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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

Worked so much, inspite the heat, that everyth is shaky, my fingers barely hitting right keys but I am also very grateful, satisfied. Tonight, 4 once, no nightmares, pls? #Painting #humanartist #handdrawn #freestyle #fantasy #spooky #nights

Hand drawn painting I did some years back to deal w my every-night-sleep issues, plus my fascination w words, language.

Shows a woman, lets say it is me, lying on a bed like structure, cleary restless, tossing to and fro. To both sides, spooky creepy creatures arise. In the middle, stretching down, a large window shows a full moon.

The spooky beings on the left a more humanoid, holding tight to a sort of bed head bow, which could easily be broken. The creature on the left, however is a horse. The Night - Mare. One can not tell weather she attacks the sleep or protects the sleeping...

Her hooves are split. All have yeloow eyes, and everything is held in a bony-blue ish white light. Well - Good Night, folks!

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Some weeks ago #PBS broadcasted Sgt #KrisBattles & his art, we got in contact & his reaction was encouraging. Now I show them here, was afraid 2hurt someone w War PTSD but they wont see it, so I can, I think. Info = Alt #traditionalart #handdrawn #Veterans #service #reasons #tragic

Traditional painting after several photos by Dean O'Gorman, New Zealand actor, filmmaker and photographer, and kind Magiccon guest.

Shows a barechested man, tired expression and closed eyes, his dark hair being wet from sweating. He wears military gear, parachute rucksack and utensile belt, his right arm is bandaged above the elbow.

Behind him one can assume the shape of a crossed Jesus.

In the middle a groupd of Vietnam soldiers lies on the ground, one black soldier using the satelite phone, carried by another man next to him.

To this group's left a war horse with WWI gasmask and lowered head, all exhausted, stands, a killed soldier dangling from one of it's stirrups, covered by his own blanket or coat. Underneath the horse, a Dog, also in gas mask, stands, peaking through the horse's legs.

The left side in the middle depicts a group of four WWI soldiers, Brits (helmets), all huddled up, trying to ave a break from the trenches and horrors.

The lower part of the painting also shows a WWI scene of four soldiers and a sorrel war horse, carrying a covered dead soldier over it's back. The march through rough terrain, is must have been one hell of mudd and rats and lice and corpses and I really cannot understand how lightely people today refer to themselves as PTSD survivors when onyl having been told "NO", or through their parent's divorce without violence etc pp.

PTSD is dead serious. You do NOT get it by breaking a nail or not getting what you want because you are lazy as shit. Sorry for my hard words. But one really must have seen "some things", been through "stuff" to get PTSD, real trauma.

Most people try hiding it, and as one person here states clearly, they do NOT seek pitty, or gifts, or money, unless having a severe medical cause and live in a country where it is not covered by their insurance.

Sorry. Across the painting, red poppies fly around, could also be blood dots. On top in red scratched "WHO", "WHAT", "WHEN, "WHY"

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 19/08/2025

T-H-I-S. Trump uses the Armed Forces as his pers Flying Monkeys, while he claims 2be innocent & the victim. The only "good thing" about that jerk is that he's an overt Narcissist = U KNOW what you're dealing with. His ref 2himself in 3rd person = similarities 2 Autism (I AM autistic, diagnosed)

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

The UK Supreme Court took representation from anti-trans groups but none from trans groups or people, before ruling that even trans women with a GRC can not access women’s spaces. This creates unenforceable, dangerous and cruel restrictions on trans access to public space. It must be reversed.

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UK’s first transgender judge seeks rehearing of supreme court case on biological sex

Exclusive: Victoria McCloud says court undermined her rights to a fair trial when it refused to hear her evidence

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 18/08/2025

I am a scared pepper. Look at that!

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

2020 or so.I really do not like being photographed, not the face. Its so intimate, & insp age long masking til I broke, I can smile now, yet it does rarely feel right. This is my normal "grim" look, was even worse til mid 30s, which makes it sadly hard 4 others to tell whats going on inside me.. 😞

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Travis @coloradotravis.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

It’s so weirdly holistic too like I’ll see some picture of myself with other people in it and be like “damn I swear my body told me it was making <happy fun vibes posture> but I guess not.”

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 17/08/2025

My friend Jonathan Blake was the first man to receive an HIV diagnosis in the UK. He was an original member of Lesbians and Gays Support the Miners, whose story was told in the movie Pride. Jonathan was portrayed by Dominic West. He is still with us, still fighting injustice. Here at Trans Pride.

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 14/08/2025

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We got rave reviews for Alphabet Rainbow’s Brighton Fringe Festival debut, now it’s coming to London. This fistful of queer plays will play: 7pm, 9 Sept - Etcetera theatre, Camden 7.30pm, 12 Sept - Bridge House, SE20 3pm/7.30pm, 13 Sept - Brockley Jack Please come! Booking links 👇 bit.ly/3HykSx1

Screengrab of the Voice Mag 5 star review, including a picture of me drinking a cup of coffee.
The review says, ‘Alphabet Rainbow is heartfelt, sharp and stylish. This is queer theatre at its absolute best.’

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ashley | nyc artist @artbysmashley.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

Must finally work now. If I do not, I get anxiety, for my entire plan is messed up then. Autism brains are mean a lot. Thank you to all who turned notifications for my posts on! It helps, truly. Also bc my Redbubble is connected 2it, make only ca 200€ per year, but in my situation that's big!!

Example screenshot of four of my designs avaiable on my Redbubble account, link in bio. Richard Armitage on the Olive green T shirt, Official liscenced Fan art of Dune on the upper right black one.

Second row shows one of my many Claes Bang Dracula Fan arts and finally a sepia photo of a slumbering horse on a grey shirt.

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✨ HOW TO: support artists for $0.00 ✨ - leave a like! - repost their work - more eyes!! - comment on their posts! (an emoji goes a long way!) all of this means so much to artists and helps immensely!! just a reminder that support does NOT always have to be financial 🥰🤍✨

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Rob Boyte @roboyte.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

The fact that I only now, after months of being here, managed to get my Bio done, shows you how done I am... #photography #animals #goats #exhaustion #autisticburnout

A sleeping goat with half long shaggy hair in beige, white and some sorrel red, photographed by me in 2009. With a tiny, borrowed Olympus Camera. They lied all curled up on a patch of dry earth - probably because it is warm from the sun - with grass growing in the back.

Their adoreable head rests on their hind leg, lips cutely pursed, and I wonder if they dreamed about the carrot they just ate, as a very small piece of that snack is still lying visible in front of that very hind leg.

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I remember ppl getting good news/bad news when expecting to die they sold their life insurance for viatical money - then after the 1996 treatments they didn't die.

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

O good, he describes my brain!

Plataica (Iván) @plataica.com · 13/08/2025

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📚 No hay mejor momento que el de la lectura "agustito", no pierdas el hilo... #Marcapáginas 📖 de latón con grabado de letras 👉 bit.ly/3PNevqz #joyeríaartesanal #hechoamano #envíogratis

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 13/08/2025

HOW stupid must some kinda PPL be to block PPL by list? Without knowing, interacting? And if U knew the topic... unbelieveable. I crawled on the floor in agony from MH issues when they were still standing in mommy & daddy's selection shelf.. #flyingmonkeys #beware #think #yourself

Digital painting of my first attempts of doing so, over ten years back:

human hands of different color (there is only ONE human kind, Homo sapiens), holding a glowing purple crystal ball together, their wrists connected by an electric blue scarf or large ribbon, binding them.

Words are a quote of myself, barely visible (so much for me being none mental health affected... that story is so long it would fill an evening!), saying "Don't become the Monster You Try to fight!"

And in white letters, on the lower end of the image, a quote by good Dr Martin Luther King Jr:
"When evil men plot, good men must plan. When evil men burn and bomb, good men must built and bimd. When evil men shout ugly words of hatred, good men must commit themselves to the glories of LOVE"

It is very hard to keep that at time, and I am definately not perfect, have my thoughts, but I also carry a large package I can not get rid of. In cases such as this, I try blaming it on their youth, yet some also are mere spoiled entitled brats, the next generation of freeloaders and troublemakers. HURTING all actually suffering from Mental Health issues. If that was not the case, I could not care less.

But it is a "The Boy who cried Wolf" situation, that nearly cost me my life twice too.

Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

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Recovering from surgery. Attempted some art and thought it was good enough to share. Please be kind.

It’s meant to be a terracotta pot with wildflowers in it against a sandstone brick wall.
I used oil pastels.

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(Imagine me saying so with that Jurassic Park Founder's voice) "I really hate that man..." Painting I did in 2020. One day, Trump will pay, I hope. He actually believes the Armed Forced r his personal Flying Monkeys! And - SLAVA UKRAINI

One of my very few Paintings been seen by people. Hand drawn, digitally, no ai. It shows the Star Trek character of Q, portrayed by Mr John De Lancie, wearing a TNG captain's uniform, a US flag draped around his right shoulder (left side from our point of view).

With a gleeful face he stretches out his hand, in which's palm soars the bust of a screaming Donald Trump, burning in electric blue flames.
Words show my artist name, AK_Hevonen, plus the title:
"There's only one real Q!"

I worked it out with Mr John De Lancie, rather, we worked two out. This one, and I hope it is OK to say so, was my idea, it refers to a scene of Star Trek TNG. When Q gets punished by the Continuum by having to be human ( well, he chose that over other options). When he gained back his Stae of being omnipotent again, he holds the calamarain in his palm like that, shrunk into a suiteable size.

Naturally, that episode, "Dejy Q" - and how I love puns! - is about Q having to learn to be humble, not those poor creatures held by him. But it fits, in a broader meaning, especially since Trump and his TrumpPets use his name so often...

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To ask an autistic person, an ACTUALLY autistic one, to be able to well adress people is like asking a person without legs to walk on their own. Not my words, but those of dear Professor Gillberg. @utafrith.bsky.social

Both my painting and drawing of Professor Christopher Gillberg, who is a very decent man. Painting on the left in colour, him wearing a dark suit with a light grey man's shirt, barely visible.

While listening to somebody, he rests his head on his right hand, fingers curled up. He wears a probably pleassantly heavy metal man's watch.

The drawing shows the very same, only in black and white, with a lined decoration on the left side.

Why do PPL so often address well meant words to hard working PPL, but not the actual lazy ones, who sell themselves as victims, r always fit 2 have fun, yet never to work, creating scenes bc they read up on what actual sufferes think.. You dont know my story. Im still standing. Against many odds

hand drawn digital painting, of my hand and upper arm, reaching out off dark and electric blue rimbed brush work, releasing some kind of star dust.

The Star dust shapes into a claddagh ring, mirroring the one I always wear. The arm is ensnared by branches.
Entire artwork is blue-ish, and a bit dark.

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

CEOs of Redbubble, this one is for you. It is NOT for the hardworking small employees of Redbubble, who are at the paying end, just as we artists are.. #commerce #greed #rich #redbubble #artists

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And well off people. Is this not one of our major issues in this world? Them vs Us? Will we ever learn and fix that...

TRaditional painting I did for my friends Ruta's friend "The Peace Dragon Project" project, Showing a large dragon eye, pupil reflecting planet earth as seen from Space. Purple-Pink background with a full moon in the upper right.

Text in lower right to center says "NO person is either good OR bad, by religion, nation, color of skin, sex and sexual orientation, disability and else only.
Until we grasp how we ALL are "individually-similar", we will never have total peace.

Traditional painting, hand drawn, no ai. Back then I had no own computer, could not afford one, and therefore my painting got seen, yet interest lost quickly, as I was unable to "keep up" with what most people did then already... I am always too late or too early.

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

4/ criterias in their education or media wise. The answer was ALWAYS "No". Which is absurd, given that 80% of us do live in western poverty, often inspite working..). Back 2 topic: Nonetheless I wonder how they manage to adapt like every month or two?? Do the apps get updated on such matters??

Digital painting I did some years ago of me and my supportworker no 2 (have three, as social jobs are payed poorly, they all work professionally in the field since ages and share helping me as extra income. Big mouthing Germany...).

The painting is very dark, matching my situation, SORRY, I am OK, just need to let it out sometimes too, and that was reflected in this painting).

It shows myself on the left, short and bigger, wearing deep purple clothings, and her on the left, wearing blueshing shirt and jeans. Being all tall and skinny. We must be one sight for the gods, I swear...

Both of us look at each other, smiling. Behind us is a red glow of spooky something, and around us dark branches with glowing red dots and tips in them. Tim Burton Style, hand drawn, no ai.

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

Effective HIV treatment makes sexual transmission of HIV impossible. The risk is zero. Tell everyone.

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 11/08/2025

AutismStory! Some thinx stressing me: Changing products. WHY? So often too! What abt old PPL, PPL w impaired vision, stressed parents hasting through stores.. am sure they too would appreciate some "stability". Or this! New packaging = my 🧠=👀 Took me 2years 2share #Photo #autism #shopping

Photography of one and the same product in different packaging. Its milk, in tiny portions, as I do not need much and can not bear much of it either.

No energy to see a doc to have this checked out, am glad if I manage getting to my GP and Psychiatrist and AutismDoc, thank you very much...

yeah, I know, I should have checked it out, but it has always been that way, I have my ideas and get them confirmed by experiences too, and it does not matter, not it my case.

Don't trust people who claim fatique and alike everytime they are expected to do something, but are always fit and running for fun or chasing overworked med staff for they have paranoia and are hypochondric. NOT referring to missunderstood patienst, I was one of them for ages.

They lay in ten-piece packs on my handpainted old table, a cute (purchased, not painted by me) cat Mini plate above them.

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AK_Hevonen @ak-hevonen.bsky.social · 07/08/2025

Caturday! Big Caturday! photography I took in 2009, having no own camera then, with a small Olympus, an average householdcam. Hence I cannot offer this on my Redbubble shop, its too small. But I did it! #bigcats #tiger #sumatra #photo #animals #photography #caturday #cats

Photo I took at Franfurt Zoo, many years ago. Her name was Malea, she is a Sumatra Tiger.

Lying super cute on her belly, hind paws stretched forward at the right, from our point of view, her head resting on both paws, fully covering them, and twisted to the left, again from our point of view.

I TRULY envy cats for their ability to sleep in all sorts of posititions, while I twist and turn endlessly, ever since I can remember (which goes WAAAAAYYY back, Autism Memory)

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Photography taken at the zoo, many years back. Grevy Zebra, rolling around and about to get up again from the dust. While black and white photography is beautiful, life comes in color. And we should ackknowledge that. #photography #animals #zebra #photo

Photo I took many years back at Frankfurt Zoo, showing a Grevy Zebra in the upwards rolling turn to get back on it's feet. One hind hoof can be seen underneath the belly, ready to step underneath. Black and white photo.

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 09/08/2025

What a wonderful birthday gift! 🙏🥰❤️

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Matthew Hodson @matthewhodson.bsky.social · 09/08/2025

Tadaaaahhh!! Happy Birthday, know that you are very much loved and appreciated, that I am so glad I "met" you and hope doing so in real life one day... Matthew, the SpaceRaven, juggling the moons of variety. Hand drawn, no ai

This years' Birthday Painting, made for the one and only Matthew " Hottie " Hodson. Background is flexible = PNG file. I chose a dark anthracite for it .

Matthew, having large black feathered Wings, wearing a dark vest and a long dark skirt, juggling the rainbow moons of life... Behind him, a big full moon. Happy Birthday! Hand drawn, no ai.

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I was diagnosed HIV+ when I was 30. It was 1998 and I had lost many friends to the virus. HIV treatment then was new. I was told I could expect to live 20 years, that I’d make it to 50. Today I turn 58! HIV treatment works. It also means no risk of passing HIV on during sex. Isn’t science great?

Me on holiday in 1997, staying with friends in the Bahamas. I’m on a boat, having just been scuba diving for the first time and I am grinning from ear to ear. My hair is thick, dark and awesome.

Me last week, working out at home. I’m wearing a smile and a Protect the Dolls vest. My hair is short, grey and awesome.

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When your Online Friend has his birthday today but is still slumbering... wakey-wakey @matthewhodson.bsky.social , I have a painting for you! XXXXX again 😮😘💌

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