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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I've had new windows and doors fitted this week and they're all in but the men are still here blatantly running down the clock and I just want them gone I WANT THEM OUT OF MY HOUSE

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

For the past six weeks I've been experiencing really severe tinnitus. Not something I've had before, came out of nowhere. Six weeks isn't considered long in the tinnitus stakes but it's getting gradually worse, and I'm trying to resolve myself to the possibility that it just won't ever go away

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

Deeply niche observation I suspect but why are so many 'authortube' and crafty youtubers jesusy? So many times I'm chilling with a room makeover or writing desk tour and get jumpscared by a "so I prayed about it"

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Dragging myself back to writing but man I am *feeling* that lack of fandom community inspiration. I admire people who can seemingly create in a vacuum

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Honestly yayoi kusama is the one that's hitting me hardest

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

This one translates poorly to how bsky shows images but whatever, no harm in posting. Please click for full, or even better consider viewing on ao3 archiveofourown.org/works/89666306! #wangxian #LanWangji #TheUntamed #CQL

A three panel comic arranged vertically. The first panel is a close-up of a rabbit being painted with a brush. The second is a close-up of Lan Wangji's face, looking down, with a solemn expression. The final image shows Lan Wangji from behind, with Lan Yuan holding onto his arm pointing up at the rabbit lantern as it floats into the sky.

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Like twitter back in the day, I'm just not really getting anything out of bsky but there are a few people here I don't have any contact with on other platforms that I don't want to lose :( but still might have to for my own good. FYI I'm on tumblr and dreamwidth and Ao3 always, under this name

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 09/07/2026

I think probably I need to start proactively planning my life so that, as far as possible, I don't have to do anything throughout June-August. I can't do these months at all. My brain stops functioning. I get depressed. Trying to push through as if I'm a proper person during this time does not work

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

House of the Dragon has a lot of heavy lifting to do to pull me back in after the "weak and feeble woman" line honestly, even Emma D'arcy sounded embarrassed to deliver it

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Well now I really have to post something because I haven't had an ao3 kudos email for two days

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

Once again I feel STUCK with getting the PORN in my head OUT onto the PAGE

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

Just learned that tailgating apparently means something quite different in the US

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

I feel like misspelling sizhui as shizui is in the same category as misspelling rogue as rouge. Like it's not a typo they just don't realise that's not how it's spelled

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Here with stone cold takes on 40 year old films but I've never seen the color purple before and like, what is this, tonally? What is happening? The jaunty quincy jones soundtracked domestic abuse? Is this is a conscious choice to unsettle, is the book like this

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Watching Tip Toe because I thought I was strong enough but I'm SO STRESSED

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Just realised I check out unfamiliar fandom spaces for their feelings on people liking CQL with the same cautious energy as I check out real life spaces for their feelings on people being queer

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

This morning as I was sitting on the sofa looking at the sun on my little garden I cried because I realised I was happy, and that I think I had been unhappy for a very long time

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

Very sorry for continued bridgerton posting but they've really turned the romance-coding of penelope/eloise up to eleven this season, and it was already at like...ten. Why are they doing this, what are their intentions

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

The 2023 hanguang-june art that is now my annual tumblr reblog but I don't think I've ever posted here. ANYWAY enjoy your special month lwj #wangxian #CQL #TheUntamed

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Nearly done with season 1 of bridgerton, verdict so far: fake dating should have lasted longer, if only because the baby drama is absolutely HORRIFYING. Please tell me this was also the general opinion when it first came out, I feel like I'm going crazy

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

I'm watching Bridgerton, I'm a person who watches Bridgerton now. The purposeful anachronism is actually pretty fun, but I do find myself thinking it would be funner if it stretched to making literally every character (explicitly) queer THE VIBES ARE THERE

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

I did it! I drove the car for the first time! I parked in a bay and went through a 60mph zone and did big roundabouts and no one died! Obviously all things I did countless times while learning but not on my own in this car!

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 25/05/2026

27C today NO THANKS?? Work are lucky I'm even still logged on

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

Incredible: within two weeks of moving somewhere packed full of scenic walks, I break my toe

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 24/05/2026

Dreamt my boss had tasked me with writing a short pitch for a piece of wangxian art, on deadline, but it was fine because I knew there was this one idea I'd been meaning to do for ages, but half way through writing I realised I'd forgotten a key detail of the idea because it's been SO LONG

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

House of the Dragon is my latest binge and I'm still watching but it's fraught, because while I do find this kind of fantasy compelling I have very little stomach for "watch all your faves die horribly and inevitably"

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

I have been in the new house for a week: hurrah! I am too scared to drive the hand-me-down car I have so have been living on fast food: boo!

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 11/05/2026

It's 8pm the night before I move home. Everything I do is the last time I'll do it in my little flat where I've spent the last 12 years. I'm so sad

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

I do obviously try and avoid political chat on socmed at all costs but I still feel a bit grumpy about how I haven't seen *anything* on the UK elections today specifically about how the Insane Fascist Party For Morons has made terrifying gains. Like is anyone else seeing this shit

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

Omg FINALLY concluded contracts on the flat sale/house purchase this afternoon, a mere TWO WORKING DAYS before I'm due to move. I've aged decades in the past few weeks

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

Me losing interest in a longfic because wangxian "decide to wait", truly I am your scumbag high school boyfriend, I WILL break up with you if you don't put out

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 03/05/2026

I wish The Youth (or maybe just the American Youth? Difficult to tell online) would stop throwing around 'fag' (as in gay person, not as in cigarette) as casually as they do. I'm sure it's an age thing and possibly a regional thing too but god I wince every time

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 28/04/2026

Just watched The Northman for the first time and really enjoyed it, but my main takeaway is that oh my god I could actually see what was happening in the nighttime scenes and didn't have to turn the brightness up on my TV even a little bit, PRAISE BE

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 20/04/2026

Not to be dramatic but I actually want to kill myself because I can't deal with this level of anxiety

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 15/04/2026

My toxic trait is that I cannot get behind wei wuxian drawn with a fringe, I just think it looks weird and jarringly anachronistic, like that's a 90s schoolgirl haircut I'm sorry

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 09/04/2026

Things finally progressing a bit with the house move but whenever I start getting hopeful it feels like I'm letting my guard down against something going wrong, like I have to remain vigilantly pessimistic otherwise the universe will punish me? Anyone else broken in this particular way or just me

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

"you can always fix in the edit! it needs to exist before you can fix it! anything is better than a blank page!" But what if you are me, intimidated to the point of inaction by sheer amount of fixing the existing words require. What then

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 05/04/2026

Now just blocking on sight any tumblr account that unironically refers to wei wuxian or indeed any character as A War Criminal as if the concept existed in a form identical to the Geneva Conventions in ancient fantasy China

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

I came extremely close to editing fic today. I didn't, obviously, but I was close

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doctor junko lover (danny) @danmeichael.bsky.social · 03/04/2026

masturbation will always be underrated in smut fic. let em go, lets see what they do on their own.

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 30/03/2026

Carefully filtering out every tag I don't want in the ao3 search and STILL finding nothing I want to read on the first page is how it's been for about two years now but I keep checking, and keep coming away deflated

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 27/03/2026

I swear to god I wouldn't even know there was a new harry potter show if it wasn't for the 3000 social media posts telling me I need to ignore it

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 26/03/2026

It's only been two weeks and two days since I accepted an offer on my flat and nothing has gone wrong and I'm trying to get on with my life in the meantime but I am stressed out of my fucking gourd. I am terrified ALL THE TIME. How do people live with this level of uncertainty

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

In completely separate news, god zhang linghe is so charismatic and pleasing of face, I crave the day he's in a drama I think I might be able to finish

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 19/03/2026

I realised that it's only been three weeks since I viewed the house I'm attempting to buy. It feels like three years. I don't know if my nerves will survive this process

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

"have you ever considered transitioning" have you ever considered that this is a really invasive thing to say to/about someone completely unsolicited

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 15/03/2026

I've had some really nice fic comments lately (I suspect I may have been recced somewhere BUT WHERE). Looking forward to getting the fandom part of my brain back so I can actually write again

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 14/03/2026

Despite ongoing Extreme Uncertainty I'm daring to get a bit excited about moving. I looked up the bin collection days for the new house today (shared on-street bins right now so collection days are unimportant. Having My Own Bins is an exciting novelty, as is having a loft, internal stairs, etc)

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

Haaaa I received and accepted an offer for the flat this afternoon, I'm losing my miiiiiind !!!

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