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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

But I do appreciate that she only told me to lose SOME weight, I would still be fat if I reached her goal and I have AT LEAST until March so I can still eat within reason and I'm not on a super strict diet either

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

• My brother is vegan and trying to gain weight • My grandfather has diabetes and needs to gain weight, so calories++ and sugar-- • I have to lower my sugar and calories My mom cooks meals for all of us. She's a legend 💯💯💯

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Trying to lose weight when you don't actually want to is a little annoying. My brother is a vegan and my grandfather has diabetes so we're already eating NO animal products + NO sugar and now adding Low Calorie to the mix

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

My surgeon wants me to lose weight before the surgery.. So now I have to be more "reasonable" with food 😩 I liked eating whatever I wanted so this is kinda boring but I'll live I'm not starving myself, if I'm hungry I'll eat but I'm reducing sugar and fats So yeah, boring

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

I don't like how much she insists on it because the "Ozempidemic" is real and already killing people

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

My aunt is on Ozempic and keeps telling everyone how much healthier she feels now that she lost weight. But she was already eating healthy and exercising so the only reason (imo) she feels healthier now is that she got it prescribed for her DIABETES!! So ofc she feels healthier now it's medicated !

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

Also kids' bodies aren't gendered and I don't want to look like a man OR like a woman, I want to be forever gender neutral like I used to be

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

As an ace (and most of the time aro) person whose disabilities make them dependant on others, doesn't drink or drive and still live their parent (I'm not physically able to work either so I'm extremely dependant on my caretakers) I don't really do anything (and therefore /feel/) "adult-like"

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 16/08/2026

I think my tummy is cute but I'm really uncomfortable with people thinking I'm pregnant because I don't want to be perceived as a woman. I like perceiving my body type as child-like (because I'm chubby with no boobs) (please read the rest before calling the authorities)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

Actually I think the reason might be that I like my stomach when I wear outfits that are MEANT to highlight it but when I'm wearing clothes that aren't supposed to highlight my tummy and it still shows, I don't like it!

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 02/08/2025

Got diagnosed with FND 🙃🙃🙃 But there might be other issues because my joints are really unstable and that's not a FND symptom...

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

So it would have been a nightmare to have a strict parent, I really needed to be shown it was okay to break rules sometimes, not have someone making the voices louder

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

My first brother's dad almost adopted me (they had dated before I was born, and after it seems) but I'm glad my dad stepped up because I would have hated having him as a dad. He is very strict and I struggled with (and am still working on) anxiety over feeling I needed to be perfect

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

We ran into hime accidentally and he saw me, realised I was "his" and decided he wanted to be part of my life. I never liked him and was dreading having to go to his house Every. Single. Time.

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 01/08/2025

Here's the story of my ☆CREATION☆ My parents met at a party through a mutual friend and slept together ONCE. Seven and a half months later, I was born. My dad wasn't legally my dad until I was 1.5 because he "wasn't ready" (he's the one who chose to have unprotected sex but okay)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 26/06/2025

I've never been into cis guys but I feel like a t4t relationship would be okay ??? Maybe ????????? I don't know 😕

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

C- I'm not exclusively into women I thought I would only date "non-men", ie anyone who isn't 100% a guy (so it technically counts as a lesbian) but I'm not sure where the line is.. like is 99% okay ?? Also when I "realised I didn't like men", I only knew cis ones so the results are skewed

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

I recently said I didn't identify as a lesbian anymore for several reasons. The most important ones being A- I don't feel connected to feminity so lesbian doesn't sound right B- I'm aroace most of the time and ace 100% of the time so my attraction to women isn't that strong

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

Is being romantically interested in trans men but not cis men internalised transphobia or a genuine identity ? I've seen people saying they date ABCD (Anything But Cis Dudes) but dating and being attracted to are two different things so Idk where I stand.

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 27/04/2025

So the more masculine I present, the more I feel the need to adhere to beauty standards. Now, I have no idea how to unlearn that because I can't magically like men (unless I go back on T and ~THE SWITCH~ happens)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 27/04/2025

But when I wear masculine outfits, I hate that you can see my stomach poke out. Which I thought was weird but I think I've figured it out ! I'm not into men so to me a "good looking" man is whatever society taught me it was. I AM into women so I think every feminine body is beautiful and artistic.

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 27/04/2025

Still talking about body issues. But, I knew after my top surgery that my stomach would look bigger which might cause body dysmorphia / bad body image. But I realised that when wearing a feminine outfit I don't mind my round tummy, I actually sometimes really love it !

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

I refuse to diet but my most recent meds lower my appetite so if I listened to my body instead of eating at specific times, I'd probably go back to 70kg, which is still fat but seems to be MY "best" weight

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

And a lot of my clothes don't really fit anymore so I'd like to be able to wear them again, especially for the ones I saved up for a while to buy, or the ones that aren't sold anymore. I just don't want to develop an eating disorder and my body makes it pretty much impossible for me to exercise 😩

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

But because of my meds and mostly my loss of mobility I gained 15 to 20 kg.. (over a few years) and now weight around 75-80kg. While I don't mind being fat, my "stable", "normal" weight seems to be around 70kg because it's what I go back to every time I'm healthy (or health-ier)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Then, for like 3 years I weighted around 70kg (a bit less but roughly 70) But when I got into college, I lost 10kg because of exhaustion and, you guessed it, health issues (!) that would physically prevent me from eating. When I left, I got back to 70kg for a year or two

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

When I left Middle School, I weighted 60kg but due to health issues, I gained 15kg in a few months as I entered High School (My periods were very heavy and I would have died from blood loss without meds, that were VERY concentrated in Estrogen which tends to cause weight gains)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Let's talk weight !!! (yay.) (Obliged TW but I'm not talking about EDs) As a kid I was actually underweight but adult weight and kid weight are different so not the point. So I'm gonna start at 15yo. (Also everything is in kg)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 05/04/2025

Sad boi hours.. Realising my life was so promising and people had such great expectations for me but I ended up being the queer, alt, disabled kid who depends on anyone around them. I'm lucky I got a great family but I might still be the disappointment

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

I'm the kind of person who looks away from KISSING so sex is a no go (It's actually worse when it's in written form because I can't just stop watching until the noises stop)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

(I mean they're TAGGED as explicit, I haven't actually read them but I usually avoid these because 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 03/04/2025

I wanna read fanfics in peace but rn I want arcane fics and they're all soooo explicit 😭😭😭😭😭 This is why I only consume kid's media

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

He basically said that the main reason I was send there was "out of his area of expertise" (the spasms/paralysis attacks/seizures/whatever)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

I can't have ADHD or be autistic because I had good grades as a kid and don't "look autistic" (whatever that means)(but also I definitely do)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

I got a response from the MDPH (disability department) and I'm allowed to have a card for priority seating and cutting lines, one for parking, help to find a job/figure out what job I can do, with accommodations and MONEY (don't know how much yet) Yet my day was ruined by a neurologist.

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

Fat stomachs resting on thighs >>>>>>>>>>>

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

I bought several nip covers, one pair that looks like normal nipples, that I want to cut in star shape, and one pair that I'm gonna attach star piercings to (Me ? Obsessed with stars ? Yes.) So no tattoos necessary !

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

But in pictures, all these "imperfections" look like art and makes me ME

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

Showing you my insecurities : My round stomach (I like ot when it's out, don't like it through clothes) My scars (except my top surgery scars) My chin, especially from the side, especially when I'm smiling

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

I kinda regret keeping my nipples because I regained sensation in a *tiny* area so I can't get them tattooed But I remembered numbing cream is a thing and it's such a small area it should work (I have some, I just don't know where it is)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

I wore myself out tidying my room so I stayed in bed for like 3-4 days 🙃🙃🙃

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 30/03/2025

My anxiety medication is killing my appetite so I forget to eat Since my body can't tell time by my hunger level anymore I go to bed very late and my sleep schedule is fucked

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

I'm now on anti-anxiety medication (very low dose but at least I don't get hit in the face by all the side effects) and off my antidepressants so we'll see how that goes !

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

Given the choice between taking a tiny pill everyday or REMOVING AN ORGAN, I choose the medication!

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

I've been considering getting a hysterectomy but honestly I don't want to go through the recovery process again and put my body through an other surgery for something that will not be physically noticeable. I'm on progesterone anyway so I already don't have to deal with periods

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

Also, for some reason the more stuff I tidy up, the more space I have ? I used to complain about not having enough storage in my room but now I literally filled some drawers with some beads, color sorted of course, because I don't have anything else to store!?!!???!!??!?!?!!

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

I've been rearranging my stuff for days and I'm actually having fun ????????? Like I'm just sorting through everything and finding ways to make everything easy access and aesthetically pleasing But the more I progress, the messier my room actually is 😅

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

Also : LOOK AT MY BEAUTIFUL CHEST !!!!! (don't pay attention to the white smudges, it's just cream that helps the healing)

Top surgery scars seen from the other side

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

(Although she did ask me several times if I suffered from [insert body part] pain to which my mom and I had to specify that with my chronic pains, the answer would always be "yes" but not actually be relevant)

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Al Segura @alioucha.bsky.social · 21/03/2025

But I do realise now that with the stress I never actually told her I was nonbinary, even though I did say I liked he/him pronouns best but was okay with any, I will definitely bring it up next time though ! She was also really respectful about my avertion to physical contact and my disabilities

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