AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 06/10/2026People wonder why I never talk. Why I spend all my time alone, doing my own thing. That's why. The more I cut out of my life, the less there is to worry about. There's still plenty, don't get me wrong, but at least if I'm alone, I never have to worry about how my torture affects anyone else. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 06/10/2026It turns you into a pessimist. People want to interact with you less because you always have such a negative outlook, or you always seem to be in a bad mood. Then the straining and breaking of your relationships gets thrown into the cycle of stress and everything gets worse. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 06/10/2026Any time something bad happens, your brain immediately concocts ways that it can get worse, or creates combinations and permutations of how the new bad thing will negatively interact with all the other aspects of your life. There's never "nothing wrong." You can never be okay. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 06/10/2026G.A.D. is different. You can never be happy. You can never be content. Any time something good happens to you, your mind immediately jumps to some new issue, or worries about when/how the other shoe will drop, or wonders when the good thing will be taken away. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 06/10/2026I don't think people who don't have General Anxiety Disorder can really understand what it's like. Everybody has normal anxiety from time to time. I'd even go so far as to say it can be healthy. You probably wouldn't study so hard for that test if your grade wasn't stressing you out a bit. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 29/09/2026Great...my uncle is trying to "help me with my grief" by sending me videos of apologists "debunking" atheism. As if proving God exists will help anything. Genius! I go from thinking I'll never see my mother again because death is oblivion to thinking I'll never see her again because I'll be in hell. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 28/08/2026Exactly 6 weeks after losing my mother, I find out that my cousin has malignant melanoma. My YOUNGER cousin. Aside from my mother, (who is gone) and my grandmother (who is 83), my cousin was the person I was closest with. I feel like life is giving a very clear message that I'm not wanted anymore... 220
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 26/07/2026And before anyone says that my mother wouldn't want this for me, I know. She would also want me to be wealthy, healthy, and in a happy job. Unfortunately, I can only do what I'm capable of, not always what she wants for me. Right now, seeing a doctor is the best I can manage. Grief has no off switch 010
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 26/07/2026Emotionally, nothing's getting better. Losing my mother seems like losing a limb. It will never get better and there can be no replacement. All I can do is adjust to the pain and loss and learn to live with it, but it will cripple me forever. Funeral is tomorrow, but I doubt it'll give any closure. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 26/07/2026I'm not sure why. Nobody else in my family seems to be having these issues. I scheduled an appt with my doctor so I don't have a fatal car crash. I've only been sleeping when I'm so tired I pass out, and even then it's only for 2 hours or less. I've eaten less than 3000 calories in 12 days as well. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 26/07/2026A brief update: My mother's organ donation was able to save 3 people's lives. I'm sure that will bring me some comfort at some point in the future, but right now, I'm incapable of feeling positive emotions. As for me, I'm not doing well. I've barely been eating or sleeping for the past 2 weeks. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 16/07/2026I know I'm already not around much, but I doubt I'll be a presence at all over the next few months. Adjusting to life without my main pillar of support for the past 38 years will take time and a lot of pain to work through. 3390
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 16/07/2026My mother got into a severe car crash on Tuesday. Today, we had to pull the plug. She had no brain activity as of yesterday morning. The only reason I waited this long was so she could be a donor and maybe save someone else from the pain I'm feeling. 16090436
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 20/05/2026While I would be fine with paying more taxes for universal healthcare, it honestly shouldn't be necessary. The United States government already spends more per person on healthcare than any other country, including ones with universal healthcare. The money is already there. It's just misused. 010
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 20/05/2026The discourse on the new Harry Potter series is hilarious. Lefties hate it because it's a product of Queen TERF and none of us want her getting our hard-earned dubloons. Chuds hate it because "OMFG black Snape HOW DARE???" So I'm left wondering who the hell this thing is actually trying to appeal to 020
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 19/05/2026Christ, it's been literal decades since the last time I've had to endure a heat wave with no air conditioning. I think I was 12 the last time I had to try to sleep with just a fan. This is fucking miserable. Thankfully tomorrow is the last day and it'll be like 30° cooler on Thursday, but this sucks 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 17/05/2026Yup, I am every bit as hot and uncomfortable as I thought I would be. Can it be winter again please? Or at least fall... 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 16/05/2026Literally contemplating going into work 4 hours early on Monday and Tuesday. It's better to be working in an air conditioned lab than stuck sweating my balls off in a roasting hot apartment. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 16/05/2026The apartment we just moved to is all on one circuit. Any air conditioner use will trip the breaker and kill everything. There's an electrician coming to make the place habitable soon, but not before the first heatwave of the year. My comfort zone is low-mid 60s. It will be in the 90s. Pray for me. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 10/05/2026To be clear, I loved the game and replayed it like 15 times. I also took great joy in smacking that pretentious bitch with my glowing stick at the end of every playthrough. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 10/05/2026What would you like me to do space-Karen, puke food directly into his mouth like a baby bird so nobody takes it AND he doesn't starve? Yes, we know, you're a midwit who too Philosophy 101. Kindly stop Skyping directly into my brain to preach and heckle over everything I do. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 10/05/2026That's the generous interpretation. I think the accurate one is that Kreia was the writer's avatar to condescend incessantly no matter what choices you made. "You gave the beggar money? Why would you do that. Someone's just gonna kill him and take it. You DIDN'T give the beggar money? Selfish prick" 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 10/05/2026The part that irked me the most was how much cranky grandma was just drowning in her own hypocrisy. "Do as I say, not as I do. What's that? Everything I say is contradictory waffle that makes all choices out to be bad? Shut up. I'mma go neg the introverted rogue some more." 120
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 14/04/2026The snowbirds are getting infected and bringing it back up here. 0220
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 13/04/2026And don't even get me started on older examples like Heinlein and L. Ron Hubbard. I just choose to pretend they don't exist because A: They were from a much earlier time period and B: Their work was kind of shit. Starship Troopers was a fun B movie but the books were boredom incarnate. 120
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 13/04/2026Why have so many of the most celebrated science fiction/fantasy authors of the past several decades turned out to be terrible people? Orson Scott Card is a raging homophobe, Michael Crichton was a climate change denier, JK Rowling is Queen TERF. As an avid reader, I dislike this trend. 220
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 13/04/2026We might be able to replace some of those stuck-up, useless sacks of rats if there wasn't a massive financial burden to even try. I can't even afford to stop working for 6-18 months, much less travel all over the western ⅓ of my state campaigning. Congress protects the rich because they ARE the rich 010
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 13/04/2026A sign saying "Warning! Dragon mating season." is about as effective as a sign saying "Free pizza ahead." It's a deterrent to people who don't like pizza, but to all normal people, it's just an advertisement to come get stuffed. 020
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 13/04/2026Well it took like 5 hours, but a surprising number of people actually moved over. Since I spent the majority of the time just moving slowly down my follow list, I didn't get much exposure. My wrist really hurts now though. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 12/04/2026If you see me randomly following you, it's because I've decided (after several years of procrastinating) to put on the biohazard suit and deve back into Xitter to see if any more of the people I followed there have made the jump. 160
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 07/03/2026Some are Iraqi, some are Pakistani, some are from the various -istans, but all of them are frothing American chauvinists who are actively cheering on every fucked up thing this country is doing...including helping Israel, which broke my brain a little bit. Did I stumble into Bizarro World? 010
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 07/03/2026I swear to fuck I'm about to horseshoe theory myself into being anti-immigrant. Please, I'm begging, explain why all the natural-born American citizens I work with are against American hegemony, anti-war, anti-Zionist, anti-fascist, etc. but all the Middle Eastern immigrants are psycho nationalists. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 27/02/2026I fucking HAAAAATE current youtube. Wanna search for a video? We'll give you 3 results that match your result followed by 25 increasingly unrelated things our algorithm THINKS you may be interested in, then 2 more actual results, then another 20 lines of slop. Repeat ad nauseam. It's terrible. 030
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 23/02/2026For some reason, the link just leads to Earth's homepage. Let's try again China invention turns desert sand into fertile soil in just 10 months - www.earth.com/news/process...earth.comChina invents process that turns desert sand into fertile soil in just 10 monthsChina accelerates desert restoration: 3.5 billion-year-old microbes stabilize sand and protect ecosystems in months. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 23/02/2026Not sure I like this. I mean one of the main causes of extinction is converting other biomes into farmland, and the desert is an ecosystem like any other. Food = good, Holocene extinction = bad. We don't need more arable land, we need better logistics. We can already produce enough food for all.earth.comEarth and Environmental News, Videos and ImagesAt Earth.com, our goal is to provide the internet with a homepage for anything and everything about our planet Earth and the environment. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 23/02/2026Sadly, it's not that simple. I've already been having to pick up overtime to make ends meet and try to pay off the tax bill that the killing of the ACA subsidies caused. If work is open, I really can't afford not to go. Them shuttering operations for the day would be my only legitimate excuse. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 23/02/2026Even more fun for me, since both of the times I came closest to dying were driving in the snow. Once I lost control and wrapped my car around a tree, and the second time I nearly went off a bridge into the Connecticut River. Thankfully I "only" flipped my car and didn't drown. Anxiety isn't happy. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 23/02/2026I love that my employer nearly an hour away is forcing everyone to drive out today despite the absolutely dismal conditions. It's very, VERY fucking important that we make that almond milk and juice cups. Lives and mild inconvenience is on the line for literally DOZENS of people. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 21/02/2026I didn't know almond milk could turn into cottage cheese. I thought it lacked the necessary fats and milk solids. Today I learned a horrid little factoid that I never fucking wanted to know. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 20/02/2026As if just handling this shit isn't gross enough, I have to jam my nose in and sniff it too. Thankfully they've exempted us from the "flavor" evaluation. Probably to avoid manslaughter charges and being dragged to the Hague for human rights violations. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 20/02/2026If you zoom in on the dates on the caps, this is milk that was made in September and expired in November/December. It is pretty Foul. Not sure why tests are needed to count the mold/bacteria in this slop. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 20/02/2026Snapshot of what I get to spend 8 hours looking at today. Everything finished early this week, nobody is here but me, and I am indescribably bored. Nothing to do but work on expired retain samples or leave early and forfeit pay. Fucking sigh. 110
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 18/02/2026It deeply, DEEPLY annoys me that I have to arrange to work nearly a full work day worth of overtime every week just to make ends meet. "Life?" What's that? Describe it and I'll tell you if I ever see one. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 01/02/2026And no, that last one wasn't a joke. They were so thirsty for me, they called, sent an email, and texted me. As special as I feel that Dopey Don and his midwit menagerie really really trusted me to have a gun in their presence, I have better things to do than defend people from what they deserve. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 01/02/2026I've gotten offers for jobs as a plumber (I'm not a plumber), construction worker (I'm disabled), nurse (not a nurse), farm hand (lolno), and literal fucking Secret Service agent (I have a strict no-boots diet, sorry). My resume is very clear about my qualifications, but they waste my time anyways. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 01/02/2026I also have to keep my profile on all the job apps hidden, otherwise I'll get 20 of these a day: (thick accent) "Hallo, I found your profile on *site* and I feel you would be a good match for *not a good match at all* located in *300 miles away.* Are you able to set up an interview?" 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 01/02/2026Searching for a job is such a toxic fucking mess nowadays. The vast, overwhelming majority of available positions are posted by staffing agencies that offer absolutely no benefits, it's difficult to even find positions because there are dozens of places they can be posted, and AI. Full stop. 100
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 29/01/2026Driving tip: If people have to slam on their brakes to avoid rear-ending you when you pull out, you are in the wrong, you are at fault for any accidents you're in, and you deserve any lawsuits/injuries/totaled cars your shitty driving gets you. 000
AlbeonΘΔ @Hell @albeon.bsky.social · 18/01/2026The list of things that annoy Val is long, varied, and inane. The key is to not let him know you're trying to annoy him, or he'll kill his irritation just out of spite. 230