myself. i look at them now & nothing comes to mind. blank. no feelings whatsoever. & i try my hardest to still think everything through. see it from diff. angles, etc.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 18/09/2025
i feel a certain kind of achievement when i make men who drive fucking teslas uncomfortable. like yeah babe, be as uncomfortable as you can. i love to see it xoxo
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 15/09/2025
what does my bluesky bubble think about the collabs and the tag from bts? i opened up on twitter bc it was once my safe place but i wanna know what's going on here. haven't seen much critical conversations abt it at all.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 25/08/2025
where is my desire to draw? where is my will to change the world, even if it's a little? where has the passion hidden itself from me? if anyone's seen my frens, pls give me a call.
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a cartoon character is laying in a pool with the words and so passes another sleepless night
Alt: plnkton from the tv show spongebob is laying on a mattress with the words "and so passes another sleepless night"
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audge⁷ -- an armpit sommelier @btsaudge.borasky.com · 17/08/2025
MISS YOU WIFE!
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 17/08/2025
WOKE UP TO THIS WAITING FOR ME was abt to make a rlly sob-y text friday abt how i felt a little detached from them over the last year bc of many different reasons and this brought me back to life. i rlly needed my seven back as a whole messy blurry snuggly cute package.
blurry selca of seven men (bts) at the beach
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 14/08/2025
today it dawned on me that i did a 24hr trip to amsterdam to see seokjin live and sing mikrokosmos and spring day for the first time i becamw an army. was giggling the whole morning. guess i take days to finally realize anything happening with the tannies 🥺
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 11/08/2025
pick my remains from the curb, i miss seokjin so much.
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a close up of a cat 's face with its mouth open .
Alt: a close up of a cat 's face with sad expression
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 11/08/2025
sitting at work, running on 3h of sleep for the past 24h, picked confettig from the street like a trash panda bc i sat close yet not close enough BUT run seokjin was so worth it all. it was such a unique concert experience and seokjin is the cutest patootie who wants to see army nothing but happy 😭
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 10/08/2025
hobipalooza still feels surreal, attending run seokjin tour feels surreal AAAAHHHHHH
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 10/08/2025
IM ALMOST AT THE VENUE SEOKJIN WAIT FOR ME ILL SEE YOU SOON
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 06/08/2025
i miss yoongi.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 05/08/2025
really thought i found a workplace where i could feel comfortable but turns out fatshaming and being ableist is something that's ok there. rlly don't know what to do with my feelings. today is the first day in a while i've actually done some chores instead of just staring at my walls.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 21/07/2025
if there's one thing the run seokjin tour showed us is that he will do everything to entertain army. he's running around stage in every costume imaginable while doing silly games with us and occasionally serenading us with his vocals like it's a piece of cake. can't wait for august!
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 21/07/2025
i wonder if there will be a pop up for seokjin's concert in amsterdam or not 👽
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 21/07/2025
making a tiny tuna for my labubu so i can take her out and see seokjin in august 🐟
a scribble of a tuna fisha clay figurine of a tuna fish
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 20/07/2025
i miss hobi an awful lot today.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 20/07/2025
FINALLY CATCHED A US LIVE AHAHAHH with a sleepy boba jungkook of all things
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a close up of a person 's face with tae.tumblr.com written on the bottom right corner
Alt: jungkook of bts smiling and clapping his hand against his cheek
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 18/07/2025
this is my fav genre of concert pics. army are the stars and bts our planets or some poetic shit like this idk man
jin of bts standing in the spotlight in one of his concerts with the audience in the dari and lit up lightsticks that make them look like stars.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 18/07/2025
i rarely dress up for concerts BUT i wanna get out on accessories. a tuna headband maybe? a tiny tuna for my labubu in overalls? A TUNA CAN POUCH????? i have next week off so i'm gonna try as many things as possible heheheh
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 16/07/2025
the psychiatrist is get my adhd meds from asked me if i've looked into asd yet bc he sees the signs and i was SO tense the whole time he asked me questions before that bc i knew what he was getting at but didn't wanna say it myself and rather hear it from him first.
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jay ☻ @anpanjay.bsky.social · 15/07/2025
idk abt u but this taehyung makes me woozy
taehyung of bts in a black shirt speaking to the camera
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